Dear TTC Family,
I never thought I'd be here, writing an open letter, exposing the hurt, sadness, depression, and anxiety that has developed due to infertility. I am 38 years and have low AMH and am healthy otherwise. My partner, 39 has had one abnormal sperm test and then a subsequent "normal" test. This process has impacted our relationship and it feels permanently damaged. We are aware of this and are trying to work through it, but the weight of TTC has left us distant, uncommunicative (mostly me) so I've sought out counselling.
Our clinic is like a puppy mill. They don't know you other than for your chart number and haven't really individualized our care. "Here. Try Clomid for 6 months and come back and talk to us."
We've transfered our care to an out-of-province clinic and are awaiting our phone consultation with them. I feel like time is running out and like I'm not sure I even want to attempt IVF. The emotional and financial toll is too great.
I'm not sure what else to say except I'm in a dark place and don't feel like myself anymore. Thanks for reading. I look forward to reaching out to you, too.