Posted 28 February 2005 - 09:27 PM
Well, turns out that my E2 levels are not good enough for "quality eggs" and only managed to produce 4 follicles after having Gonal F dosage doubled. I am crushed! This IVF cycle is now going to be an IUI on Thursday. I'm not holding my breath on this one.
So, now we wait. Again. And start a new cycle with new protocol in May. I'm knda shell shocked right now. Poor Dh doesn't know what to do. I'm feeling very defeated. I'm feeling like I've failed. I know that's wrong to feel that way, as I have no control over the situation. But do ya know what I mean?
Hey girlies...I need a hug.
Posted 28 February 2005 - 09:47 PM
I am so sorry to hear that your cycle has been cancelled this month. You have been wonderful and I was cheering for you pretty loudly on my end, my dh is even asking about you. Keep your chin up and don't give up!!
Posted 28 February 2005 - 10:20 PM
Lots of hugs your way from me.
Take time off and spend some quality time with hubby . I am sure you will feel better.
All the best to you and DH.
Keep me posted on how your IUI went.
Posted 28 February 2005 - 11:45 PM
I trully believe your cancellation is very upsetting!
But because we cannot controll the situation, we could control our reaction on it.
Try to see positives (it is sounds unbeliveable , don't think I'm crazy )
Negative outcome is still an outcome,that brings some answers:how you may react for particular med,dosage...in certain cycle(beging #E2)..
So knowing SOMETHING about your reaction your Dr. may adjust protocol, that would be more successful!
And don't forget! It may be just wrong cycle!!
I wish you good fight in IUI try!!
Posted 01 March 2005 - 12:59 AM
Posted 01 March 2005 - 02:03 AM
there was a girl at my clinic going through the exact same thing during my ivf cycle... only got 4 follicles, they turned it into an iui cycle, but the RE didn't sound concerned at all (she was in the next room, i overheard everything) ... he just explained that they would now understand how to do her drugs next time to ensure that she gets more follicles, and that it wasn't worth spending the big bucks on ivf that time.
It just didn't seem like a bad thing that was happening, and the RE sounded very sure of himself about the whole thing.
I hope that helps ... ???
Hang in there, imagine if IUI works!! and if not, may will come very quickly ... and you'll get to keep running for a while longer!
i'm sorry to hear about that though, i know it really sucks
Posted 01 March 2005 - 07:49 AM
Posted 01 March 2005 - 10:28 AM
An9817: To answer your question about May...if this IUI doesn't work out, the plan is to start BCP in April and then start meds in May. I wanted to get going on it sooner, but the Dr. said that it would be better to start with a clean slate and give my body a chance to recover from this cycle. I guess that although the drugs didn't do exactly what they were supposed to, they still take a toll. So, I will have a whole new drug protocol in May. Emotionally, I wanted to start sooner. Financially, it made sense to cancel this IVF cycle and put the money towards a more promising cycle.
The Dr. explained that although I had 4 follicles that were the right size to continue IVF, he felt that there was too much risk of having no eggs, or eggs of poor quality due to E2 levels. I can see his point now. I never was much of a gmabler, so this is the best way to get a better outcome. But it was my (and Dh) call to make. We left the office to go and talk, we hd a good cry, and went back tothe office to make our new game plan. I think that the Dr. was relieved with the way we decided to go.
I cannot say enough good things about our clinic. Everyone was so patient, understanding and kind. I really appreciated that they didn't urge us to choose one way or the other, but gave us the low down, and left the decision up to us. If anyone out there needs a reccomendation for Vancouver Island...Victoria Fertility Clinic is the place to go!
You guys...thanks soooo much for all your support. I am that much stronger with you all behind me!
Onwards and upwards on this roller coaster!
Posted 01 March 2005 - 10:45 AM
I'm a little late in reply... sorry (I suck). I just wanted to send you my condolences, I'm sorry. You are so great at saying all the right things to all of us when we are low and down and out. I know when it comes to trying to tell yourself this kind of stuff, it just never works. I'm glad that you found some comfort in everyones replies, that's good.
I hope this IUI works out for you, never know!! But I know what you mean about getting your hopes up. I just hope they learn more about what works for you and what doesn't. They changed my protocol to better increase my chances, hopefully they'll do the same for you .
Chin up, May isn't too far away and we won't be too far apart in these next cycles again! I have my fingers crossed for your IUI!!!!!
Thinking about you,
TTC - 14 years off and on
son Jacob - 13 yrs
IVF #1 Feb05 - BFN (no frosties)
IVF #2 July05 - BFN (no frosties)
IUI Sept. - BFN.
IUI Nov. - BFN.
Laparoscopy Jan 25/06
Posted 01 March 2005 - 12:14 PM
Darn, darn...I guess it is always a risk that it won't work. And this way the doctors will have a good sense of what kind of protocol you need to be on for the next time.
Posted 01 March 2005 - 12:38 PM
I was really hoping the double dose was going to be enough. Well, maybe the IUI will work
I'm glad you're planning ahead at a new cycle, 'onward and upward' are great words of wisdom
Stay strong and we'll cross our fingers for this IUI !!!!