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[hopeful_flyer]

Ugh.

Have my epic fail cycle follow up today over the phone at 3pm.

I feel sick.

I'm afraid she is going to tell me my eggs are bad, and that there is no point in ever doing this again...

This might be a tad irrational, but it is still a possibility...and I seriously feel like puking.

I just wish there had been a slight glimmer of hope with my cycle, instead of NOTHING. That is just too much to take some days...

Wish me luck.

[KristaA]

GOOD LUCK Hopeful.............I'm sure everything will be alright!! Best wishes!

Kahtila

I'm not an expert, but I don't believe that one "bad" batch of eggs dooms you to failure forever. Our first attempt had only 4 eggs, two of which were good quality for transfer. Our second attempt, however, had only 3 eggs, all of which were NOT of good quality - only 1 made it to transfer and that was a poor quality embryo at best. Our third attempt, however, had 5 eggs retrived from 6 follicles. 4 fertilized and ALL 4 were of above average quality for transfer on D3 ... and now we have our BFP.

What was the difference? I lost a little weight (in a healthy way, by eating lots of fruits and veggies, good meats, milk, whole grains and cutting way back on breads), I drank 2 - 3 L of water each day and cut out all sodas (I don't drink tea or coffee or I would have dropped those too). But besides that, I had renewed hope with our new clinic, and went into it knowing that this was our last attempt so whatever will be, will be. That didn't stop some worrying, but by the time all the procedures were done, I was "relaxed" in that I knew that I had done everything that I could possibly do.

Can I say for sure that any of that made a difference? No. But I do know that each cycle was different, and just because I had one bad one, it didn't stop a great cycle from following.

Good luck to you!

[hopeful_flyer]

Thanks guys.

Dh just called, we are going for Thai for a lunch date.....so we can try to relax a little bit.

i know I am being a total drama queen..but I have just had such a BAD run of luck for the past few years...I just have a hard time with positivity...

But you are right.

Ugh.

Still feel icky.

LOL

[Hero08]

Hi Hopeful - I just wanted to say good luck with your meeting. I have a feeling it will go better than you expect and remember - bad luck doesn't last forever...

[onedaysoon]

Hopeful - Good luck this afternoon! Don't be shy - ask the questions that you need answered. If you are going to cycle there again, you want them to know what needs to be done differently for you. Hopefully you get some of the answers that you were looking for!

Good luck Hopeful. I'm thinking they will be providing some options for you and hoping you get some optimistic news.

[sdmann]

Hi Hopeful - Hope your appointment goes well and you get some answers and renewed hope.

[tryingforever]

Hi Hopeful

Good luck with everthing today. I agree with previous posters - ask all the questions you can think of - write them down over lunch with DH so you don't forget.

My thoughts are with you to get some optimistic news!

kdl

Ugh.

Have my epic fail cycle follow up today over the phone at 3pm.

I feel sick.

I'm afraid she is going to tell me my eggs are bad, and that there is no point in ever doing this again...

This might be a tad irrational, but it is still a possibility...and I seriously feel like puking.

I just wish there had been a slight glimmer of hope with my cycle, instead of NOTHING. That is just too much to take some days...

Wish me luck.

Hi,

I know exactly how you are feeling. I had egg retreival yesterday-Sun. and was told that the two leading follicles, which we thought would contain eggs, did not contain eggs. So, they retreived three eggs, but heard back this morning that none of them have matured yet. They will wait one more day to see if they do mature, but there isn't much hope. I have Crohn's disease, which caused both of my tubes to be blocked. So, the last 18 months has been hell for us. On wait list in Calgary for what seems like an eternity, then right tube removed-not fun! Now, two failed IVF procedures. Was on the "surge" protocol, which they say is the most aggressive protocal to IVF, so another IVF procedure is not recommended. We are now looking into egg donor-only to find out the Canadian government has outlawed it! Now, we are looking into Seattle or Denver egg donor programs, which are very expensive!! I feel angry, sad and disillusioned all at the same time. I am trying to put my life into perspective, but most people just don't get it! If you need someone to talk to-please e-mail. Good luck! Remember, there is always hope!

[Katherine e]

Hopeful flyer,

Good luck with your follow up. I hope it brings some renewed hope for you... it seems that sometime it is dark everywhere- but the sun will come up....

(hugs)

Katherine

[maybebaby]

I'm not an expert, but I don't believe that one "bad" batch of eggs dooms you to failure forever. Our first attempt had only 4 eggs, two of which were good quality for transfer. Our second attempt, however, had only 3 eggs, all of which were NOT of good quality - only 1 made it to transfer and that was a poor quality embryo at best. Our third attempt, however, had 5 eggs retrived from 6 follicles. 4 fertilized and ALL 4 were of above average quality for transfer on D3 ... and now we have our BFP.

What was the difference? I lost a little weight (in a healthy way, by eating lots of fruits and veggies, good meats, milk, whole grains and cutting way back on breads), I drank 2 - 3 L of water each day and cut out all sodas (I don't drink tea or coffee or I would have dropped those too). But besides that, I had renewed hope with our new clinic, and went into it knowing that this was our last attempt so whatever will be, will be. That didn't stop some worrying, but by the time all the procedures were done, I was "relaxed" in that I knew that I had done everything that I could possibly do.

Can I say for sure that any of that made a difference? No. But I do know that each cycle was different, and just because I had one bad one, it didn't stop a great cycle from following.

Good luck to you!

I loved what you wrote, thanks for the encouragement to all us 'over 35 babes' that are worried about poor ovarian reserve! Lucky you, congrats on your BFP. Hope we all get to be in your shoes.

[Rufus]

So sorry your IVF cycle was such a difficult one, Hopeful Flyer. Hopefully you got some good news and some answers today.

[baby2be]

I think you will be okay. You RE most likely wants to talk about the failed cycle and what the next steps will be.

Best of luck!

Hugs,
Dana