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#1 Sandibeach

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 10:39 AM

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Sameboat and Chinup's Son - Nathan
ME-39 DH-39
TTC 9 years
Unexplained infertility / mild male factor
6 Cycles Clomid - BFN
1 Laproscopy
2 IUI's- BFN
1st IVF - April 2008 - M/C @ 6 wks - OFC
1st Beta 25, 2nd Beta 87, 3rd Beta 257 BFP
2nd IVF - January 2y009 - No transfer - OFC
ER 23 eggs, 20 mature, 17 fertilized - TOTAL EPIC FAILURE - ALL 17 Embies arrested in development by Day 5
3rd IVF - June 2009 - This is it! - New Clinic - Montreal Fertility Centre
ER: June 8th - 16 fertilized eggs (no frosties)
ET: June 11th (2 excellent 8cell) & 13th (1 perfect blast)
HPT++++
June 24 1st Beta: 312 BFP
June 26 2nd Beta: 682
July 13 US: Singleton HB 130
July 25 US: HB 175 saw fetus moving
Aug 8 US: HB 165 all perfect
Aug 17 US: HB 157 all perfect
Oct 5 US: It's a BOY!!!!
Born March 3, 2010 - Julien Tristan
May 2011 - Natural BFP - Ectopic
Now trying the old fashion way - Bust
4th IVF - Dec 2011 - Back to OFC
Jan 16 - ER 11 eggs - 3 mature, 2 fertilized (OFC f**ked up again - triggered me too soon)
Jan 18 - Emergency Day 2 ET - 2 4 cell embryo's transferred
Feb 2 - Beta - BFN
5th & Final IVF - July 2012 - 3rd opinion - Hannam Fertility
Satelitte monitoring at OFC
ER - July 24
ET - July 27
Beta - Aug 10
Transferred 3 perfect embryos - 1 blast frozen
Aug 6 - HPT ++++++
Aug 8th Beta - 225 BFP
Aug 10th Beta - 445
Aug 27th US ~ 1 perfect little bean HB 120
Sept 10th US - all good HB 162
Due Date: April 16th, 2013 It's a GIRL!!!
Born April 9th, 2013 - Amelia Danica

#2 YK Andrea

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 10:52 AM

I am so sorry for your loss. Words cannot express just how sorry I am, you are both so strong and are going through so much right now. You are all in our prayers and may Sam and Baby C grow and gain in strength.
Me:29++ DH 39TTC May 2001Male Factor-Currently PTs. of VFCIVF/ICSI #1 March 2006[/font]Successful transfer! BFP!!!!Its a Girl! Aubrey Victoria Linette was born December 18, 2006 a whopping 8lbs 13 oz! Shes a treasure!

IVF #2 BFN NO Frosties

IVF#3/09 - ER Feb 23rd, 24 potential embies retreived!!!!!!!
Feb 24 - 19 fertilized and growing!
Transfered 3 8 cell grade 19 embryos on Feb 27, sticky babies stick!
March 11 BETA 318!!!!! and thrilled!
March 13 BETA 721!!!
Averai, Annika and Wyatt born at 36 weeks on October 20!

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 11:02 AM

Charlie & Jaime - I have goosebumps right now and tears. I know too personally how you must be feeling. A little life being taken all too early. There is nothing that can be said to ease your grief right now. Please if you need to talk to me let me know. It will be a process and please take care of the other little ones.

I am sure that Nathan has joined my precious Isabelle and Wishing's precious Dante in heaven and all 3 amigos will be shinning down on us as they play together in the warmth of the love their parents will always have for them.

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 12:14 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.
Kat
Me 42 DH 39
5 Years Unexplained
IUI x 2 with clomid feb, march 2009 BFN
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IVF # 1 Jun/July 2009, BFN
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IVF#2 November/December 2009 BFN
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FET # 1 Feb/March BFP

Lily Annabelle born on September 26th at 11:48 am at 29 weeks gestation. Welcome to the world my little angel.
David Lucca born on September 26th at 12:47 pm at 29 weeks gestation. Welcome to the world my little angel.

#5 jgeddes

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 12:43 PM

I am so so sorry...:(

#6 moolani

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 01:42 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you both, Luke and Sam!

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 05:14 PM

So very sorry to hear of your loss. Keeping you and Jamie, long with Luke and Sam in my thoughts and prayers.
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#8 baby2be

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Posted 20 May 2009 - 09:37 PM

I am so very sorry for your loss. You're all in my thoughts and prayers.

Dana
ME-30 DH-39
TTC 8 years
1st IVF May/June 2006- Chem pg
2 FETs-BFN
PCOS, Damaged Tubes
Tubes removed May 2007
2nd. IVF Oct/ Nov 2007- BFN
3rd. IVF Feb/ March 2008- BFN
3rd. FET July/ Aug 2008- BFP Beta 6dp5dt 9, 8dp5dt 45, 11dp5dt 131, 15dp5dt 971, 21dp5dt 3060
4th. FET July 29th, 2010.
BETA 5.5dp5dt 14.6, 7.5dp5dt 53.6,10.5dp5dt 149.4,17.5dp5dt 1902, 19.5dp5dt 3282
Ultrasound showed one little bean!!

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#9 ShebaB

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Posted 21 May 2009 - 07:08 AM

I to am sorry to hear about your loss
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#10 jaan

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Posted 21 May 2009 - 08:19 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss :tears: :ajigl: You,your wife & other 2 boys are in my T & P :heart:

Jan

#11 tannikka

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Posted 21 May 2009 - 09:06 AM

I am sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep the rest of your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Tannikka(42)

Me(34), DH(36)
DS 18(mine) TTC 2 yrs
1st IVF+ ICSI - No Frosties
April 9 - BFN
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Me(35), DH (37)
2nd IVF + ICSI - No Frosties
Nov 30 Beta - BFN
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me (36), DH (38)
New Clinic
3rd IVF + ICSI - 10 Frosties
Six AF called in
Dec 12 Beta -167.7 BFP
Jan 2 - U/S TWINS!!!
March 9 - Identical
March 12 - Laser surgery for TTTS
March 23 - Both babies are fine!!!
April 15 - Another hiccup
April 20 & 29 - Holding steady
June 27/09 - Twin boys, Collin and Rory, 32wk4day

#12 Baby3

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Posted 21 May 2009 - 10:28 AM

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

#13 Anotherhopeful

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Posted 21 May 2009 - 12:05 PM

Charlie and Jaime - I am so very sorry to hear about this loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you both, and with Luke and Sam. Take very good care.
Me: 42, DH: 47, Issue: Male factor (morphology, count, motility and agglutination) and my age/egg quality issues

IVF#1: Feb '09 Flare Protocol, for details, see my profile page
HPT: March 6: BFP, BETA #1: March 9, 2009 - 808, BETA #2: March 16, 2009 - 13,535
U/S March 31/09 - not viable, "missed m/c"; procedure May 20, baby was a girl

IVF #2 - July '09 Estrogen Priming/Antagonist, for details, see my profile page
Negative HPT's followed by + Beta - August 6 12dp2dt = 125, August 13 17dp2dt - 2,546
Heavy spotting means emergency U/S on August 25 - revealing TWINS! Subchorionic bleed diagnosed.
NT Scans October 6 and 8th - both beans look good! Anatomy U/S November 20 - all is well with the babies; cervix struggling at 2.1cm; November 27 cervix 2.4; continue with rest and limited activity...
Jan 20 - cervix is thinning out - more restrictive rest ordered
Yippee - we made it to 34 weeks!!! Keep on cooking boys! C-section scheduled for April 1!

Alexander and Jacob arrived on March 20, 2010 and are doing great - we count our blessings every day!

IVF#3 - May 2011 - BFN as AF arrives early

IVF#4 - August/September 2011 - BFN

Having trouble letting go; consultations with Dr. Sher of Las Vegas and Dr. Hudson at Victoria.
All roads lead to Victoria for another faint hope try...

IVF#5 - suprefact begins November 6, then onto to agonist/antagonist conversion protocol with estrogen priming. Day 3 transfer of 3 excellent embryos; one Blast on ice; chemical pregnancy

IVF#6 (I know, I am crazy. We are doing one last fresh cycle and then will try our frozen embryo) - same protocol as last time around, retrieval February 15; +++ hpt on February 26, Beta March 1 (15dpo) = 161, Beta March 3 (17dpo) = 355!!! U/S March 22 7 w 1 d = 1 bean measuring 7w1d with heartbeat of 131!!! Minor spotting but extremely hopeful!!! U/S at 9 weeks, everything on track; NT April 24 results are wonderful, no further testing recommended; due date confirmed for November 7, 2012!
Dr Hudson truly is a miracle worker! Ryan born on November 5, 2012 - home birth in the water - amazing, intense experience. He is perfect - 7 pounds, 14 ounces. Our infertility journey is over and this experience with VFC and my home birth has been very healing.

#14 Rick

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Posted 21 May 2009 - 08:48 PM

I am deeply saddened by your loss. You are all in our thoughts.

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Posted 27 May 2009 - 08:28 PM

So sorry for your loss, sending special thoughts and prayers your way for your family.

Carey
Several IuI 2005/2006 BFN
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Posted 28 May 2009 - 11:00 PM

I am so so very saddened to read of your loss.
Heidi

Jan 99 - ectopic (using clomid)
3 failed IUI's
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Posted 29 May 2009 - 06:34 PM

I am so sorry to hear that little Nathan passed away, words alone do not seem like enough. I think you are a very strong Mama, and that focusing on your two boys that need you is definately going to get you through.
I wish you all the luck in the world.
Big hug
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#18 cjdr

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Posted 04 June 2009 - 08:40 PM

So sorry to hear about your loss, no parent should have to experience what you two have. You are both in my thoughts
cjdr
ttc #1 since Feb 2006
m/c Aug 13 2006
IUI #3 (1&2 bfn's)- July 8 2008- BFP
March 19/09

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start clomid Jan 23 :)
IUI Feb 7/10
YAY Feb 17/10- BFP!!! Please, please, please stick!
EDD Oct 28/10 (OB thinks much earlier...we'll see)
Beta 5w4d- 2019 :)
First u/s- March 9/10 6w5d, saw one little bean sac and one hb going 124 bpm's!!
Still spotting :(
Second u/s- March 29th, saw little beanie and heard the hb. It was a crazy 176 bpms!!
OB appointment Apr.29- HB 160 bpms, May.27- HB 154 bpms, July.12- HB 150 bpms, Aug.9- HB 148 bpms
Third u/s- May 31- ITS A GIRL!! HB- 153 bpms
U/S Aug 10- OMG I'm so in love, so amazing! And she is still a she. HB 150 bpms,
just praying for her to stay in there atleast 6 more weeks. 35 weeks is our new goal.
Sept 23- YAY 35w we made it!! OB says she is ok with babes coming anytime now! Hoping for a bit longer, but cant wait to meet her!
Oct 7- FULL TERM!! Woo hoo we made it baby!!
Oct 8- 2-3cms dilated!! OB thinks less then a week!
B arrived Oct 17 after a record fast labour. We all just love her :)

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Posted 11 June 2009 - 10:06 AM

THANK YOU to all of your for your kind words, support and friendship. I love people... but throughout our journey people have truly shocked and disappointment me. Be it the ignorant ass(es) that kept asking us when we were going to have kids, or the super fertile couple(s) who hurtfully kept saying how easy it was for them to get pregnant and suggested if we just relaxed it would happen for us too. People have really hurt me and that has been tough to deal with.
But I am overjoyed and deeply touched that I can now also say that people have amazed, inspired, astounded and moved me. In reading your posts, I feel so lucky to have found you all... I wish it had of been on some fun and crazy adventure instead of on a forum where we are all struggling with having our hopes and dreams trampled on... but I am honoured to have "met" you all... and thank you so much for being there for us.
Charlie and I are doing ok. We miss Nathan every day, but we are dealing, and healing... and we have two little teeny tiny boys who need us a lot, we have each other and a great families and some terrific friends... so we feel very lucky. Luke and Sam have had a string of good days, and we are having a lot of fun with them. They still have a lot of hurdles ahead of them... but they seem to be on the right track for today. It will be a fantastic day when we can post that they are both home with us... so stay tuned for that one :)
Thank you again for everything. I wish you all the best of everything and hope your journeys all have the happy endings you are looking for. I'm a bit terrible at keeping up to date with what is going on with you all, Hospital visits etc are keeping me good and busy, but if you want to chat, send me a message anytime.
Sincerely
Jamie (a.k.a. Chin Up)
TTC since 2002/03
30 yrs old (DH 30 too)
Unexplained IF
Clomid + lots of other drugs
1 year of IUIs
1st IVF cycle January 08 (BFN)
Acupuncture
2nd IVF cycle June 08 (BFP... but m/c at 8 weeks - D&C needed)
3rd IVF cycle November 08
Beta Dec 10 - BFP (547)
2nd Beta Dec 15: 2759!
U/S Dec 23 - Triplets!
U/S Dec 29 - all three look good, heartbeats detected :)
U/S Jan 7 - three strong heartbeats beating like crazy... so far so good!!!
U/S Jan 21 - three little active babies, three strong heartbeats!! Next appointment is at the General!
U/S Feb 5 - Everybody is doing great (whew!) :)
U/S Feb 19 - its a BOY... x three!!!! :) Three healthy baby boys (and me too) got the big thumbs up - everybody is doing great. Next appointment is in three weeks...
U/S Apr 9 - Boys are doing great. Baby A: 1lb 2 oz, Baby B: 1 lb, Baby C: 1 lb 2oz. The countdown for me to stop work is on. Next appointment is in two weeks...
U/S Apr 23 - Boys are doing great and putting on weight: Baby A = 1 lb 8 oz, Baby B = 1 lb 6oz, Baby C = 1 lb 7oz!! But... cervix is super short. Either Baby A is threatening to escape or his brothers are gaining up on him and trying to kick him out! So... hospital bed rest (can only get up for washroom breaks) starts today.
Apr 27 - received steroid shot #1 to help the babies' lungs develop. Boys are I are doing well and taking advantage on being waited on hand and foot.

BABIES ARE BORN!!
Baby A - Nathan Peter Harland (1 lb 8 oz) May 3rd - May 18th, 2009 Love you forever Sweet Nathan...
Baby B - Lukas (Luke) Jeffrey Harland (1 lb 6 oz) May 3rd, 2009
Baby C - Samuel (Sam) Charles Harland (1 lb 12 oz) May 11th, 2009
Yeah, Yeah... Triplets with different birthdays... you didn't except our boys to play by the rules did you? :)

Luke and Sam are in amazing hands in CHEO (Children's Hospital of Eastern Ontario) and Nathan is doing a great job shining his light down on us as we hang on to this crazy roller coaster ride. The boys are generally doing well but they have their good and days (and have many hurdles yet to overcome) but they are having a good day today and we have totally fallen in love with them. Hoping to have them both home this fall...