How did it go?
How are you feeling today? Still feeling sleepy?
My FET was this morning and I am still under shock. The 2 previous attempts were quick and pain-free, but this morning, for some reason, they couldn’t see my uterus well with the echo, they had to insert an endovaginal echographic wand with the catheter and with the Crinone gel blocking the way, this was very uncomfortable, painful even. There was some blood on the operating table after the procedure and there wasn’t any the previous times.
Even with the wand, they still couldn’t see the catheter well in the uterus (on the echo) when it was inserted with the embryo in it. The doctor pulled out and wanted to start again, but when the embryologist checked the catheter, it was empty, meaning the embryo had been put in my uterus. I was stressed and asked whether it was put at the proper location, they insisted it did, that they used to do transfers without an echo and that it was done with a measurement, that it had been put where it needed to be before the catheter was withdrawn. I asked if it was possible that it had dropped into my vagina or somewhere else, but the doctor said it wasn’t possible (there are 2 catheters, one like a straw that goes into the uterus and the one with the embryo that goes into the first one, they said the embryo could be either in the uterus or in the catheter, nowhere else). Even with all those explanations, I can’t help to feel that this went very wrong and I am scared that my good embryo was wasted in the process.
The last two times, they had given me a picture of the uterus and I could see the drop of water containing my embryo. This time there was nothing to see on my picture, just a dark cavity.
I am still hopeful, but so scared at the same time... To make things worse, DH is out of town, I didn’t think it would be a big deal, as the last times had been uneventful.
I am trying to stay relaxed, I am wearing my thick woollen IVF socks, wrapped in a blanket (we have central air conditioning) and watching Netflix with my two cats cuddled.