I am new to posting, although I have been quietly lurking and learning as I go through my journey.
DH and I underwent IVF investigation last year and it was determined that I have DOR and don't produce enough progesterone after ovulation to support a pregnancy. I am only 36 - it broke my heart to learn that there was an issue in my body and it couldn't do what it was supposed to naturally. I had already begun to feel like my clock was ticking but to actually be told that my clock was ticking was something totally different for me.
We underwent egg retrieval in February - 7 eggs retrieved, 5 mature, 4 fertilized, 0 good.
It was so upsetting for me. The entire process was exhausting and I felt so unlike myself physically.
We were advised to do another egg retrieval in an attempt to obtain higher quality eggs.
We underwent another egg retrieval in March - 5 eggs retrieved, 4 mature, 2 fertilized, 1 4AA and 1 5AA blast. Both blasts tested normal for PGS. We were thrilled!
In May I did an FET with one of the PGS normal blasts. First beta test was only 5.88 (borderline). Had to do a repeat next day and was 9.06 so had doubled. Few days later was 47, then 103, then 226 then... 202, then 164, then the news... failed. How? PGS normal! How? Great grading! My lining was 11mm and there were no obvious issues in my uterus. I had a sonohystogram the week prior to transfer and an ERA in March to test receptivity. All systems were go. How did this fail?
I am devastated. How does a PGS normal, perfectly graded blast fail?! I have read and read and read and I keep reading and reading.... I am so tired of reading.
DH and I agreed that we would only do the 2 retrievals - all our cycles have been paid 100% by us and it has been an emotional roller coaster for me.
I am already onto our next steps, even though we have another PGS normal, great graded frosty waiting for when I have completed this miscarriage and all the hormones are out of my body. I can't see any hope in it working because this one failed. DH isn't interested in a donor egg. And I can't bring myself to not have other options if this last frosty fails. I am so torn up and tired.
Anyone recently gone through a failed FET with a PGS normal blast? How do you cope with the concept of it failing when it should work given the testing and grading... I feel so lost. How do you even begin to hope for the next when all you feel is confusion and upset?
I feel the room getting smaller and smaller. And my chances of having a baby vanishing before my eyes...