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Well, turns out that my E2 levels are not good enough for "quality eggs" and only managed to produce 4 follicles after having Gonal F dosage doubled. I am crushed! This IVF cycle is now going to be an IUI on Thursday. I'm not holding my breath on this one.

So, now we wait. Again. And start a new cycle with new protocol in May. I'm knda shell shocked right now. Poor Dh doesn't know what to do. I'm feeling very defeated. I'm feeling like I've failed. I know that's wrong to feel that way, as I have no control over the situation. But do ya know what I mean?

Hey girlies...I need a hug.

Heather

Heather,
I am so sorry to hear that your cycle has been cancelled this month. You have been wonderful and I was cheering for you pretty loudly on my end, my dh is even asking about you. Keep your chin up and don't give up!!
Joy

Dear Heather,

Lots of hugs your way from me.

Take time off and spend some quality time with hubby . I am sure you will feel better.


Cheerup lady

All the best to you and DH.
Keep me posted on how your IUI went.


Cheers,
FloJo

Dear Heather!
I trully believe your cancellation is very upsetting!

But because we cannot controll the situation, we could control our reaction on it.

Try to see positives (it is sounds unbeliveable , don't think I'm crazy )
Negative outcome is still an outcome,that brings some answers:how you may react for particular med,dosage...in certain cycle(beging #E2)..
So knowing SOMETHING about your reaction your Dr. may adjust protocol, that would be more successful!
And don't forget! It may be just wrong cycle!!
I wish you good fight in IUI try!!

Aw Heather, too bad. I know how I would have felt if they had cancelled me halfway through-devastated! you can only hope it is for the best. This process is so trial and error sometimes. Let's hope it goes right with the IUI. All the best. take care of yourself.

Maddy

oh man, i know how discouraging that would be! how frustrating!

there was a girl at my clinic going through the exact same thing during my ivf cycle... only got 4 follicles, they turned it into an iui cycle, but the RE didn't sound concerned at all (she was in the next room, i overheard everything) ... he just explained that they would now understand how to do her drugs next time to ensure that she gets more follicles, and that it wasn't worth spending the big bucks on ivf that time.

It just didn't seem like a bad thing that was happening, and the RE sounded very sure of himself about the whole thing.

I hope that helps ... ???

Hang in there, imagine if IUI works!! and if not, may will come very quickly ... and you'll get to keep running for a while longer!

i'm sorry to hear about that though, i know it really sucks

Kris

Just curious why you are starting an IVF again in May. Is that the protocol or is it your emotional and financial decision?

Awwweeee...You guys are sooooooo wonderful. Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement. I think that I need to really live by the words that I have been preaching to other people....live in the "now"

An9817: To answer your question about May...if this IUI doesn't work out, the plan is to start BCP in April and then start meds in May. I wanted to get going on it sooner, but the Dr. said that it would be better to start with a clean slate and give my body a chance to recover from this cycle. I guess that although the drugs didn't do exactly what they were supposed to, they still take a toll. So, I will have a whole new drug protocol in May. Emotionally, I wanted to start sooner. Financially, it made sense to cancel this IVF cycle and put the money towards a more promising cycle.

The Dr. explained that although I had 4 follicles that were the right size to continue IVF, he felt that there was too much risk of having no eggs, or eggs of poor quality due to E2 levels. I can see his point now. I never was much of a gmabler, so this is the best way to get a better outcome. But it was my (and Dh) call to make. We left the office to go and talk, we hd a good cry, and went back tothe office to make our new game plan. I think that the Dr. was relieved with the way we decided to go.

I cannot say enough good things about our clinic. Everyone was so patient, understanding and kind. I really appreciated that they didn't urge us to choose one way or the other, but gave us the low down, and left the decision up to us. If anyone out there needs a reccomendation for Vancouver Island...Victoria Fertility Clinic is the place to go!

You guys...thanks soooo much for all your support. I am that much stronger with you all behind me!

Onwards and upwards on this roller coaster!

Cheers,
Heather

[Natiko]

Heya Heather,

I'm a little late in reply... sorry (I suck). I just wanted to send you my condolences, I'm sorry. You are so great at saying all the right things to all of us when we are low and down and out. I know when it comes to trying to tell yourself this kind of stuff, it just never works. I'm glad that you found some comfort in everyones replies, that's good.

I hope this IUI works out for you, never know!! But I know what you mean about getting your hopes up. I just hope they learn more about what works for you and what doesn't. They changed my protocol to better increase my chances, hopefully they'll do the same for you .

Chin up, May isn't too far away and we won't be too far apart in these next cycles again! I have my fingers crossed for your IUI!!!!!

Thinking about you,
Shawn

Heather,

Darn, darn...I guess it is always a risk that it won't work. And this way the doctors will have a good sense of what kind of protocol you need to be on for the next time.

Hannah

Awww Heather that sucks

I was really hoping the double dose was going to be enough. Well, maybe the IUI will work

I'm glad you're planning ahead at a new cycle, 'onward and upward' are great words of wisdom

Stay strong and we'll cross our fingers for this IUI !!!!

sam