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#1 delusion

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 11:27 AM

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Hi all,

 

at one point I have promised to myself if I ever have children I will share my story to give hope to others. So here we go...

 

My husband and I were 28 when we have agreed it's time for a baby. Two years, countless ovulation tests and disappointments later we realized it's not going to be that easy. Then we went to fertility center and after switching few doctors we ended up with Dr Librach. I must say I DO believe he's the best fertility specialist out there and if anyone is able to help in GTA it would be him.

 

My husband had lower quality semen (on the lower end of the normal range) and I have PCOS and homo MTFHR. Nothing particularly serious that cannot be treated.

I've done 7 IUI cycles - 6 with Clomid, 7th with Gonal F. Got pregnant 3 times and miscarried all 3 (one pregnancy had twins). Then we decided to move on to IVF. Once again, I got pregnant on a fresh cycle, but miscarried at week 9 - this was the longest pregnancy for me, so the disappointment was even higher. Overall, we spent 3 years on treatements.

 

I was taking Metformin, baby aspirin, dexamethasone, intralipid injections in addition to regular cycle meds like estrogen, progesterone, etc. I was heartbroken. I was barely holding and was considering dropping out of the game. My husband was the only thing that held me strong. He took all the losses very sensitively, but he could not consider the possibility for us not to have children. I promised him we will continue trying until we turn 35 yrs old, after that we may reconsider our views. My biggest fear was to waste my life trying and losing bebies, then realizing at 40s that I haven't had a chance to enjoy my time while remaining childless. We had to accept many restrictions in order to continue with fertility treatements.

 

Well, last October we went for FET. I got pregnant again. With twins. The only mild difference we have made this time was (a) FET instead of fresh cycle (B) progesterone shots instead of suppositories © 2 dexamethasone pills a day instead of 1. At one point I counted 11 pills/shots I was doing daily for the first 12 weeks. Every single week we went for an u/s was hell: I was shaking with fear to hear about yet another loss. The first 12 weeks were shockingly tough on us mentally. I had 2 big bleeding/sotting incidents, not something that helps to ease your mind. Finally, at 13 weeks we've been told babies look great, Harmony test came back negative, and we can move on to a real obstetrician.

 

At 19 weeks u/s we've discovered that my cervix is getting shorter and shorter. By week 21 it was only 2 cm long. I was mentally drained. I was crying every minute night and day. I was so afraid to get that far and lose babies for another reason. I left work and stayed home. I literally self-prescribed complete bed rest. I got up only to walk 10 feet to the washroom, took shower once a week (10 min max), and got up once a day to walk to the kitchen in mid day to microwave lunch. That's it. Everyday before going to work, my husband would place pillows/extra things under the mattress, so I end up at an angle with my feet up (to keep pressure off the cervix). I was worried every single second. My husband and I cried when we realized we may not carry babies to life. After 24 weeks I got mentally prepared for an early labour and the possibility of having extremely premature babies. But time went on and on. First I thought I'd feel happier once I reach 28 weeks, then 32 weeks, etc. But weeks were passing by, and I didn't feel less worried. At the end, I manage to carry past 37 weeks and would have lasted longer, but was prescribed labour induction b/c of high blood pressure. My babies came into life healthy and marked as "healthy full term newborns".

 

These are dry facts, but I cannot explain how much I went through the past 3 years with 5 pregnancies and 4 miscarriages. What we felt during the last 4 months of my pregnancy, how worried we were, how we haven't given ourselves a single second to feel happy for the pregnancy because of the fear to jinx it, to lose it again. I didn't even feel the magic moment when I 've heard babies cry for the first time - the only thought in my mind was if they're healthy and everything is normal.

 

Right now my twins are almost 3 months old. They are beautiful, amazing, developping well. Every day I thank Lord for giving them to me, even if it means very hard times and many sleepless nights.

 

Pls, do not lose hope. Things do happen. We never found out the reason for our losses, but we kept going, we kept hitting heads against the wall and we've got what we wanted. I want your hearts to fill with hope. Good luck. Be strong.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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#2 amp77

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 11:49 AM

Thank you so much for sharing your story!  It certainly offers hope and is also a reminder to everyone that the journey does not stop with the BFP.  There are so many things that can happen during pregnancy and, even if there are no scares, many of us worry that something will happen or may happen and it can be very difficult to enjoy the pregnancy.

 

Congratulations on bringing home your little ones, and thanks again for sharing!


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Age 40, DH 44 in Oct.

TTC on and off since 2007 before our second IVF, in 2014, brought us our beautiful son and our first FET brought us our second son in 2017.  Our family is complete!

 

IVF #1 - April 2014 - BFN - no frosties

 

IVF #2 - July 2014 - BFP - 5B-AB and 4 frosties (5B-BB, 2x4B-BB and 3B-BB)

Apr. 13, 2015 - Daniel Erik was born at 5:05 am, weight 8 lbs, 13 oz, and 22" long.  He is perfect in every way.

 

FET #1 - September 2016 - BFP - 5B-BB and 3 frosties (2x4B-BB and 3B-BB)

June 18, 2017 - Matthew William was born at 2:46 am, weight 8 lbs, 11 oz and 21" long.  He is perfect in every way too!

 

 


#3 ENF

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 11:53 AM

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Enjoy your beautiful babies!

Me - 37   DH - 45 (Paraplegic)   
 

FET planned for spring 2017


#4 Laura1976

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 12:13 PM

Congrats.  Enjoy your babies, time goes too fast!


ME 35 SO 32 TTC #1 since September 2008

See 'About me Page' for more cycle history

November 29/11 - Unexplained IF/Recurrent loss testing

Compliment C3 & C4 below acceptable range
LA Ratio DRVVT above acceptable range
Lupus Inhibitor demonstrated
Antiphospholipid IgG above acceptable range
Antiphospholipid IgM above acceptable range (more than double)


Consultation @ VFC December 10/11

IVF/ICSI #2 (with Intralipid therapy) January/February (Victoria Fertility Clinic)
BCP December 16 -29/11 & January 6 - 28/12
Vitamin D (2000iu daily) and Iron Supplement (Ferrous Gluconate 300mg daily) - Start December 24 until Dr advises otherwise, PregVit 5 (Starting January 12/11), Vitamin E (800iu daily) until Heparin begins (Starting January 14/11) Fish Oil (1200iu daily)
Superfact (0.5mg) - Start January 22/12
Dexamethasone (0.5mg) - Start February 4/12 until beta

After ER - Doxycycline (100mg), Estrance (2mg), Prometrium (200mg 3x day), heparin 5000 units (2x day), calcium (1500mg daily), low dose aspirin (81mg daily)
Intralipids - February 13/12 and day of ET
Neupogen Uterine Flush - Day of ER

February 2/12 - E2 35p/mol
February 4/12 - 300iu Gonal-F & 75iu Repronex
February 9/12 - U/S & E2 - RIGHT- 11, 9, 10, 19, 8, 12, 11, 10, 13, 6 LEFT: 12, 7, 10, 10, 8, 6, 5, 5 E2 2635

February 9/12 Gonal-F lowered to 225iu Repronex remains at 75iu
February 11/12 - U/S & E2 - Right 14, 10, 11, 12, 10, 13, 12, 12, 14, 7 LEFT: 11, 8, 10, 13, 9, 8, 8 E2 5610
February 13/12 - U/S an E2??? & Intralipid Therapy
February 16/12 - E/R 20 eggs, 17 mature and ICSI'ed, 3 left to fertilize by regular IVF
February 17/12 - Fert Report 16 fertilized by ICSI, 1 fertilized by IVF
February 20/12 - Neupogen injection
February 21/12 - Transferred 2 Blastocysts ( 1 x Grade 19 Early Blast, 1 x Grade 19 Expanded Blast) and Intralipid Therapy and Acupuncture

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#5 unsure

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 12:49 PM

Thank you for sharing. 


Me - 36
DH - 43
Issue - using sperm frozen pre DH's cancer treatment
 
IVF#1: July 2014
- retrieved 13 eggs, 11 fertilized with ICSI, 5 made it to day 5, 2 came back normal after PGS
- transferred 1 on day 6
- BFN
 
FET#1: Sep 2014
- transferred remaining frostie
- BFN
 
IVF#2: Nov 2014

- 2 PGS normal frosties

 

FET#2:  Dec 2014

- transferred 1 blast on Dec 2

- BFP!  Due date Aug 22, 2015!


#6 Genedoc

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 01:00 PM

I'm very happy that you got your dream come true! Hope it was an easier road for you and your husband. Have a  healthy and happy family!



#7 amazing grace

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 02:09 PM

Thank you for sharing your story. It is stories like that and the support I receive from the women on this forum that I am still at it. Congratulations on the success because I know first hand how challenging it can be. I too had three miscarriages and a failed cycle. Just recently I got the courage to leave my new clinic and move on. Wishing you love always, happiness consistently and memories to keep forever.


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#8 fatia99

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Posted 19 September 2014 - 11:28 PM

ahh, your story got me all teary eyed....... Thank you for sharing!  Just when you think you have a really sad story, someone else has gone through so much more......  I'm so happy you got your babies!  Its really an inspiration to all of us and proof that miracles do happen with a little bit of help from modern medicine :)


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Me 37 Dh 41

We have a 4.5 year old healthy boy......

 

This is where it goes downhill:

TTC since 2012

MC#1 at 14 wk

MC#2 at 6 wk chemical pregnancy

MC#3 at 9 wk

 

IVF consult Feb 2014

RE recommended IVF with PGS

IVF#1 - cancelled due to poor response WTF?

IVF#2 - cancelled, WTF #2?

IVF#3- still poor response, 1 egg retrived &fertilized

5dt - Aug 29

Beta #1 - Sep 10th - 396

Beta #2 - Sep 12th - 900+

U/S - Sep 25th - heartbeat in 130s (Yeah!)

 


#9 rollergirl

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Posted 30 September 2014 - 01:16 AM

I am glad to hear of your story....congrats on the twins and once you get out to the "zombie" phase it will be a lot better!! Unless your twins are already sleeping through the night then even more congrats!!


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#10 hundredmiledog

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Posted 03 October 2014 - 05:24 PM

Thank you so much for sharing your story. DP and I are heading into a FET cycle soon, and I'm so scared and anxious after the last two losses. Really feeling it today. Your story made me cry. I'm so happy for you. Thanks for giving me hope.
Me-36 DP-35
TTC since February 2013 

5 unsuccessful DIs (3 unmedicated and 2 with injectables), February 2013-September 2013
DI 6, unmedicated w trigger, October 2013 - "last ditch effort" before IVF - BFP!!  
Due June 28, 2014 - our pride baby!  HB on 6 & 7 week U/S.
10 wk scan showed missed MC just after second U/S. Beyond devastated. 

DX, December 2013 -  DOR, homozygous MTHFR mutation, and karyotype translocation.  
Moving on to reciprocal IVF, my uterus & DP's eggs.  

IVF #1, May 2014 - 12 retrieved, eleven fertilized, 4 blasts!  Way to go DP!!  
May 11 - transferred 5 day blast
May 16 - poas - very faint BFP!!
May 23-June 1- beta limbo. Levels not doubling.
June 2 - U/S - sac, pole, but no HB visible 
June 6 - MC. So sad, but less shocked this time.
mid July - betas still up, rpoc and polyp on US 
Successful polypectomy September 17 

FET #1Oct 29, 2014 - transferred one beautiful hatching 5 day blast
6dp5dt: th_abfp.gif!!!!!  Beta 189 at 10dp5dt, 433 at 12dp5dt. 
Nov 24 - 6w3d - Tiny fluttering heartbeat on U/S!  121bpm, measuring right on track.
Dec 8 scan - our gummy bear is measuring 8w3d with a heartbeat of 179 bpm.
Next scan on Dec 22.