Haven't written in a while because I haven't had much to say. Nothing has changed in my situation in regards to fertility. Just waiting.......and hearing negative results.
Currently I'm waiting for IVF#2 to start. Instead of starting, they found a large 7cm cyst on my ovary and so I'm on birth control waiting for that to shrink.
This past weekend, we visited with my husband's nieces. The family decided to go to the park and I happily tagged along. Once we got to the park though, this wave of sadness hit. I just sat on a bench and watched my nieces and family play. There were quite a few parents and kids there due to the nice weather and I was just consumed with this grief that I'm never going to have a family to come to the park with. There was one dad who was there with his two girls. He sat on a bench just glued to his phone the whole time and wouldn't get up even when his girls called out "daddy, come push us on the swings!" It made me furious.
At one point, I let tears spring to my eyes and had to quickly blink them away. I am losing hope.
- juice and Crazy_beautiful89 like this