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#1 miko

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 05:03 PM

Our 3rd daughter, Thea was born still at 21 weeks, 6 days on October 14th, 2012, at 00:15 am. She was already so incredibly loved.

We started suspecting problems when my quad screen came back with a 1:7 chance for Trisomy 21. At 17.5 weeks we had an amnio done to determine the best course of action (we live a long way from a high level nicu). The MFM specialist noted that her fluid was low and she was measuring a bit behind but there didn't seem to be any other markers. That was the day we found out we were having another girl---DH has always said he'd be the daddy of (all) girls. We sat on pins and needles to get the wonderful news on the quick results 3 days later that baby was chromosonally 'normal'. There was still a slight risk that something may have shown up on the full karotype but the low fluid explained my high quad screen levels. We were told to proceed with my regular OB/GYN but to come back to the city in 3 weeks for another high level ultrasound. DH started calling baby by the name we were considering and as soon as he did that, we knew she *was* Thea (Thee-ah)

I had my regular anatomy ultrasound at the diagnostic imaging clinic near home. Of course the tech couldn't tell me anything but when I asked about my fluid levels, she asked the radiogist if she could let me know---fluid was still low but they couldn't tell me how low.

I had my regular OB appointment the following week, feeling anxious as I hadn't felt much movement for a few days. My OB could not find the heartbeat with the doppler or her older ultrasound machine and I was sent back for an emergency ultrasound. I was all alone, an hour from home, thinking my baby was gone. DH was driving as fast as he could to be with me but I had that ultrasound alone----but they found her heartbeat, she was OK!!! She had moved to transverse and had her spine to my (fluffy) belly.

We went back out to the city for our follow-up at the MFM clinic. The ultrasound tech kept asking if I had any leaking, I hadn't. Finally the specialist came in to take a look and I was terrified when she said Thea's heart was deceling every time I layed on my back. Cord blood flow looked fine. She took me into an exam room and swabbed me for amniotic fluid, no leak. Thea only had 1cm of fluid around her and was in a tight jack-knife position. We were walked through the hospital complex to get an emergency MRI on Thea's kidneys and bladder. We were to come back in the following week for results and another consultation.

We drove home the next day, Wednesday. I was so scared but we were still optimistic. Friday I just felt off. I had a steady crampiness in my lower back and I wasn't feeling much movement. I figured she may have moved from her breech position back to transverse. I was just uneasy. We had freezing rain that day and I was anxious about driving an hour on the highway to get to the hospital but I figured I wouldn not be able to relax until we checked on her so we finally had my parents pick up our girls and headed for L&D at 9 at night.

My OB was the one on call, thank goodness. The nurse wasn't able to find Thea's heartbeat with the doppler but I wasn't TOO worried, that had happened before and she had been ok. Same thing when their older ultrasound machine couldn't see anything. DH and the doctor thought they may have seen a flicker but they were not sure. I thought I felt a slight movement afterward but by that point my mind was exhausted. My Ob told me that she had gotten the MRI results that day and it looked as if Thea did have 2 kidneys and a bladder---both great signs. We were so tired, my OB admitted me into the maternity side so that we could get a proper ultrasound first thing in the morning. I had a restless night but I still had hope.

Saturday morning I had the ultrasound first thing. The tech was completely unreadable but when I asked her what way baby was lying and she said transverse, I felt hope---just like last time I thought! DH and I walked past the cafeteria and I told him to get a hot chocolate, he hadn't had breakfast. I continued back to our room in the maternity ward solo. I had just sat on the bed when the new doctor on call came into the room and introduced herself. Then she told me that baby didn't have a heartbeat, that she was sorry, did we want to go home and make plans or did I want to induce that day?. DH wasn't even in the room! I will always be angry that she couldn't wait that 2 extra minutes to tell me, she left and DH walked in and I had to tell him our daughter was gone. We sobbed together and finally rang the nurses to tell them that yes, we wanted to be induced.

The doctor finally showed back up at 1:30 in the afternoon to insert the cyotec (sp?) tablets. My last pregnancy had been a C/S so they didn't want to start me on too high a dose. My parents came to grieve with us and bring our bag. We didn't tell our girls what was going on---they were out selling girl guide cookies with their troops. I had so much support, two very good friends who have seen me through our battle with secondary infertility and this pregnancy were texting me with support, a mutual friend of ours, a L&D nurse down in California was texting them with information and suport. One friend was 8 hours away but the one that was 3 hours away made the difficult choice to drive down to support DH and I. She got to the hospital just as my parents were leaving, there wasn't much happening with my labor by that point, just the odd low level contraction. She was a great comfort, and she enabled my DH to leave the room to get food etc. I wanted to walk around, but we were to remain in that tiny recovery room in the Maternity ward the whole time. It wasn't as bad after I got my IV in, it covered up the sounds of newborns down the hall but I still had to look at the breastfeeding info and newborn protocols on the bulliten board at the end of my bed.

I got a 1/2 shot of morphine, it didn't do much but we were all calm for most of the afternoon. By 8pm I was getting mad, the doctor hadn't been back to check on me and she had said she would insert another dose by that point. Contractions wavered. I wanted the pain to have something to concentrate on. After another hour, I was emotionally done, I got the full shot of morphine and relaxed for a bit, when the haze wore off I was getting angry again, still no doctor and the contractions were getting intense but there was still no blood or amniotic fluid. The nurses only came in when we buzzed them or to check my vitals, we were left very much to ourselves. I was both glad and saddened by that. My nurse friend from Cali said that was normal. She also warned us that when it was time, baby would come quickly and likely be born in her placenta.

At exactly 11pm I felt a gush and when I checked it, it was blood. I buzzed the nurses like they had requested. The two maternity nurses, one a student, came in with one of the veteren L&D nurses and they checked me. I wasn't feeling pushy yet but the contractions had picked up. This is when I completely broke down. I sobbed for 15 minutes, with them gently holding my legs. I was trying to tell them that her name was Thea but I just couldn't get it out. DH was crying, our friend was crying, and I'm pretty sure the student nurse was crying. DH finally figured out what I was trying to say and finished my sentence for me. After that I said aloud, ok, I've got to focus. I knew that my emotion had stopped my contractions---that happens in a normal labor, why should this be any different. I had to let go of that fear.

As soon as I relaxed the contractions continued and picked up. Honestly the delivery was harder physically than I thought it would be, and I had a 9lb10oz posterier baby before, without meds. I pushed for 25 minutes before I felt her come out, as told, born in her placenta. The nurses had already asked if we wanted to see her and at that time they asked if we wanted to see her in her placenta or after they cleaned her up. We chose to see her cleaned up. Luckily most everything came out at once so I didn't have to have much uterine pushing or any pitocin. It was not how I had envisioned my VBAC but there was some tiny amount of comfort in not having to have surgery. DH climbed into bed with me and we held each other and sobbed while we waited for the nurses to bring her back to us.

We had brought a flannel blanket that my Mom had made, that both our daughters had been wrapped in at birth. I was so thankful my Mom had been able to find it when she packed our bags for us. The nurses placed her on a carefully folded chux pad , on that blanket. They took SO much care in arranging her to look as beautiful as possible, with her little hands up by her face and her knees tucked up. It was both horrible and wonderful to see her, she was even smaller than I thought, only 200grams but long for her size I`m told and her bones and skull were still soft so it was difficult to hold her but she was beautiful and perfect and ours and we were so grateful to be able to hold her for 30 minutes while our friend quietly took a few pictures for us. I didn`t want to let her go, but she was `deflating`in front of us and I was so tired. We said goodbye and gave her back to the nurses and they assured me they would keep her with them through the night in case we wanted to see her again. They took hand and footprints for us

We were asked what we wanted to do with the body the next morning, we had decided to have her cremated. I filled out the certificate of stillbirth. We decided not to give her a middle name, we hadn`t decided on one and one little name seemed like enough for her. The doctor that was on call asked if we wanted an autopsy but basically said she didn`t think it would find anything significant as the placenta looked proper for term, we had already had karotyping and we had `two healthy children`. I wonder now if we should have, but at that time I just could not bear to put her tiny body through that so we declined. I asked if there was something to prevent my milk from coming in but she said she didn`t think it would this early---she was wrong, I had breastfed both my babies, struggling with low supply, not knowing at the time it was PCOS related, but being passionate, we made it work for 15 months with our eldest and over 2 years for our youngest. I`m sitting here typing this being painfully engorged, taking sudafed and applying cabbage leaves and wanting to put Thea to my breast in the worst possible way.

I think the hardest thing in the world is to drive from the hospital after giving birth to the funeral home but we needed to sign forms to have her cremated and I hated the thought of her little body being left at the hospital any longer than needed. We paid for the cremation but were underwhelmed by our choices of urns. DH and I met in art school, I`m a potter, so the thought of putting her into something mass produced just felt wrong. DH asked if I wanted to make something for her ashes but it was just too much--and I`d be worried about a clay piece getting broken in our busy home. I suggested a velvet lined Selagor pewter box that his Mom had given us in her downsizing that we had at home, DH had grown up as an ex-pat in Malaysia where it was purchased and it has been treasured for nearly 30 years. It already meant something to us and it is beautiful and unique. It has always sat on our beside table or bedroom shelf, so seeing it there wouldn`t be upsetting. The next day my Mom gave us an even tinier lidded box, a turned copper pot that was handmade that I had bought her for mother`s day at a gallery in banff where we had spent the weekend. This box we were able to seal and put into the pewter box that we had engraved. We loved the thought of Thea being held by something that had belonged to both of our mothers, to which we are both so close.

We came home and had to tell our daughters, who are 5.5 and 8. We pulled them into bed with us at 5 in the afternoon and told them. We cried together. Our 5.5 year old asked lots of questions which we answered. I think it took the pressure off our 8 year old who was scared to say anything that might hurt us. We cried some more and all fell asleep in each other`s arms.

I want her to be remembered. She was so loved.
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dd#1, 2004 dd#2, 2007, breech C/S
secondary infertility, TTC since 2009
Oct 2010, referral to fertility clinic
Nov 2010, HSG, right tube blockage
First RE appointment April,2011, recommended lap
elevated prolactin---bromocriptine vaginally
slight insulin resistence---metformin
PCOS diagnosis
4months of clomid 50
break, trying naturally
4 months of clomid 50
Oct 2011 laproscopy/right tube removal, NO endo!
4 months of clomid 100
BFP last clomid cycle March 30th 2012
early miscarriage April 14th 2012
clomid 100
shocking BFP June 9th 2012
August 16th, N/T ultrasound 12.5 weeks---inconclusive
Sept 11th, quad screen results 1:7 Trisomy 21
Sept 18th, amnio, it's girl#3!
MFM specialist notes baby measuring a bit small, low fluid/ followup in 3 weeks
FISH results back, chromosones normal!!!
Sept 26th, regular anatomy ultrasound
Oct 5th, reg OB, can't find HB, emergency ultrasound, Found her, ok!!!
Oct 9th, MFM specialist, ultrasound, fluid measuring 1cm, measuring behind dates
emergency MRI to look at her kidneys
she has kidneys and bladder!
October 12th, lack of movement/backache, go to L&D
can't find heartbeat with doppler, admitted for the night to have ultrasound early AM
October 13th, ultrasound confirms baby has passed at 21wks 4days
October 14th, 2012, 00:15, Baby Thea comes into this world, born still
Hoping to try one last time in 2013

Started Clomid 100 again, Feb-May 2013 no luck

Waiting to see our RE on Oct 28th

+HPT on  October 27th, light spotting,

conceived a year to the day after losing Thea

RE visit, do all IUI tests just in case,

October 29th  positive blood test

November 10th, Betas are beautiful, EDD July 7!

#2 Heregoesnothing



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Posted 19 October 2012 - 05:15 PM

Wow. I have no words... just eyes filled with tears. Thank-you for sharing.

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#3 Hoping4_1

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 05:33 PM

Just wanted to say I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a unbearable loss.

I'm also from the Edmonton clinic and I've had 2 second trimester losses. If you ever need someone to talk to just pm me.
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#4 TammyO

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 05:37 PM

OMGoodness...thank you for sharing your story with us! I wish there as something I could say to help ease your pain. HUGE ((((((((hugs)))))))) to you and your family!
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IVF #1 March 2012 BFN :(
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#5 ladylazarus

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 06:46 PM

There are just no words good enough....i'm so very sorry. May she be forever in your hearts....
Me - 46 One Blocked Tube, One Sleepy Ovary
DH - 56 Tired Swimmers
"I've had dreams enough for one, And I've got love enough for three..."
TTC 4 years
2007 - Charts, temps, pre-seed & all the rest - BFN every month
2008 - 7 IUI's in Seattle, using Femera- All BFN
2009 IVF/ICSI #1 @ PCRM - Canceled Long Lupron, no response (of course!)
2009 IVF/ICSI #2 @ PCRM - BFP, but low HCG (49 @ 11dp3dt), chemical
2010 IVF/ICSI #3 @ VFC - BFP!! Third time was a charm!

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 07:10 PM

Tears are in my eyes... I'm so sorry for your loss...thank you for sharing your story...so tragic and sad!
ME-39 DH-39
TTC 9 years
Unexplained infertility / mild male factor
6 Cycles Clomid - BFN
1 Laproscopy
2 IUI's- BFN
1st IVF - April 2008 - M/C @ 6 wks - OFC
1st Beta 25, 2nd Beta 87, 3rd Beta 257 BFP
2nd IVF - January 2y009 - No transfer - OFC
ER 23 eggs, 20 mature, 17 fertilized - TOTAL EPIC FAILURE - ALL 17 Embies arrested in development by Day 5
3rd IVF - June 2009 - This is it! - New Clinic - Montreal Fertility Centre
ER: June 8th - 16 fertilized eggs (no frosties)
ET: June 11th (2 excellent 8cell) & 13th (1 perfect blast)
June 24 1st Beta: 312 BFP
June 26 2nd Beta: 682
July 13 US: Singleton HB 130
July 25 US: HB 175 saw fetus moving
Aug 8 US: HB 165 all perfect
Aug 17 US: HB 157 all perfect
Oct 5 US: It's a BOY!!!!
Born March 3, 2010 - Julien Tristan
May 2011 - Natural BFP - Ectopic
Now trying the old fashion way - Bust
4th IVF - Dec 2011 - Back to OFC
Jan 16 - ER 11 eggs - 3 mature, 2 fertilized (OFC f**ked up again - triggered me too soon)
Jan 18 - Emergency Day 2 ET - 2 4 cell embryo's transferred
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5th & Final IVF - July 2012 - 3rd opinion - Hannam Fertility
Satelitte monitoring at OFC
ER - July 24
ET - July 27
Beta - Aug 10
Transferred 3 perfect embryos - 1 blast frozen
Aug 6 - HPT ++++++
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Aug 10th Beta - 445
Aug 27th US ~ 1 perfect little bean HB 120
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Due Date: April 16th, 2013 It's a GIRL!!!
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#7 Pandabear8

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 07:57 PM

I have no words. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. Hugs to you and your family.
Me: 40 DH: 42 Failed Vasectomy Reversal

IVF #1
August 31, 2011 - ER, 24 eggs (12 mature, 8 borderline, 4 immature)
September 1, 2011 - Fertilization report: 15 fertilized through ICSI.
September 5, 2011 - ET, eSET 5 day blast
September 6, 2011 - 4 frozen 6 day blasts
September 19, 2011 - BFP! EDD: May 24, 2012
October 7, 2011 - Ultrasound. One little bean, heartbeat 147 b/m
October 30, 2011 - Miscarried at 10weeks3days.

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April 12 - Miscarried at 6weeks

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 08:04 PM

My heart breaks for you and your family. I hope and pray that you are able to find some peace at some point. My thoughts are with you.

#9 leigh14

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 08:23 PM

I have tears in my eyes reading what you are going through. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Sending you huge hugs and strength.
Me: 40
Dx: DH: Vasectomy; need IVF/ICSI ME: D.O.R. and many immunological issues. (Initially presented as "normal" but issues were only discovered after IVF attempt #2 and #3 after testing at new clinic)
IVF attempt #1 Nov.2009, Age 37: Long "Lupron" protocol
Dec.2009: Cycle cancelled due to oversuppression
IVF attempt #2, Age 38: April 2010: 3 eggs retrieved, 2 mature, 2 fertilized, ET of 2 embryos BFN
IVF atempt #3 at new clinic: November 2010, Age 38: 5 eggs retrieved, 4 mature, 4 fertilized, ET of 2 blastocysts BFP
Strong beta numbers but babies not measuring on track but one heartbeat is present. Followup u/s reveals no HB's :( Had D&C--so sad.
Moved to new clinic closer to home + more of a focus on testing for potential immunological factors:
Further testing reveals three mutations related to inherited thrombophilia (2 MTHFR mutations and PA1-1 mutation), positive ANA, elevated NK cells and cytokines and low levels of leukocyte antibodies (LADS), Recommended Immunological treatment: Humira, LIT, IVig and blood thinners if PG
IVF Protocol: Low stim for me/ TESE needed for DH; took Humira in late August and early September; taking DHEA plus Co-Enzyme Q10, vitamins for DH just for good measure! September--two trips to Mexico for LIT treatment, treatments 3 weeks apart
Initial re-testing through Alan Beer Centre after some of the immune treatments reveals only cytokines were lowered, NKs still high and LAD numbers still low. Another LIT in Mexico is recommended. We decide to begin cycle on doctor's recommendation of just doing IVIG.
IVF#4, Age 39 : November 2011: Worst AFC EVER--a whopping 4! Three follicles responded, two eggs were retrieved. Three day transfer of two Grade 1 8 cell embryos: "Fahita" & "Burrito" Stick, stick, stick little ones!
BFP! Beta of 569
Viability u/s at 6 w 2d shows TWO babies measuring on track with heartbeats of 121. Looks like babies might be sharing the same amniotic sac.
Second u/s at 7w 2 d shows ONE baby with hb of 150, measuring 7 w 3 days. No sign of twin. Vanishing twin syndrome?
Third u/s at 8 w 2d shows ONE baby with hb of 170, measuring 8 w 3 days. Looks like a little jellybean!
12 week u/s at 12 w 2 days and baby is measuring 12 w 5 days with a heart beat of 150. Baby mooned us and waved at us with one hand....looked like a "royal" wave to me!
13 week doctor's appointment, HB=155 on doppler
14 week u/s to check cervix, HB=148
16 week u/s to check cervix, HB=138, baby had hiccups!
20 week u/s--everything looks good! HB=130, looks like we're having a GIRL!
IPS results very good!
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#10 rollergirl


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Posted 19 October 2012 - 08:36 PM

I am sooo sorry to hear of your loss......all the best to you and your family...
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Posted 19 October 2012 - 09:18 PM

I'm so so sorry for your loss...((( HUGS))))
Me: 37
DH: 42
DX: Endo + DORUBC swithed to VFC in April2010
IVF#1 - June 2011 Natural start - Antagonist - BFN
IVF#2 - Nov 2011 Flare protocol from hell - Nothing to transfer...
IVF#3 - 2012...Mini IVF..??? Waiting for a miracle...
IVF#3 - Start EPP March 14th. ( 4mg Estrace a day) - Baseline u/s on March 28 2012 - AFC=1!! WOW!! The worst AFC ever. Cycle cancelled
IVF#4 - Mini IVF! 2 eggs - No mircale for us...time to move on..Moving to DE!

Our prayers been answered...An angel found us...she is offering the biggest gift and we are saying yes yes yes!
We are so happy and thankful.

DE IVF- Jan/Feb 2013...I have a good feeling about 2013!

2013 Feb 05- Our lovely donor first u/s! 75 follicles! Amazing

2013 Feb 15- First u/s at VFC...follicles looking good...my lining is 10mm! So happy! Intralipids, Medrol.

2013Feb 21- ER..got 40 eggs! Over the moon...the wait begins and FX for good news!
2013 Feb 26 - Transferred 1 day 5 already hatching embryo...17 made it to freeze..Amazing!!
2013 March 8 - BETA day!!!
2013 March 8 - 1st BETA= 656! 10dp5dt We are pregnant! ❤
2013 March 11 - 2nd BETA= 2622! 13dp5dt Very happy!
2013 March 22 - Spotting - First u/s...! - 6 wks 1 day one beautiful bean with a HB. We are in LOVE!
2013 April 4th - Red Spotting - U/S - 8 wks 1 day - Bean is growing like a weed.
2013 April 12 - U/S at VFC - 9 weeks 1 day - Bean is starting to look like a "baby"
2013 May 3- U/S at VFC - 12 weeks 1 day - FX!! Baby looks good! Graduated from VFC..
2013 May 6- 12 weeks 4 day - NT Scan very active baby! Everything looking good! ❤❤❤
2013 June 24 - 19 weeks 4 day - 20 weeks u/s...We are having a BOY!!!! So So Happy!!!
Bed rest from week 29 due to shortening cervix

Baby Noah was born on November 4th 8:26 am. 21 inches and 7"11. We are over the moon! He is the cutest baby! Our journey is complete! Remember never give up! There always be a next step! XoXo

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Posted 19 October 2012 - 11:46 PM

I'm sorry for your loss of beautiful Thea.
Me- 33, Hubby-43

Trying to conceive or nine years.

Oct 2010- IUI natural-chemical pregnancy
Dec 3-IUI with 50mg- Clomid
Dec 18- BFP!!!
Jan 7-1st ultraound- Twins
Aug 2011- Gave birth to my twin boys!!

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Posted 20 October 2012 - 08:58 AM

I'm so sorry that your beautiful Thea left this world far too soon, Take comfort in knowing that she will always be part of your family and in your hearts.

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Posted 20 October 2012 - 04:28 PM

Moved to tears to read the story about your Angel. It's true there are no words good enough to express how deeply sorry I am for your tragic loss. ((hugs))

Me 30 DW 34 - Two mummies to be! I'll carry my wife's egg so we can blend our family


First IVF Cycle

March 2012 Fresh - BFN

April 2012 FET- BFN

May 2012 FET- BFP - M/c6w6d icon_cry.gif


Second IVF Cycle

August 31 Fresh- th_abfp.gif

1st Beta 265 (TG) 11dp3dt

Sep 8 - 2nd Beta 8751 18dp3dt

Sep 15 - 3rd Beta - 43066 25dp3dt


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Second IVF Cycle

April 2014 FET - BFN 


Third IVF Cycle

July 2014 Fresh - th_abfp.gif

1st Beta 105 (TG) 9dp5dt

2nd Beta 1150 14dp5dt

Third Beta 12470 21dp5dt


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#15 snowmom


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Posted 23 October 2012 - 10:42 AM

I am so sorry for your loss.
Me 40: Total tubal blockage, 1 ovary, DOR DH 35: Poor motilityTTC since 1998DS natural conception 1996DS&DD ivf icsi 2008DS ivf icsi 2013.Our family is complete.Donated four frosties. IP's got bfp!

#16 jenloveslife

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Posted 23 October 2012 - 12:45 PM

I am so sorry for u and ur family's loss.
Me: 29 DH:39
TTC- 18 mths
Diagnosed with severe endometriosis thru laproscopy Feb 2011, Diagnosed with left tube hydrosalpinx and corrective surgery Dec 12/11
Jan 23/12- First IVF treatment- Start Suprefact
Feb 7/12 Baseline u/s- Start Gonal F-225 and Luveris 75
Feb 19/12 Egg Retrieval- 20 eggs (some immature), 10 fertilized
Feb 24/12 Transfer of 1 perfect blast, 4 blast frosties
Mar 7/12 HPT: BFP!!
Mar 8/12 Lab confirmed BFP!!! Yeahhhhhh!
First u/s scan sometime of week of Mar. 26/12
Estimated due date: November 12/12
Seen 1 little bean with tiny blood clot Mar 29/12. Seen heartbeat, praying everything is gonna b ok
Next u/s booked for May 9/12
Baby measured a full week and one day ahead of schedule!!
Next ultrasound booked for June 14
U/S shows healthy baby right on track with growth. Chose not to find out the sex of our baby!!
November 11, 2012 Welcomed Nathaniel Dean into this world!

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#17 Mollybean

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Posted 23 October 2012 - 01:09 PM

my eyes are tear filled Miko. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. May Thea always be in your hearts.

2007-went off the pill. thought we'd get lucky. ha!
2009-testing, testing and more testing
Me: 29 DH: 33, severe male factor (less than 1 mill/ml)
Jan. 28th- ER. Retrieved 7 eggs
Feb. 2nd- ET. Transferred 2 beautiful blasts
BETA: Feb. 15th BFP! 1493
March 8th-first ultrasound . 1 perfect heartbeat. 158/min.
April 12th-baby is doing great!
May 27th- We're tickled pink! It's a girl!
Oct. 13th- DD is born!


Me. 32 slightly elevated FSH: 11.2 DH: 36 Male factor (ranging from less than 1 million-20mill/ml)
IUI with Injectables#1-3 follicles
Cancelled due to low sperm count day of IUI.
WTF appointment May 11th. Done with this IUI experiment. back to IVF/ICSI

Sep 19th-ER 12 eggs
Sep 20- 9 out of 12 mature. 7 fertilized
Sep 24- 5dt of a beautiful blastocyst. 5AA and 3 frosties.
Oct. 1-+HPT, lots of red spotting (this sucks!), early beta 70.
Oct 5- 2nd beta-20 Early miscarriage
Oct. 9-3rd beta-0 BFN



Jan. 8th-LH surge
Jan 12th-FET, Single 5AA blastocyst
Jan 19th and 21-BFP on HPT!
Jan 23- BFP 1161!

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#18 DesignerBug

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Posted 24 October 2012 - 08:09 AM

My deepest condolences for your loss. Someone was kind enough to share this with us when we lost our son and I pass it along to you

"An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth.
Then whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth".
~author unknown

As for the milk, there is nothing to be done, but to wait it out. It took 2-3 weeks for mine to finally stop. It was an extremely painful daily reminder of the life that never came to be. My heart breaks for you.

Wishing you and your family peace.

TTC#1 April 2003 - Jan 2009
9 IUIs, 12 months Fermara, 4 months Clomid, 5 rounds of injectable, 1 LAP, 1 HSG, 2 Uterine Biopsies, 1 Postcoital, 1 IVF, 2 FETs... 2nd Fesh Cycle IVF - ++Beta 110!

TTC#2 - Dreams coming true... Surprise BFP Au Naturel! Never really started trying, but never gave up hope on dreams coming true. 20w2, after 6 days of strict bedrest, we lost our baby boy, Emmett to my incompetent cervix and he was born sleeping. 24cm long, 0.67lbs he was the most perfect little angel and has brought with him many lessons for us to remember him by.

Lightening strikes twice apparently>>>> May 24 ++HPT, Followed by ++Beta. Numbers are low, but doubling. EDD Feb1/2013 ~ Baby Boy arrived 5 weeks early in under 2hrs. Left me with 4th degree tears. 2 years later, still pending reconstructive surgery :( In that time hubby had a vasectomy. Never thought we'd have a chance to take fertility into our own hands

#19 alison

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Posted 26 October 2012 - 07:27 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss!

Me 38 DH 39
Unexplained Infertility
TTC 4 years
IVF #1 June 2006 Cancelled, due to death of my dad
IVF #2 September 2006 BFN
FET #1 December 2006 BFN
FET #2 February 2007 BFN
IVF #3 July 2007 BFP!!! Baby boy born April 16, 2008
FET #3 April 2009 BFN
IVF #4 July 2009 BFP!!! Baby girl born April 8, 2010
FET #4 April 2012 BFP Miscarriage 11 weeks
FET #5 September 2012 BFN
FET #6 December 2012 BFN
FET #7 February 2013 This is it, last 2 embryos. Only 1 made it.  2ww. Beta Feb 23rd!! BFP, what are the chances!! Due date October 30, 2013 Baby boy born October 14, 2013. Our family is complete!

#20 smurfette_w

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Posted 01 November 2012 - 02:24 PM

I'm terribly sorry for your loss and hope you and your family will find peace.


Me: genetic issues
DH: genetic issues, MFI

TTC since Summer 2009

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#21 Laura1976

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Posted 10 November 2012 - 01:22 AM

I am so sorry for your loss. The love that you have for Thea is evident in your writing. Thank you for sharing such an intimate story. Through sharing your story I am sure many positive thoughts have been sent to your angel Thea.

Please be kind to yourself.

#22 sharlene

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Posted 13 November 2012 - 12:44 PM

I'm sorry to hear of your loss - I shed tears over Thea as well.

#23 smc



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Posted 22 November 2012 - 09:13 PM

I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Wishing you strength and peace

#24 cl30



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Posted 25 November 2012 - 02:29 AM

I can really feel the love you have for Thea when I read your story. I am so very sorry for your loss. Wishing you and your family Peace.
Me: 35 DH:38
11 year Old DD (she is my miracle)
4 Year Old DS (also a miracle, but a more expensive one; four years of treatments and one successful IVF)
Me: PCOS DH: Low count, low morphology
4 Frosties left
May 21, 2013: Start Suprefact to try for #3
June 14, 2013: Transfer! 2 8 cell 3 day embryos
June 30, 2013: BFN :(
August 21, 2013: Start Suprefact
September 13, 2013 (Friday the 13!): Transferred 2 8 cell 3 day embryos
September 22, 23: BFN on HPTs
September 28: Test Day
Spetember 29: Clinic called to say Preg test is POSITIVE!!!
My Beautiful baby boy was born May 29, 2014 weighing 8lbs 15oz <3

#25 lexi

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Posted 17 March 2013 - 08:53 PM

I only just came across this thread and I am so moved. I am sat here crying quietly and feeling your pain. I am so sorry you had to go through all of that but so glad you had love and support with you. ((RIP Thea!))

Trying to conceive since 2007.


Me: 40 Husband: 39


IUI's completed - 14

IUI's cancelled after starting meds - 3


Miscarriages from IUI's - 5 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif8388.gif

Surgeries to remove Polyps - 4


You are my angels, my darlings, my stars...and my love will find you, wherever you are.