finally...
#26
Posted 24 April 2009 - 01:50 AM
I am a 3x-struggler myself... I struggle each day with the muddiness of my next step... from childfree living to one more time to donor eggs, this yo-yo-ing is exhausting. I hope I can still myself a little bit soon to get to where you are at, with or without another ART and happy about my decision.
good luck in your next step and thank you for sharing your insight and experience. wishing you good things and seeing you in the skies.
#27
Posted 24 April 2009 - 04:10 AM
Since I have the time I may be seeking another opinion...I really don't like Sinai. From the lack of communication, to the inability to get anyone on the phone, to making me wait 5 months to discuss a failed cycle. I know part of my reason for stopping is that I just don't trust them one bit anymore.
Actually looking forward to hearing her trying to explain to me why they have treated me like such crap. That should be interesting.
xoxo
Bilaterally blocked tubes discovered Dec 2007
IVF#1 June, 2008 agonist protocol
300IU gonal f, 13 days of stims. Nothing to transfer.
EPIC FAIL
IVF#2 Started BCP for Antagonist protocol Oct 9, 2008 (menopur and centrotide)
Last BCP, Nov 2, 2008
First U/S Nov 2, start 300iu Menopur Nov 7, 2008
Back for daily scans and bloods starting Nov 11, 2008
U/S showed 5 follies between 1.1 and 1.25 start Centrotide today.
Nov 13 U/S showed 7 follies between 1.2 and 1.5
Next U/S Nov 14 10 follies
Trigger Nov 15
ER date, Nov 17th
6 retrieved.
4 mature and ICSI'd, 3 dividing on day 1.
3 still alive on day 2
ET Nov 20, 2008. All 3 going back!
8 cell grade 2, 6 cell grade 2, 7 cell grade 3 put back.
8dp3dt Brown spotting
AF arrived Nov 28, WAY early, thanks a lot...*sigh*
Beta Dec 1, 2008 (what is the point? NONE)
RE appointment April 27, 2009 to discuss IVF#2, and then I think we are done. Oh well, was a fun ride? *snicker*
I swear by my life and my love of it that I will not live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for the sake of mine. -Atlas Shrugged
“Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth.”- Einstein.
Blinkie Maker
#28
Posted 24 April 2009 - 10:18 AM
I so appreciate your openness and honesty. I think there are many women on here who can relate to your position, but don't or can't express it. I can honestly say that I'm pretty much there too... the end of my rope is near.
Thanks for sharing and for being you!
Shelley
#29
Posted 24 April 2009 - 11:08 AM
Sucks doesn't it? But I know we will all live, whatever happens...so all I can do is all I have done, the rest isn't visible yet.
xoxo
Bilaterally blocked tubes discovered Dec 2007
IVF#1 June, 2008 agonist protocol
300IU gonal f, 13 days of stims. Nothing to transfer.
EPIC FAIL
IVF#2 Started BCP for Antagonist protocol Oct 9, 2008 (menopur and centrotide)
Last BCP, Nov 2, 2008
First U/S Nov 2, start 300iu Menopur Nov 7, 2008
Back for daily scans and bloods starting Nov 11, 2008
U/S showed 5 follies between 1.1 and 1.25 start Centrotide today.
Nov 13 U/S showed 7 follies between 1.2 and 1.5
Next U/S Nov 14 10 follies
Trigger Nov 15
ER date, Nov 17th
6 retrieved.
4 mature and ICSI'd, 3 dividing on day 1.
3 still alive on day 2
ET Nov 20, 2008. All 3 going back!
8 cell grade 2, 6 cell grade 2, 7 cell grade 3 put back.
8dp3dt Brown spotting
AF arrived Nov 28, WAY early, thanks a lot...*sigh*
Beta Dec 1, 2008 (what is the point? NONE)
RE appointment April 27, 2009 to discuss IVF#2, and then I think we are done. Oh well, was a fun ride? *snicker*
I swear by my life and my love of it that I will not live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for the sake of mine. -Atlas Shrugged
“Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth.”- Einstein.
Blinkie Maker
#30
Posted 27 April 2009 - 10:47 AM
I also agree with others here...that if you're truly looking into ending this journey than that's what it is...but if you're still willing to go on..than that's what it is as well...but whatever decision u make..I truly applaud you for your strength!! And yes..for many....some dreams don't include children but something more fulfilling....enjoy your flying, enjoy your husband..enjoy everything that your life has to offer...and if u do decide to cycle once again enjoy that as well!
Thank you for inspiring me and alllllll the wonderful encouraging words you have given me through my journey....you truly are amazing! :Looking forward to hearing from you in the future and from time to time. Don't run away from me okay? And i promise....I wont talk "IVF" in your ears!
All the best dear!
TTC for 5 years
Male factor azoospermia
Uterine polyp removed
1st Cycle (IVF/ICSI)[/b]
Micro-tese completed and found sperm with 5-6 vials of mircotese frozen! THANK YOU GOD!!
20 eggs fertilized and 7 made it to blastocysts
July15/08: Transferred 2 blasts
July26/08:BFP @ 11dp5dt Beta on July 29: 100! yay i'm pregnant
Aug.27/08: Miscarriage @ 7 1/2 weeks
2nd cycle (1stFET:)
Nov.11/08: FET transferred two blasts ( 3 blasts left)
Nov.21/08: hpt & 10dp5dt....faint positive and every day after much lighter!!
Nov25/08:Beta 9.6 (chemical pregnancy)
Dec. 1/08: miscarriage starts & tests for multiple miscarriages tested completed..all normal!
Jan. 22/09: uterine biopsy test...no issues..normal
3rd Cycle (2ndFET)
Feb.22/09: Endometrial Biopsy to make more stickier for implantation
March 20/09: FET transferred two blasts..50% chance...oh please Lord hear my cry!! (1 blast left)
March 29/09: 9dp5dt...a faint positive on a hpt!
March31/09: 11dp5dt...a fainter line on hpt..it's happening again..ANOTHER CHEMICAL PREGNANCY!!
April 3rd/09: Beta day...."NEGATIVE"
April6/09: AF starts with vengence!!!
May 2nd: first Accupunture appointment and loved it!
May 22/09: follow-up appointment with RE: Sono test booked and miscarriage test for auto immune completed
June 09: Sono test completed all looking good..thank God!
Miscarriage work up for auto immune test..normal!
Presently: It's a new year and Dh and I are preparing ourselves to start another cycle...here we come 2012!! Once we decide to cycle again it will be lupron,
Gonal-F 150 and Repronex 75,baby aspirin and fragmin, progesterone in oil and estrace.
[color=#800080]My dream to be a mom is still living on and i'm not giving up...this year is a year of great blessings and one of them will be our precious child(ren) that I will be blessed with this year..staying very positive and believing it WILL happen!!
#31
Posted 27 April 2009 - 12:37 PM
Please don't leave us hanging for too long
D
9 IUIs, 12 months Fermara, 4 months Clomid, 5 rounds of injectable, 1 LAP, 1 HSG, 2 Uterine Biopsies, 1 Postcoital, 1 IVF, 2 FETs... 2nd Fesh Cycle IVF - ++Beta 110!
TTC#2 - Dreams coming true... Surprise BFP Au Naturel! Never really started trying, but never gave up hope on dreams coming true. 20w2, after 6 days of strict bedrest, we lost our baby boy, Emmett to my incompetent cervix and he was born sleeping. 24cm long, 0.67lbs he was the most perfect little angel and has brought with him many lessons for us to remember him by.
Lightening strikes twice apparently>>>> May 24 ++HPT, Followed by ++Beta. Numbers are low, but doubling. EDD Feb1/2013 ~ Baby Boy arrived 5 weeks early in under 2hrs. Left me with 4th degree tears. 2 years later, still pending reconstructive surgery In that time hubby had a vasectomy. Never thought we'd have a chance to take fertility into our own hands
#32
Posted 27 April 2009 - 06:46 PM
I'll make it brief, going to have a beer.
Eggs are probably shit, but no discussion of donor eggs, so she seems to think we still have a shot.
New protocol if I want it. No BCP's, just the suprefact starting on CD21. Then I'll be back on the gonal f @ 300IU plus something called Luveris I think? And after ER she wants me to take small HCG shots to make my ovaries think they need to produce progesterone. And she also thinks...( for all you that don't agree with me re early bleeding...) that I dont' absorb the progesterone sup's well, and that bleeding 11 days after ER was not acceptable. So that at least made me happy.
She's cool with me calling in CD 1 in 6 months time, so I can take my time to figure out what I want. And holy shit, I didn't realize that I freaking stimmed for 14 days the first time. Followed by 8 the second time. I think they are going to try and find a happy medium there...LOL
Anyway, she was cool, and I appreciate that. And I have time to think. I'll write more later, but I'm freaking beat.
xoxo
Bilaterally blocked tubes discovered Dec 2007
IVF#1 June, 2008 agonist protocol
300IU gonal f, 13 days of stims. Nothing to transfer.
EPIC FAIL
IVF#2 Started BCP for Antagonist protocol Oct 9, 2008 (menopur and centrotide)
Last BCP, Nov 2, 2008
First U/S Nov 2, start 300iu Menopur Nov 7, 2008
Back for daily scans and bloods starting Nov 11, 2008
U/S showed 5 follies between 1.1 and 1.25 start Centrotide today.
Nov 13 U/S showed 7 follies between 1.2 and 1.5
Next U/S Nov 14 10 follies
Trigger Nov 15
ER date, Nov 17th
6 retrieved.
4 mature and ICSI'd, 3 dividing on day 1.
3 still alive on day 2
ET Nov 20, 2008. All 3 going back!
8 cell grade 2, 6 cell grade 2, 7 cell grade 3 put back.
8dp3dt Brown spotting
AF arrived Nov 28, WAY early, thanks a lot...*sigh*
Beta Dec 1, 2008 (what is the point? NONE)
RE appointment April 27, 2009 to discuss IVF#2, and then I think we are done. Oh well, was a fun ride? *snicker*
I swear by my life and my love of it that I will not live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for the sake of mine. -Atlas Shrugged
“Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth.”- Einstein.
Blinkie Maker
#33
Posted 27 April 2009 - 06:51 PM
No matter what you decide to do in the future, I hope you remain content
#34
Posted 27 April 2009 - 07:16 PM
I was really curious as to whether on not she had a plan for me, and she did. So that was nice. And the fact that she also felt I didn't do well on the sup's...that really made me happy. Hearing my eggs are more than likely garbage....honestly...it's not like I didn't already know that!
The funniest part was when we told her that we were taking a bit of a break, and were maybe going to cycle again in the future...To which she replied..."well, what? Like 3 years?" heh. 6 months is nothing compared to that.
So going to get all my bloods run in Aug or so, and see where we are at. My fsh last year was always around 7...so we shall see. And hey, DHEA is all about improving egg quality...so maybe it's just what I need.
And I'm actually happy about going back on the gonal next time (if there is a next time...) cause at least I got 8 eggs from that. She wasn't too impressed to my response to the menopur it would seem.
So while I am still ticked at Sinai about shit, I am not ticked at Dr. G, and that's important I guess.
xoxo
Bilaterally blocked tubes discovered Dec 2007
IVF#1 June, 2008 agonist protocol
300IU gonal f, 13 days of stims. Nothing to transfer.
EPIC FAIL
IVF#2 Started BCP for Antagonist protocol Oct 9, 2008 (menopur and centrotide)
Last BCP, Nov 2, 2008
First U/S Nov 2, start 300iu Menopur Nov 7, 2008
Back for daily scans and bloods starting Nov 11, 2008
U/S showed 5 follies between 1.1 and 1.25 start Centrotide today.
Nov 13 U/S showed 7 follies between 1.2 and 1.5
Next U/S Nov 14 10 follies
Trigger Nov 15
ER date, Nov 17th
6 retrieved.
4 mature and ICSI'd, 3 dividing on day 1.
3 still alive on day 2
ET Nov 20, 2008. All 3 going back!
8 cell grade 2, 6 cell grade 2, 7 cell grade 3 put back.
8dp3dt Brown spotting
AF arrived Nov 28, WAY early, thanks a lot...*sigh*
Beta Dec 1, 2008 (what is the point? NONE)
RE appointment April 27, 2009 to discuss IVF#2, and then I think we are done. Oh well, was a fun ride? *snicker*
I swear by my life and my love of it that I will not live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for the sake of mine. -Atlas Shrugged
“Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth.”- Einstein.
Blinkie Maker
#35
Posted 27 April 2009 - 08:46 PM
#36
Posted 29 April 2009 - 10:18 PM
Take care, and my best wishes to you and your DH.
TTC since 12/04 - PCOS, mild MF - Five rounds of clomid - Four cycles cancelled because of cysts - Three failed IUI's (one with injectables) - Two fertility clinics - And an IVF/ICSI partridge in a pear tree
IVF/ICSI #1 cancelled - IVF/ICSI #2 ER Sept 18 - 15 eggs!!! 14 mature, 10 fertilized.
ET Sept 23 - transferred two beautiful high grade blasts! 5 blast kidsicles on ice.
October 1 - Early beta due to spotting - 7. Low progesterone, had to switch to PIO.
October 3- PIO working. Progesterone increases from 8 to 74, and beta of 27.
October 7 -(original beta date) 151 . Low positive.
October 9 - 273. Not doubling but still 'within standards'
October 14 - 1482. 97% doubling rate! Good news!
October 20 - u/s not great. Baby measuring a week behind, no hb.
October 27 - wonky again. Measuring 6w1d and I'm 7w4d. But there's a h/b of 89.
November 3 - negative growth, but hb of 114.
November 10 - miscarriage, 9w4d
FET #1 March 2009 - BFN
Tried on our own April 2009 - BFN
IUI # 4 with femara May 9, 2009 - BFN
IUI # 5 with femara June 5, 2009 - BFN. Again. Gettin' kinda sick of this.
IVF #3 August/September - started stims August 22.
September 4 - ER 7 eggs, 7 mature, 3 fertilized
September 7 - ET - transferred 3 grade 2 embies, two seven cell and one 8 cell
September 21 - negative beta. Epic fail.
Apparently I make crap eggs. Taking 800mgs/day of Co-Q10 since October 2009, then will do high dose IUI sometime in June/July.
Will likely start up the blog again http://seedsininfert...il.blogspot.com when we get rolling.
Please, please, please...
#37
Posted 30 April 2009 - 06:04 AM
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#38
Posted 03 May 2009 - 10:56 AM
I am curious though, are you going to keep taking the dhea just in case?
Mina
Him older
ttc since 2002
Dx: low ovarian reserve, male factor: low motility & morphology, high dna fragmentation
History:
summer 2005 Scheduled IUI cycle
cycle cancelled: natural bfp! baby 1 m/c 12 weeks 2005
winter 2005: Scheduled IVF cycle
cancelled for natural bfp! baby 2 born perfect 2006
baby 3 natural conception, m/c 8.5 weeks (D&C 10.5 weeks) 2008
moving on to IVF
IVF #1. bcp in Jan-Feb 2009, Stims in March. Cycle cancelled on day 8 due to totally pathetic response.
What next?
#39
Posted 03 May 2009 - 12:06 PM
However, I have to admit, everyday that passes I feel less and less like ever trying this again.
But since I have been known to change my mind in the past I figured I'd keep taking it until late fall, and if I still don't want to cycle then I will be OFFICIALLY done.
It's funny, the helicopter is really helping me with this decision. Glad I'm not still sitting in limbo with a bad back, now that would suck. I can focus my energy now, towards things I can actually control...LOL
Good luck. I hope things work out for you, with whatever you choose to do.
And thanks Diva and Victoria.
xoxo
Bilaterally blocked tubes discovered Dec 2007
IVF#1 June, 2008 agonist protocol
300IU gonal f, 13 days of stims. Nothing to transfer.
EPIC FAIL
IVF#2 Started BCP for Antagonist protocol Oct 9, 2008 (menopur and centrotide)
Last BCP, Nov 2, 2008
First U/S Nov 2, start 300iu Menopur Nov 7, 2008
Back for daily scans and bloods starting Nov 11, 2008
U/S showed 5 follies between 1.1 and 1.25 start Centrotide today.
Nov 13 U/S showed 7 follies between 1.2 and 1.5
Next U/S Nov 14 10 follies
Trigger Nov 15
ER date, Nov 17th
6 retrieved.
4 mature and ICSI'd, 3 dividing on day 1.
3 still alive on day 2
ET Nov 20, 2008. All 3 going back!
8 cell grade 2, 6 cell grade 2, 7 cell grade 3 put back.
8dp3dt Brown spotting
AF arrived Nov 28, WAY early, thanks a lot...*sigh*
Beta Dec 1, 2008 (what is the point? NONE)
RE appointment April 27, 2009 to discuss IVF#2, and then I think we are done. Oh well, was a fun ride? *snicker*
I swear by my life and my love of it that I will not live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for the sake of mine. -Atlas Shrugged
“Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth.”- Einstein.
Blinkie Maker