I'm new to this board. I learned about this site from Hannam Fertility Centre in Toronto where DH and I just recently completed our diagnostic cycle monitoring. We have plans for IVF with ICSI in July 2014. My husband and I have been married for 4 years and TTC for 3 years now. We both have a strike against us with our fertility (me: endometrioma on L. ovary and endometriosis. DH: Azoospermia [non-obstructive and obstructive]).so together and independently we've had a rough time coping with matters as we endeavor down this baby business journey; however, I have to say we are doing better at this time than we were at this time last year, which is when we began to find out the cause of our fertility issues. Last year at this time I couldn't even talk about our issues with anybody (friends, family, coworkers) without breaking out into tears... I remember for almost a year I avoided seeing my friends; I cried for the entire day on Mother's Day last year and got into a major argument with my husband because he bought mother's day gifts and cards for his grandma and mother, but nothing for me. My husband and I ended up having to undergo therapy as a couple for a few months last Spring, took the Summer "off", and then I continued on my own into the Fall, because I was having a more difficult time coping. Today, we are both coping with our issues much better. I've been reading self-help books (Alice Domar's "Conquering Infertility" really helped me learn coping mechanisms). I've learned to become more open with my friends, to explain what it is I am going through and what it is that I need from them to help support me. I can now talk about my DH and I's issues without sobbing. However, it's still not all peaches and roses; DH and I both still can't help but wonder if someone is trying to tell us something, because each time we think we are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, new and more complicated challenges continue to present themselves to us, and there were are again, feeling like we are set back again on our quest for a baby. With each challenge we are trying to think that "this too shall pass" and are trying to "keep calm and chive on". Each night before I go to sleep I try to think of 5 things that I am thankful for. This has really helped me to keep my thoughts positive and to keep my life in perspective.
I'm really looking forward to getting to know others on this site and to supporting one another.
Thanks for reading
Here's a snapshot of our history:
Me: 34 y.o.; DH: 37 y.o;
July 2011 - started TTC
May 2012 - DH: SA ordered; GP report to DH that test results = "normal" range.
Jan to July 2013 - DH and me: RE ordered a series of b/w for us both and another SA for DH.
Mar 2013 - DH: SA results = vol. 1.5 mL (less than 1 million sperm). Rare motility and very low morphology.
April 2013 - DH: confronted GP with news from RE about SA from May 2012 that results were not "normal" but actually quite the opposite. Severely abnormal! Both heartbroken. GP apologized and admitted he'd misread the SA. What a waste of time...
May 2013 - Me: started taking Levothyroxine med to regulate thyroid (hypo-thyroidism).
July 2013 - Me: u/s discovered 4.2 cm cyst on left ovary. Fallopian tubes open.
Oct 2013 - Me: u/s re-administered, cyst now 4.8 cm. Possible endometriosis. Need surgery to remove. Stopped actively TTC.
Nov. 2013 - DH: biopsy and u/s with UR... u/s revealed obstructive azoospermia (thin vas deferens) and non-obstructive azoospermia (sperm not maturing in testicle - unexplained).
March 2014 - Me: Laparoscopy surgery performed to remove endometrioma cyst on L. ovary. Biopsy revealed non-cancerous. Stage 3 endometriosis removed.
April 2014 - Me: Began cycle monitoring (b/w & u/s) with Hannam Fertility Centre.
May 2014 - DH: consult with UR at Mt. Sinai. Suggested sperm banking and suggested surgery TESA (testicular sperm aspiration) for IVF with ICSI in July 2014. Will have DS on hand incase TESA doesn't work (or if there's nothing worth extracting) so as to not waste IVF cycle......
Now we wait...