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#76 lexi

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Posted 20 July 2012 - 10:15 PM

Tired of the mood swings!
Tired of the breakouts!

Trying to conceive since 2007.

 

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#77 gibasgirl

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Posted 21 July 2012 - 07:56 AM

Tired of my husband putting up roadblocks instead of working with me in this.
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#78 jeanie08

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Posted 21 July 2012 - 08:55 AM

gibasgirl - i can agree with that one!!
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Me - 36 - tubal

DH - 37 - low motility

TTC - since 2006

August, 2007 - LEEP surgery for abnormal cells in cervix

January 2008 - tests appear clear, referred to a fertility Doctor

May 2008 - referred to SOFT clinic in London

August 2008 - HSG- tubes said to be fine, routine bloodwork, DH - sperm analysis says low motility

November 2008 - IUI, natural cycle - BFN

August 2009 - IUI, natural cycle - BFN

September 2009 - IUI, natural cycle - BFN

October 2009 - IUI, clomid - BFN

November 2009 - IUI, clomid - BFN

December 2009 - IUI, clomid - BFN

January 2010 - met with Doctor to review, suggested Laproscopy, needed to be referred to a doctor in my city... waiting period took forever!

August 2010 - Laproscopy - test shows tubal blockage

IVF#1

July 28, 2011 - retrieval - 22 eggs

July 29, 2011 - 15 eggs

July 30, 2011 - 15 divided

July 31, 2011 - 13 embryos, 2 transfer

August 3, 2011 - 4 embryos frozen

August 12, 2011 - BFN

FET#1

November 16, 2011 - transferred 1 embryo (3 left)

November 30, 2011 - BETA 234! BFP!

December 2, 2011 - BETA 248 :-( praying that it rises

December 4, 2011 - BETA 199 :-(

December 6, 2011 - BETA 86 - :-(

m/c 6w

December 13, 2011 - BETA 5.4...

FET#2

June 20, 2012 - transfered 2 embryos (1 left)

July 1 - HPT - positive!!

July 4, 2012 - BETA 562 :-) BFP!

July 6, 2012 - BETA 194 ;-(

July 8, 2012 - BETA 163 :-(

July 10, 2012 - BETA 188 (it went up? not sure what to make of this - should I get my hopes up?)

July 12, 2012 - BETA 86 :-(

m/c 6w2d

July 19, 2012 - BETA 73

July 26, 2012 - BETA 143

August 1, 2012 - BETA 190 (Dr. prescribed misoprostal to help get the numbers down to 0)

August 2, 2012 - miso didn't work, taking birth control for 10 days

FET#3

June 15, 2014 - transfered 1 embryo - last one!!!

June 26, 2014 - HPT positive

June 28, 2014 - BETA 2076!!

June 30, 2014 - BETA 4615!!

July 5, 2014 - BETA 19405!!

July 12, 2014 - BETA 99980!!

July 21, 2014 - 8w ultrasound -1 little peanut - 173 HR!!! :-)

Aug 19 - 12w ultrasound :-)

Oct 7, 2014 - 19w ultrasound - all looks good!

Oct 16, 2014 - Found out today - it's a girl!!!

February 25, 2015 - Julia Brenda Joyce was born!! 7lbs 10oz 21"


#79 Nantol

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Posted 21 July 2012 - 11:27 PM

Went to my DH's nephews b-day party today and the birthday boy's grandmother comes and sits next to me and at some point in the. Conversation accupuncture is mentionned (she initiated it) I didn't think anything of it at the time as we were just talking about the general health benefits of it and I wasn't going to talk about fertility aspect of this treatment with a women I barely knew.

Fast forward to the end of the evening and as I go to say Goodbye she says to me "I hope next more time we see each other I hope you have something more to say to me" it's not verbatim but I was a bit taken aback - I just laughed nervously and made a hasty exit outta there.

When I got in the car with my DH it was like a lightbulb went off an
d looked over at my DH "Christ this lady wants me to open up to her about my infertilty!"

she already knows about my IF (through the gossip vine) so I know she was hoping our chum session about accupuncture this iafternoon would somehow coax me into talking about it.My DH replies "this lady is known for trying to take people under her wing whether they want to be or not and wants to be like a grandmother figure to you. She's not my f*@in grandma! Grr - I kno

she just wants some gossip and possibly even take the credit for saving me from my infertility.give me a frackin break. This lady takes the cake!
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#80 lm501

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Posted 22 July 2012 - 09:08 PM

Great topic.....I ditto so many of these and:

I'm tired of being asked if I'm pregnant because the stupid drugs make me look like I am........the best was when I was asked on the day I got the BFN for my last IVF or even better the day after I miscarried last year that was pretty awesome....apparently if I miss any time for work I must be pregnant.

I'm tired of people telling me I shouldn't have my second (a big presumption) too far apart from my first......like everyone has a choice about that one....I also wouldn't have had my first 4 years after I started trying if I had a choice about it....

Not being able to make plans in advance for pretty much anything just in case I'm cycling or what if I'm pregnant

Spending all of my spare time doing something related to IF.... acupuncture....fertility yoga.....researching on line.....grocery shopping for my no fun diet....no gluten, dairy, caffeine, alcohol, only "warm foods" limited raw things, limited grains...etc etc. and trying to come up with reasons for this no fun diet and answering the question "will you always have to eat like that".....here's hoping not........
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IVF #2 cancelled due to poor response Fall 2007
IVF/ICSI #3with 2 good blasts BFN - January 2008
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Natural pregnancy (it's actually possible??) miscarriage at 7 weeks June 2011
IVF #4 - EPP - 450 gonal -f 75 Luveris - 3 embryos 2 put back on a 3DT - BFN - no frosties May 2012
IVF DE #1 Dec 2013 - Blighted Ovum D&C 9 weeks 3 frosties FET DE #1 June 2013 - slow growth weak HB at 7 weeks, gone at 9 weeks...2 frosties FET DE #2 June 2014 - 2 Blasts transferred....Ectopic.....Methotrexate shot 10 weeks....

#81 lexi

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Posted 25 July 2012 - 10:57 PM

Tired of listening to my sister-in-law complain about everything to do with being a parent and how hard it is and how hard she has it! Drives me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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#82 KeepingTheFaith

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Posted 26 July 2012 - 12:08 AM

Tired of listening to my sister-in-law complain about everything to do with being a parent and how hard it is and how hard she has it! Drives me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I hear ya!
Me: 31 no known issues
DH: 29 severe MF

Baby #1:
Spring 2007 - Started TTC
Feb 2008 (Family Day) - BFP :) So excited!!!!

October 30, 2008 - Our litle miracle was born - DD Posted Image
Baby #2:
April 2010 - Started TTC
April 2011 - Started testing to find problem
Jan 2012 - Discovered MF - IVF w/ICSI only viable option
June 21, 2012 - IVF info meeting, etc at Foothills
June 29, 2012 - told it could be this month

July 24 - Got THE call & accepted treatment
Aug 4 - started sniffing suprefact - YAY! (5x/day)
Aug 17 - baseline...all great!
- start stimming - Puregon injections 125iu
- lower suprefact to 3x/day
Aug 20 - b/w (stim day 4) all looks good, told to keep doing what I'm doing
Aug 23 - b/w and u/s (stim day7) all looks great! Back in 2 days, think I'll trigger this weekend!
Aug 25 - b/w and u/s - left side slightly behind, one more day of stims and back tomorrow!
Aug 26 - b/w and u/s - left side caught up! Trigger tonight!
- slight risk of OHSS, so start Dostinex ASAP and lower trigger to 7500 instead of 10000! FX
Aug 28 - ER todqay - 17 retrieved, 13 look nice and mature
Aug 29 - fertilization report: ICSI'd 12, 11 are fertilized!!!
Aug 30 - all 11 are still going strong - 9 are perfect 4-cell and 2 are slightly ahead at 5-cell VERY HAPPY
Sept 2 - 5dt one perfect, hatching blast transferred
Sept 3 - Froze 3 fully expanded blasts yeterday and 3 more (one hatching) today! 6 total!
Now for the 2WW!!! AGH! When to do an HPT? Hoping and praying this works!

#83 mcmuffin

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Posted 26 July 2012 - 01:42 PM

I'm tired of watching friends/siblings become grandmothers before I've even had the chance to be a mother.
I'm tired of feeling like my life is constantly on hold.
I'm tired of being told "there's always adoption" (although we are beginning to consider it - but only because we'd always planned on it whether we conceived or not, not because it's an alternate plan. We just always figured we would have a biological child first and then adopt).
I'm tired of being asked when we are planning to have kids (like it's a choice).
I'm tired of being tired.

#84 jeanie08

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Posted 26 July 2012 - 01:49 PM

I'm tired of watching friends/siblings become grandmothers before I've even had the chance to be a mother.
I'm tired of feeling like my life is constantly on hold.
I'm tired of being told "there's always adoption" (although we are beginning to consider it - but only because we'd always planned on it whether we conceived or not, not because it's an alternate plan. We just always figured we would have a biological child first and then adopt).
I'm tired of being asked when we are planning to have kids (like it's a choice).
I'm tired of being tired.


I couldn't agree more - esp with the first comment - my DH's cousin has had three children, all before she turned 19 - ugh....

Me - 36 - tubal

DH - 37 - low motility

TTC - since 2006

August, 2007 - LEEP surgery for abnormal cells in cervix

January 2008 - tests appear clear, referred to a fertility Doctor

May 2008 - referred to SOFT clinic in London

August 2008 - HSG- tubes said to be fine, routine bloodwork, DH - sperm analysis says low motility

November 2008 - IUI, natural cycle - BFN

August 2009 - IUI, natural cycle - BFN

September 2009 - IUI, natural cycle - BFN

October 2009 - IUI, clomid - BFN

November 2009 - IUI, clomid - BFN

December 2009 - IUI, clomid - BFN

January 2010 - met with Doctor to review, suggested Laproscopy, needed to be referred to a doctor in my city... waiting period took forever!

August 2010 - Laproscopy - test shows tubal blockage

IVF#1

July 28, 2011 - retrieval - 22 eggs

July 29, 2011 - 15 eggs

July 30, 2011 - 15 divided

July 31, 2011 - 13 embryos, 2 transfer

August 3, 2011 - 4 embryos frozen

August 12, 2011 - BFN

FET#1

November 16, 2011 - transferred 1 embryo (3 left)

November 30, 2011 - BETA 234! BFP!

December 2, 2011 - BETA 248 :-( praying that it rises

December 4, 2011 - BETA 199 :-(

December 6, 2011 - BETA 86 - :-(

m/c 6w

December 13, 2011 - BETA 5.4...

FET#2

June 20, 2012 - transfered 2 embryos (1 left)

July 1 - HPT - positive!!

July 4, 2012 - BETA 562 :-) BFP!

July 6, 2012 - BETA 194 ;-(

July 8, 2012 - BETA 163 :-(

July 10, 2012 - BETA 188 (it went up? not sure what to make of this - should I get my hopes up?)

July 12, 2012 - BETA 86 :-(

m/c 6w2d

July 19, 2012 - BETA 73

July 26, 2012 - BETA 143

August 1, 2012 - BETA 190 (Dr. prescribed misoprostal to help get the numbers down to 0)

August 2, 2012 - miso didn't work, taking birth control for 10 days

FET#3

June 15, 2014 - transfered 1 embryo - last one!!!

June 26, 2014 - HPT positive

June 28, 2014 - BETA 2076!!

June 30, 2014 - BETA 4615!!

July 5, 2014 - BETA 19405!!

July 12, 2014 - BETA 99980!!

July 21, 2014 - 8w ultrasound -1 little peanut - 173 HR!!! :-)

Aug 19 - 12w ultrasound :-)

Oct 7, 2014 - 19w ultrasound - all looks good!

Oct 16, 2014 - Found out today - it's a girl!!!

February 25, 2015 - Julia Brenda Joyce was born!! 7lbs 10oz 21"


#85 hourto

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Posted 22 August 2012 - 06:15 PM

I am tired of feeling like our lives have stopped at this point.
I am tired of seeing, knowing, hearing, and working with pregnant people.
I too am tired of being invisible in a sea of fertile people.
I am tired of trying to decide what to do next.
I am tired of knowing people feel sorry for us.

May 2007 - ttc with BFN
May 2008 - family doctor appt......normal bw, u/s and good sperm
October 2008 - OB/GYN appt
Jan 2009 - hysterosalpingiogram - tubes are open
September 2009 - laproscopic sugery -small amount of endometriosis
January 2010 - starting IUI...or not: a large follicle
February 2010 - cyst is still there - 21 days of the pill
March 2010 - I got the go ahead to start IUI
April 2010 - BFN
June 2010- IUI #2...
July 2010 BFN
Clinic closed.
September - Cyst is back..more pills
October 2010 - IUI #3 is a go
Cramping at d21!!! spotting starts
Heavy bleeding on d32 but BFP ! !st beta looks good

and then go down to nothing.

January 2011 - IUI#4 last stop before the cadillac IVF.
poor responding, 2 follicles, and nothing happening.
September 2011 - IVF #1 - poor response - cyst from feb is probably more likely an edometrioma, based on response to stims, and there's 2
converted to IUI
BFN
November 2011 - IVF#2 - short protocol - no suupression - get right down to business!
12 follicles retrieved, 12 mature, 11 fertilized, 8 made it to d3, 6 to d5, 2 transfered, 6 arrested on day 6 - none left to freeze
9dp5dt -hpt - VERY light BFP (had to do two)
Dec 14- 10dp5dt - hpt - super bright BFP!!!!! yay!
Dec 19 - Beta -219!
Dec 21 Beta #2 - doubled nicely! (no numbers)
Jan 5 - u/s at 7w - one little bean with a heartrate of 140!!!!!
Jan 30 - u/s at 10w6d - showed nothing - our baby is gone.

May 22 2012 IVF #3- last call for our own gametes - same protocol - natural start, 300 puregon, 150 menopur
June 4 - 10 eggs retrieved, 8 mature, 6 fertilized
June 9 - 2 transferred - 1 blast 1 not quite there yet, 3 left to grow a little more
June 10 - 1 blast frozen
June 25 - BFN
December 2012 - FET
BFN

 

sooo down - I didn't even document our last ART attempt - FET in december of 2012. 

BFN 

DH does NOT want to try any longer. and so we don't.

And by 2014 I am just so tired of being sad that I focus on all the great things about our childless life and do not focus at all on my cycle. No calendar marking,  no lift on d14 when I think I'm ovulating. Not even hoping for a miracle anymore.

 

June 6 2014 - feeling awful and burnt out for a few weeks. Realize I'm two weeks late.

June 10 - take a POAS - strong positive??

August 11 - 15 weeks 5 days - waiting on the anatomy scan. can't believe I'm one of the lucky ones. 


#86 hourto

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Posted 22 August 2012 - 06:26 PM

oh and I am tired of the media depiction of the infertile couple as "desperate to have children". Desperate? I feel like its shorthand for 'psychopathic'. By all means, I know we would do anything to have children, but not at all costs. It's the kind of cliche use on Law and Order to explain a couple's violent actions. In an article on egg donation and altruism in Canada, it was used to infer that the couple did not care what happens to the donator as long as they got the eggs they needed.
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May 2007 - ttc with BFN
May 2008 - family doctor appt......normal bw, u/s and good sperm
October 2008 - OB/GYN appt
Jan 2009 - hysterosalpingiogram - tubes are open
September 2009 - laproscopic sugery -small amount of endometriosis
January 2010 - starting IUI...or not: a large follicle
February 2010 - cyst is still there - 21 days of the pill
March 2010 - I got the go ahead to start IUI
April 2010 - BFN
June 2010- IUI #2...
July 2010 BFN
Clinic closed.
September - Cyst is back..more pills
October 2010 - IUI #3 is a go
Cramping at d21!!! spotting starts
Heavy bleeding on d32 but BFP ! !st beta looks good

and then go down to nothing.

January 2011 - IUI#4 last stop before the cadillac IVF.
poor responding, 2 follicles, and nothing happening.
September 2011 - IVF #1 - poor response - cyst from feb is probably more likely an edometrioma, based on response to stims, and there's 2
converted to IUI
BFN
November 2011 - IVF#2 - short protocol - no suupression - get right down to business!
12 follicles retrieved, 12 mature, 11 fertilized, 8 made it to d3, 6 to d5, 2 transfered, 6 arrested on day 6 - none left to freeze
9dp5dt -hpt - VERY light BFP (had to do two)
Dec 14- 10dp5dt - hpt - super bright BFP!!!!! yay!
Dec 19 - Beta -219!
Dec 21 Beta #2 - doubled nicely! (no numbers)
Jan 5 - u/s at 7w - one little bean with a heartrate of 140!!!!!
Jan 30 - u/s at 10w6d - showed nothing - our baby is gone.

May 22 2012 IVF #3- last call for our own gametes - same protocol - natural start, 300 puregon, 150 menopur
June 4 - 10 eggs retrieved, 8 mature, 6 fertilized
June 9 - 2 transferred - 1 blast 1 not quite there yet, 3 left to grow a little more
June 10 - 1 blast frozen
June 25 - BFN
December 2012 - FET
BFN

 

sooo down - I didn't even document our last ART attempt - FET in december of 2012. 

BFN 

DH does NOT want to try any longer. and so we don't.

And by 2014 I am just so tired of being sad that I focus on all the great things about our childless life and do not focus at all on my cycle. No calendar marking,  no lift on d14 when I think I'm ovulating. Not even hoping for a miracle anymore.

 

June 6 2014 - feeling awful and burnt out for a few weeks. Realize I'm two weeks late.

June 10 - take a POAS - strong positive??

August 11 - 15 weeks 5 days - waiting on the anatomy scan. can't believe I'm one of the lucky ones. 


#87 Emily16

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Posted 11 September 2012 - 04:59 PM

When ppl say "just don't think about it, and it will happen"!!!!!!!

The first year and a half i was fine with it and thought, maybe I am stressing to much about this baby thing.
But now, years later I wanna scream when someone says that to me!.
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#88 dougbliss

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Posted 13 September 2012 - 08:37 AM

I love, LOVE this page! All of you ladies have hit the nail on the head!

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired

I am tried of people telling me to let it go and it will happen naturally

I am tired of feeling jealous of women who are pregnant

I am tired of seeing "Mommy" commercials on TV and having to leave the room

I am also tired of not being able to control my emotions at work and break down at the most ridiculous times

I am tired of having to try so hard and change so many things in my life on the "chance" that I may get pregnant or that the IVF will work. Most of the people know get pregnant by just looking at thier husband!!! Why is it so difficult for me?????

I am tired of my fiends saying "Are you sure you want kids" after they have had a challengin day with thiers.....if they only knew how badly I wanted kids.

Lastly, I am so tired of my inner dialogue with myself.....any suggestions how to turn this one off!! :)

Thanks ladies, this is THE best therapy.

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Nov 2012 Consult
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Feb 2013 Hysterscopy, fibroid NOT removed

March 2013 Officially Done this baby journey........

 


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Posted 13 September 2012 - 10:06 AM

I'm tired of my body being regular as clockwork, like it's taking the piss out of me.
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#90 Muminwaiting

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Posted 14 September 2012 - 01:26 PM

I am sick of throwing baby showers. I had better get a good one when its my turn!
Me 40 DH 37 July 2012 HSG test showed blocked tubesSept 16/13 Consult at CReATe with Dr. Librach who will make me a Mummy in 2014Sept 16/13 Bloodwork and AMH test (A little low)Oct 15/13: Hysterscopy 2 polyps removed and 2 coils insertedIVF #1Nov 4th: CD2 start BCPNov 11th: Start Lupron injectionsNov 27: Start Gonal F and RepronexDec 12: ER Estrace and Progesterone suppositoriesDec 15: ET 3 survived the process (including ICSI) Transferred 2. 1 frozenPregnancy test December 29th: BFNFET #1Start Estrace againJan 8/14: IV IntralipidsFET: Jan 16Beta test results Feb 1st: BFFN February 2014 fibroid removed

#91 Muminwaiting

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Posted 14 September 2012 - 01:28 PM

I'm sick of being depressed. When I'm depressed I eat and that's not good. I am trying to lose weight so that I will be healthy when going through IVF.
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Me 40 DH 37 July 2012 HSG test showed blocked tubesSept 16/13 Consult at CReATe with Dr. Librach who will make me a Mummy in 2014Sept 16/13 Bloodwork and AMH test (A little low)Oct 15/13: Hysterscopy 2 polyps removed and 2 coils insertedIVF #1Nov 4th: CD2 start BCPNov 11th: Start Lupron injectionsNov 27: Start Gonal F and RepronexDec 12: ER Estrace and Progesterone suppositoriesDec 15: ET 3 survived the process (including ICSI) Transferred 2. 1 frozenPregnancy test December 29th: BFNFET #1Start Estrace againJan 8/14: IV IntralipidsFET: Jan 16Beta test results Feb 1st: BFFN February 2014 fibroid removed

#92 SunflowerGirl

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Posted 15 September 2012 - 07:39 PM

I am tired of waiting. Oh, the waiting kills me the most I think.
I am tired of putting my life on hold, month after month, year after year.
I am tired of watching friends and family have not one, but two children or more while we are still trying.
I am tired of being asked "Is she your only child?"
I am tired of being asked when we'll have another.
I am tired of not living the life I want to live.
I am tired.
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Posted 17 September 2012 - 10:28 AM

Ditto on what Sunflower said!! The only difference is I get asked 'don't you want any children?' I feel like yelling, 'yes, more than anything, but for medical reasons we can't succeed from a fun night and bottle of wine lol' Argh, its the questions from strangers or acquaintances that I dread the most.

I hate that infertility is not regarded by the majority of the population as a medical condition or strain on one's emotional, physical and financial well-being. I hate that we aren't afforded medical rights in that respect.

I hate feeling like I have to dodge events or parties because I don't want to be the only one there without kids. And when I do go, I hate sitting there, quietly, unable to participate in the conversations about how wonderful parenthood is. I have so much love to give, so why does it have to be so hard??

I hate having to get up, dust myself, only to have to rely on hope again.

It sounds kinda depressing lol! Trust me when I say that I really do recognize all the wonderful things in my life too!

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Posted 17 September 2012 - 10:39 AM

This is a great one....

I'm tired of hope... Of having to talk myself into being hopeful every single cycle lately... For once I just want the hope to bloom into joy at being finally actually pregnant.
I'm tired of avoidance.... Of avoiding all the things that could possibly affect my pregnancy... cold medicines, alcohol, supplements, my nasal allergy spray, the meds that would help my head heal since I fell in february (two weeks after my MC) and could truly help with my post concussion syndrome, but I choose not to take it because it's not recommended in pregnancy.... Of avoiding people who want to ask me questions, or of avoiding talking about this with my SIL who wants nothing to do with infertility talk even though I am 99.999 percent certain she is going through something as well....
I'm tired of being the one who has to follow a calendar like it's my new God. Appointments, CD1, Ovulation, fertile days... GAH!

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#95 Adventure

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Posted 17 September 2012 - 12:25 PM

Well said Camyam, and ditto on all those things. ARGGHH!!!

#96 zepper

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Posted 29 September 2012 - 03:41 PM

I am so tired of feeling so sad all the time. I am so sad. :(
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  • Me - 34, DH - 35
  • TTC since Feb. 2009
  • Started seeing Dr. Wu - March 2011
  • DH's SA's vary - thinking male factor is the issue
  • April-June 2011 - Femara - hormone levels normal
  • July 2011 - HSG - all clear
  • Aug-Oct 2011 - IUI's #1-3 with Femara - BFN x3
  • Nov 2011 - Laparsocopy - all clear
  • Dec 2011 - IUI #4 with Clomid - BFN
  • IVF #1 - Feb 2012 - no eggs retrieved from 14 follicles - *Genuine Empty Follicle Syndrome* WTF???
  • IVF #2 - July 2012 - used Lupron as trigger - 5 eggs retrieved from 16 follicles - Dr. concludes I do have GEFS - they know little about it. All 5 eggs fertilized.
  • Transferred 2 8-cell grade A embryos - BFN
  • 3 frozen embryos
  • FET #1- October 22, 2012 - transferred 2 three-day embryos - BFN
  • FET #2 - February - 1 embryo left - cancelled due to estrogen levels dropping :(
  • FET #2 - March 23, 2013 - medicated cycle - transfer of our last embryo - BFN
Now what? We've had the public adoption paperwork since October and I still can't gather the strength to look at it.

#97 Laura1976

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Posted 01 October 2012 - 07:59 AM

Assumptions and gossips!
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#98 Laura1976

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Posted 01 October 2012 - 08:02 AM

The people who weren't there during struggles thinking they can just come back during the easier timesPosted Image
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November 29/11 - Unexplained IF/Recurrent loss testing

Compliment C3 & C4 below acceptable range
LA Ratio DRVVT above acceptable range
Lupus Inhibitor demonstrated
Antiphospholipid IgG above acceptable range
Antiphospholipid IgM above acceptable range (more than double)


Consultation @ VFC December 10/11

IVF/ICSI #2 (with Intralipid therapy) January/February (Victoria Fertility Clinic)
BCP December 16 -29/11 & January 6 - 28/12
Vitamin D (2000iu daily) and Iron Supplement (Ferrous Gluconate 300mg daily) - Start December 24 until Dr advises otherwise, PregVit 5 (Starting January 12/11), Vitamin E (800iu daily) until Heparin begins (Starting January 14/11) Fish Oil (1200iu daily)
Superfact (0.5mg) - Start January 22/12
Dexamethasone (0.5mg) - Start February 4/12 until beta

After ER - Doxycycline (100mg), Estrance (2mg), Prometrium (200mg 3x day), heparin 5000 units (2x day), calcium (1500mg daily), low dose aspirin (81mg daily)
Intralipids - February 13/12 and day of ET
Neupogen Uterine Flush - Day of ER

February 2/12 - E2 35p/mol
February 4/12 - 300iu Gonal-F & 75iu Repronex
February 9/12 - U/S & E2 - RIGHT- 11, 9, 10, 19, 8, 12, 11, 10, 13, 6 LEFT: 12, 7, 10, 10, 8, 6, 5, 5 E2 2635

February 9/12 Gonal-F lowered to 225iu Repronex remains at 75iu
February 11/12 - U/S & E2 - Right 14, 10, 11, 12, 10, 13, 12, 12, 14, 7 LEFT: 11, 8, 10, 13, 9, 8, 8 E2 5610
February 13/12 - U/S an E2??? & Intralipid Therapy
February 16/12 - E/R 20 eggs, 17 mature and ICSI'ed, 3 left to fertilize by regular IVF
February 17/12 - Fert Report 16 fertilized by ICSI, 1 fertilized by IVF
February 20/12 - Neupogen injection
February 21/12 - Transferred 2 Blastocysts ( 1 x Grade 19 Early Blast, 1 x Grade 19 Expanded Blast) and Intralipid Therapy and Acupuncture

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#99 quandry

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Posted 01 October 2012 - 08:12 AM

I'm tired of cancelled cycles.

I'm tired of people who think that a MC makes you more fertile.

I'm tired of being old and getting older every day, meaning my stats are going down every single moment.

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#100 Maralee

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Posted 01 October 2012 - 01:35 PM

Tired of trying to convince DH to agree to IVF. Now that he's agree'd, I'm terrified to complain of ANY part of going through this.

Tired of hearing that the government may start to fund IF treatments...do I wait? What if they start funding in 2013? 2014? Tired of people wanting an abortion, a tubal, a vasectomy-we'll pay you to stop having a family, but what about those who WANT a family?

Tired of being asked if we're going to have more kids. But that seems to have slowed down, maybe now that DS is almost 3, they're figuring out that we're having problems.

Tired of paying back in my head what my MIL said, about her friends troubled child and that "he was an IVF baby you know". SHUT UP!! It was the parenting, not the IVF! And she doesn't know we're going down that road (do you blame us?)
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IVF 2
Jan 2013-awaiting consult at VFC...
Feb 2013-Consult a success, off to victoria we go!  Looking at April.  Meanwhile, started gluten/dairy reduced diet with a ton of supplements.  Feeling great!
Day 1...Mar13/13
LH surge Mar 24 Start estrace Mar 27
Day 1, April 8
Fly to VFC April 9-u/s and blood work-all OK
April 10-start stims Gonal 225, saizen 1.66mg, repronex 75
April 15-u/s and bw, all good, 6 follies, all same size, continue and next u/s and bw apr 17
April 17-u/s and bw-all good, 7 follies, similar size, continue and next u/s apr 18.  ER on april 20 or 21
April 18-bw good, u/s now 10 follies but starting to separate in size.  Back tomorrow, ER april 21/22?
April 19-bw good, 1/2 of follies ready...trigger tonight, ER on April 21
April 21-9 retrieved.  Awaiting fertilization reports... fingers crossed!
April 22-Amazing news, 8 out of 9 are mature and all 8 fertilize, 1/2 by ICSI, 1/2 by regular.  How could that happen?
April 23-All 8 still going, mix of 15-19/20
April 24-6 still going, 2 transferred-an 19/20 and 18/20, 2 frozen a 18/20, 17/20, and 2 in culture to day 5-wait and see
May 8-OMG, positive beta!!  517, wow! 14dp3dt
May 10-beta 1060.  Yay!!
May 27-viability u/s...both took, it's twins!  Heartbeats around 140, 1 measures a couple days behind.  CRAZY!
June 16-10 wk u/s, both still growing, hb's 172 and 165. 
July 2-Nuchal-excellent.  Fell in love with them.  hb's 168 and 160, both measure a couple days ahead now.
Aug 16- 18 week detailed, both are amazing.  Team green! Cord insertion issue with baby A discovered.
Oct 10-27wk 4 day, A is 2 lbs, B is 2.2 lbs...may have seen a penis and sac on one of them.
Nov 7-30wk 4 day, A is 3lbs 13 oz, B is 4lbs 2 oz, this is going to hurt.
Nov 21-32wk 4 day, A is 4lbs, B is 4 lbs 8 oz, starting to slow down a bit, and both head down.
Dec 4-34 wk 3 day, A is 5 lbs 2 oz, B is 5 lbs 5 oz, A head down and engaged, B now breech.
 
Dec 17-after falling down the stairs, our baby boy and girl arrived at 36 weeks, small but healthy
Welcome Abigael and Colin.
 

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