Just needing to clear my head... and vent.... (I'm currently on 225ui of Menopur and Puregone, and just finished my last dose of Saizen tonight. I started off with one month of Androgel and about 10 days of Estrace priming.)
So went in for my second ultrasound today and it confirmed just two follicles. I am now on day 10 of stims. The doctor today didn't seem discouraged and if anything he's saying that we should go ahead with retrieval. He said that even though I have two, I have age on my side as he considers me "young" and that chances are the quality of my eggs would be good. He said that the sizes at this point are really good - both were measuring a little over 17mm. He's optimistic that they will find eggs in them. I don't know what to think. I was almost hoping they would just cancel my cycle but he said that at this point "there's nothing they can do for me and that this could be the best I could do". I still don't know about that though. I feel like I could do better.... but I won't argue with the expert at this point.
He asked me for my AMH value and I told him it was normal and his nurse looked it up and confirmed it was and it was done Dec 2015. He said that there's something that "doesn't jive" with my blood work and how I'm responding. He says that with this results I should be producing a lot of follies, but I'm not. He said that from that time of testing, my AMH could've changed at this point? (can it really drop that much though?? to a point where I could be considered DOR? - that doesn't make sense to me, but ok). He also said that I'm on the highest dose of meds, something that they would give a 48 year old. ULLGGGHHH just don't know what to think now... and then he did say, if all fails, I could consider a mini-IVF to see if I respond better. So, this is something that I would look into for sure. All he said was this will entail lower dose meds to see if my ovaries will respond better.... we'll see about that... for now I'm just taking it one day at a time. I have another BW and US this monday. He thinks I'll be triggered then and ER as soon as wednesday....
He also checked my uterine lining and it is about 7mm I believe, and he says that my lining should be fine and will keep thickening in these next couple of days. I don't know what to think...
I would love to see some success stories. Morale is a bit low today, though I'm trying with all my might to take it one day at a time. My DH is definitely more optimistic than I am and I am grateful for his never ending support but right now, I feel the need to hear from others who's gone thru the same experience I am having... just feeling down at the moment.
Sorry for the long message! I definitely got carried away but thank you for your patience reading!
Hope everyone else is having a better day than I am!