Single mom of a 5 yo boy. Did IVF with donor sperm at 43, gave birth at 44 to a healthy, perfect boy. Got pg on first round, good number of follicles, egg count/quality, transferred 3, 1 grew to my baby, none made it to day 5 for freezing, so none left.
I just discovered that I have 1 vial of frozen sperm at the fertility clinic.
I purchased 2 at the start but only needed one. After my son was born, the first year is still fuzzy, I swear I remember the clinic sending me a message asking me if I wanted to remaining vial to stay in storage or be discarded. OR something like that, I honestly have little recollection but I thought for the past 5 years that there was no more sperm left, so I never thought about doing it again.
Well, lo and behold, I emailed the fertility clinic and was shocked to find out they still have the vial.
I only emailed them recently because I had a few conversations with friends about wishing I had tried for another and thought I would double check with the clinic. I found myself regretting not trying for another sooner as I have often felt this over the years wishing my son had a sibling and I had a larger family. So when I found out there is still sperm left, I cried and cried feeling elated that there still might be a chance and conflicted because I waited so long, regretting not figuring this out sooner, depressed because at my age, no clinic is going to work with me at 49.
I have a glimmer of hope because I still menstruate regularly, have no health conditions, have been pg in the past, and got pg on the first try with IVF at 43 with 13 eggs, all good to excellent quality, etc etc. The only reason I did IVF was because I was/am single and had no sperm, not because of fertility issues.
I know the chances are slim, 1% or less and the chances of birth defects are so much higher. I dont' have the financial resources to do IVF again even if a clinic would take me.
So what do to do with the leftover sperm. I cannot bring myself to discard it and as long as there is a tiny chance, I want to try to get pg again. The only option for that seems to be at home insemination.
Will the clinic just released the vial to me for in home insemination? I emailed them to ask but haven't gotten a response yet.
I'm really kicking myself over this whole thing. All of the conflicting emotions from before come up, grieving the loss of my own fertility, managing on my own if I had another, not having a sibling for my son, regretting not starting much earlier.... Just like the first time, I would have deep regrets if I didn't try.