Hello my cycle friends!
So nice to have you guys, because I really don't have anyone to talk to about this. We aren't sharing our journey with many at this time, for a number of reasons...partly because we are not transferring fresh or anytime soon, so why get people's knickers in a knot for various reasons when there is enough to stress about in the world around us.
My ovaries are talking loud and clear. Yesterday was awful. I was so emotional. All the needles hurt going in. I am more and more bloated and exhausted. I started crying because of the pain and cried all afternoon. No real reason, just felt emotional and alone despite having my husband here to comfort me and be company.
U/S today shows 11+ and 6+ (down from 8+ two days ago?) follicles per side. We are close but not quite there for trigger--a few 1.8 but one ovary is slower at 1.6 average. So perhaps trigger in a day or two?? I am ready for this cycle to be done as it is taking a bigger toll on my mental health than the previous one.
bibz: your embryo counts sound good. If you look back at the March IVF post you can see my embryo numbers--we ended with 5 though there was one that was slow to develop. If you are doing fresh transfer I suspect that you are not doing any PGT? Is the plan for one or two embryo transfer?
I honestly think that any embryos at the end is a successful collection cycle. We do so much to manipulate nature, so only the hardiest ones will make it to a few days of growth--after that, just chance at play if the embryos take (reproductive medicine hasn't quite figured out how to force them to stay in there and make sure their developmental trajectory is perfect).
I was so afraid when I learned from a friend that she had an amazing retrieval (50 follicles) giving about the same number of eggs, which became 25 embryos, of which only two were genetically normal. She said that was not atypical--I'd rather have fewer but higher percentage that are good quality, even if in the end I only have two.
YaenaSK: I don't think we cycled together but probably crossed paths on posts here. I hope things are progressing well for you.
That's all for now. Despite being on vacation I have a ton of work meetings via zoom and other virtual platforms this morning....at least it keeps my mind off my aching ovaries.
Best wishes and big hugs to all,