I haven't felt a lot - a little bit of nausea yesterday, and I am exhausted - but that seems to be getting a tiny bit better now that I have started doing a "pregnancy workout" every morning. (It's only about 20-25 minutes, designed to be gentle enough for all three trimesters). I used to love working out but am so scared to do any hard exercise now.
I hear you on the looks and staring. None of my family is in the same province as me, but I have a cousin who tries every single day to get me to tell her. Even after I said I wouldn't say a word, regardless of our IVF outcome, until three months later. It gets really annoying - I mean, don't people realize that this is like any pregnancy in the risks? Why do I want to tell tons of people, only to worry I would then have to tell every last one of them if I miscarry? Even telling a couple of people would be miserable.
I am looking forward to our ultrasound. I've heard they can see the heartbeat, even if it can't be heard, with the internal ultrasound. I am not too concerned about it being invasive - we're cleared for sex (we haven't though - DH is too freaked out by the Crinone). And of course, yeah, I already have to insert Crinone every day, and then I have to clear it out every few days too. I feel like my body is plenty invaded already. Speaking of the Crinone - I had my first major pregnancy panic on Wednesday. I realized as I went to do my Crinone for the day that I had forgotten to do it the day before - so 48 hours without any progesterone. I freaked out, googled it and read a dip in progesterone can cause a miscarriage, and started thinking about how my mistake was going to take away my baby. I took the day off worked and cried all morning until my clinic called me back and basically told me to chill out - she said I'd be fine, that the body is already producing its own progesterone, and forgetting a day was no big deal. I've set a cell phone alarm to remind me from now on though.
June, July, Aug, Sep 2016: IUI. All BFN.
January 2017: IVF #1. 7 eggs retrieved, 6 fertilized. 1 transferred on day 5 - BFP! DD born 10/08/17. (2 embryos frozen)
Nov 2018: FET #1. 1 transferred. Chemical pregnancy.
Dect 2018: FET #2. Last embryo transferred. BFN.
April 2019: IVF #2. 16 eggs retrieved, 11 fertilized. 1 transferred on day 5 (5 frozen). Chemical pregnancy again.
Aug 2019: FET #3. 1 transferred - BFP! Lost HB at 9 week U/S. MMC.
Nov 2019: FET #4. 1 transferred - BFP again! Hoping this is our strong embryo!