On the eve of my HPT for my natural cycle

So ladies, I will be taking a HPT Thursday morning- 13dpo. This is a natural cycle after my miscarriage and although my DH has statistically calculated we have less than a 4% chance of naturally conceiving, I cannot give up hope. I have no head aches or PMS symptoms before my period which is a good sign don't ya think? Usually I get head aches and my DH tells me I'm acting all PMSssy... I do have a larger appetite and that is indicative of my period so we will see.

It would be such a wonderful thing for us to have this dream come true. After all we have been through- LOSS after LOSS and LOSS (losing my mother, losing our house, losing our cat, losing our dog, losing my 7 week old baby) wouldn't it be nice if GOD or the universe gave back to us?

Even with this hope, I am still extremely practical and logical and understand scientifically we don't stand much of a chance actually. I mean we TTC'd for almost 2 years and even though I didn't chart or temp( I am a pretty regular cycle girl-28 days on the dot every month) no baby or pregnancy.

I'm hoping that because I was actually pregnant and we tried naturally soon after my miscarriage my body is prepped for pregnancy. I know it sounds weird but that's how I justify it. I'm ready for my next chapter in life.

I'm corssing my fingers, toes and anything I can cross for a positive but in the same breath won't be surprised if i get a negative.