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The echo in the distance

Posted by DesignerBug , 14 January 2021 · 583 views

Infertility is a journey you never ever forget. It gives you perspective, awareness and understanding that hopefully one day prove to be an asset instead of a hindrance.  
Shes 11 now. Shes at an age where she will start to understand how she came to be to some degree.  
The challenges of infertility never go away, but I feel fortunate that for...


Still Echoing

Posted by DesignerBug , 24 February 2016 · 3059 views

In 2003 when we decided "we'd chance" getting pregnant we would have never in a million years guessed what lay ahead. In fact, it's likely a good thing that we didn't know what was to come, as I'm pretty sure it would have been enough to just walk away without even trying.
The nearly 6 years it took us to conceive gave us a lot more than just...


Just a Thought....

Posted by DesignerBug , 14 November 2014 · 1294 views

I have a a few friends with Twins. Even a couple with triplets. Not all of them are IVF, but the truth is the majority are.
Because I'm a reflective type person, it brought back some memories of past conversations, past frustrations etc. and today, it brought with it a little light. Perhaps a little perspective that shows more than what we may thin...


What I remember...

Posted by DesignerBug , 07 November 2014 · 1645 views

I remember that I was hurt and lost. I remember that I was defeated and broken. But I remember that it happened, like it was to someone else.
Infertility took many things from me. It took innocence, comfort and life. In turn it contributed to who I am today. It forced me to search deeper, to look harder and to try more. It gave me the choice to bre...



Posted by DesignerBug , 06 November 2014 · 1308 views

Remembering a fork in the road 6 years ago that changed our lives forever...
This week 6 years ago our last Frozen Embryo Transfer failed. Maxed out at 12 months or more of medication and timed intercourse, followed by 9 IUI's, 1 IVF and 2 FETs over nearly 6 years and no diagnoses - I was done. My heart was beyond repair.
Defeated, broken and...


If you need meŁ.

Posted by DesignerBug , 10 January 2014 · 984 views

If you need me, you can fine me over here….. lovebugandsquirt (dot) wordpress (dot) com

Wishing a successful 2014 to everyone. May your dreams transform into the most beautiful little beings on earth.



On this night 5 years ago

Posted by DesignerBug , 05 January 2014 · 1865 views

Tonight I take a moment to reflect back to five years ago.
January 6, 2009 marked CD1 for what I knew then would be my last venture into the world of assisted reproductive technology. It was our 70th cycle in an effort to conceive our family. Doctors had reached a point where they felt confident in telling us we had a 2% chance of natural conceptio...


I have not Forgotten

Posted by DesignerBug , 22 September 2013 · 1362 views

I have not Forgotten I have not forgotten where my daughter came from or how we came to be together. I have not forgotten that the road was difficult, the tears were plentiful or that there were many losses along our way. I have not forgotten, but at the same time I don't live in it everyday. Infertility will forever echo in my life, but know that it is possible to let go and...



Posted by DesignerBug , 11 May 2013 · 1165 views

Nearly 6 years of unexplained infertility, a laundry list of procedures, a second trimester loss, not one, but TWO natural conceptions following a diagnoses of only a 2% chance of ever conceiving naturally, high risk pregnancies and a roller coaster of emotions.... and I'm here, I made it.
On this eve of Mothers Day i sit quietly at my computer aft...


Life there after

Posted by DesignerBug , 12 February 2013 · 1090 views

So life has been busy. Between my existing businesses and now my new venture with Arbonne I'm on information overload, but loving it. It's incredible when you can find your passion, follow it, then grow it. Happiness doesn't diminish when shared and sharing new found knowledge is empowering. Easton is doing amazing. I have continued taking him to Bow...


Loving Life!!!

Posted by DesignerBug , 31 January 2013 · 1617 views

So our DS arrived a little ahead of schedule - not much I could do about it. Looking back it was like we had a two week Christmas break, the holidays didn't quite go to plan, but all worked out and I went back to work on the Monday with everyone else. Seriously I did. I don't have mat leave because I'm self employed, I had work that was schedule...


Our journey is complete

Posted by DesignerBug , 15 January 2013 · 1319 views

My apologies for those who rely on this blog for their updates - We're home and all is well. After 6 days in hospital, Baby Boy Easton finally made it home and our family of four set forth on their new journey on January 2nd, 2013. He continues to be a great eater and sleeper and generally speaking has a wonderful disposition. His big sister is so in...



Posted by DesignerBug , 01 January 2013 · 1310 views

From a 2 hour labour and delivery to living the past 5 days in one hospital or another life has been crazy. Despite the pace, the insanity and all the ups, downs and arounds our little guy has remained cool as a cucumber. Sleeping when he's supposed to sleep, eating when he's supposed to eat and growing as he's supposed to grow. The nurses lau...



Posted by DesignerBug , 29 December 2012 · 1894 views

Big sister met her little brother today AND he's breathing on his own.... me... I'm recovering well. Apparently displaying some kind of super human pain threshold as I have only had 2 advil for headaches and no pain meds for the 4 degree tears - go figure.


He is here

Posted by DesignerBug , 28 December 2012 · 2351 views

Sorry for leaving people hanging. Had limited Internet and well, a heck of a day.My mucus plug came out around 9pm last night, and things remained stable till 5am, at which point my water broke and contractions started immediately. MIL was called and over by 5:30 in blizzard. Got to the hospital at 6:00am, Easton arrived at 6:55. No time for meds, it was...


Mucus Plug Gone

Posted by DesignerBug , 26 December 2012 · 1230 views

According to the little dial thing that they use to determine due dates I am 34week 6 days... so by morning, I guess that makes me 35 weeks.This evening after about an hour of mild contractions my mucus plug came out. No mistaking it this time. Last time with Emmett it came out and I didn't realize it cause I was only 18 weeks and lasted nearly anothe...


Four Weeks To Go

Posted by DesignerBug , 21 December 2012 · 920 views

T'was four days before Christmas and all through the house,There were signs of Mom nesting, not leaving even a crumb for a mouse.The stockings were hung by the chimney with care;Everything in order, not to be touched, no one would dare.Big sister nestled all snug in her bed,While visions of two filled Mom and Dad's head.Mamma's belly filled to...



Posted by DesignerBug , 20 December 2012 · 914 views

I am busy. Sure, that's not news really. I'm always busy. If I wasn't busy people would think there is something wrong with me :) It's part of who I am and I've come to accept it. Sure every now and again it gets out of control, but for the most time I find it quite manageable.So while I would like to be spending more time on the board...


One Month Today

Posted by DesignerBug , 18 December 2012 · 854 views

Today, December 18, 2012 marks one month until our scheduled c-section and the much anticipated arrival of our littlest angel. It's a strange feeling to be walking in footsteps that my heart reassured me would one day come and to live in a moment that feels no less than destiny.I fought science, ART and IVF for many years. Always convinced that I was...


Bedtime Conversations with my Miracle

Posted by DesignerBug , 15 December 2012 · 922 views

The other day I was at a meeting. As we waited for the meeting to start I got talking with a couple people and the story of Stella Joy  came up. The woman I was speaking with knew her and her family personally. I had personally heard of Stella's story over a year ago and had been quite touched, but didn't follow it religiously as it was too emotio...

A reminder on Change

If Nothing ever Changed, there would be no Butterflies."Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties tomorrow of its strength"Corrie Ten Boom

By the Way...

I just wanted to say Hi! and welcome and thank you for taking the time to not just stop by, but for coming back and keeping up to date. My name is Danielle, but here I go by DesignerBug. I've been around the block, the neighbourhood and some. With over 5 years of challenging, learning and growing from reality of being reproductively challenged I have landed myself here on and for now, I like to call it home.Please check out the Archive Feature and the Categories Features posted along the side to help navigate your way through my thoughts, insights and meltdowns. Some days are overflowing with entries and you never know when you may have missed something.Please don't be shy. I'd love to hear your opinions, suggestions and reflections of my insights.... even the ones where you think I'm officially off my rocker. Just let me know from time to time that I'm not talking to myself.Thanks!

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My History

April 2003... Let the Fun BeginSeptember 2004... First Visit to a SpecialistOctober 2004... Diagnosed with elevated prolactinDec2004 - May2005... Monthly rounds of Fermera, unmonitoredDecember2004... Uterine BiopsyMay2005... Post Coital Exam... diagnosed, hostile mucus (noted 2 years later that the exam was 15 years outdated and ovulation/fertile window was never confirmed, so results were technically inconclusive)June 2005... First IUI with FermeraAugust 2005... 2nd IUI with FermeraOctober 2005... 3rd IUI with FermeraNovember 2005... Uterine BiopsyDecember 2006... 4th IUI with FermeraJanuary 2006... 5th IUI with ClomidFebruary2006... HSG/LAP day surgery... results minor endo maybe... but otherwise nothingFebruary 2006... First Appointment at Hamilton Health Sciences Centre for Reproductive Care.... first internal u/s FIRST proper monitoring of cycle... turns out all those other IUI's were unsuccessful because they were done too early, I O late.April 2006... First monitored IUI with Clomid (6th IUI)May 2006... 7th IUI - First with injectablesJune 2006 - Canceled IUI... over stimulatedAugust 2006... 8th IUI - 2nd with injectablesDecember 2006... 9th IUI - 3rd with injectablesJanuary 2007 - BROKEN!!! Gave up for a year2007 - No Treatments! No drugs!October 2007... First consult for IVFOctober2007... Attended IVF Info SeminarNovermber2007... consult appointment, everything seemed good to go.December 2007.... another appointment... suddenly told I need to complete an EKG, PAP and series of blood tests before moving forward. Then encountered furhter delay due to Christmas holidays.January2008... Following identification of 4cm ovarian cyst on CD3 u/s... pushed for no more delays and got the cycle going.February2008... Retrieved 21 follicles, 11 fertilized, 6 survived to Day3February2008... Transfered 2, Grade4, 8 Cell, above average, high quality embryos. One week later started bleeding. Negative blood work confirmed unsuccessful attempt February 15, 2008.... February 18, 2008, original BETA day, bleeding stopped and the world as I knew it was gone.September 18, 2008 Frozen Embryo Transfer on natural cycleSeptember 26, 2008 8DPT positive HPT. Currently awaiting official betaOctober 1, 2008 Beta 5... stop progesterone... looks like we're back to the drawing board.October 26, 2008 The transfered 2 embryos (Grade4 6 cell and Grade 3 8 cell)November 4 & 5, 2008 BFN on HPT's - physical signs supporting the negative. Things don't look good.BETA NEGATIVEJanuary 2009 A new plate to lick, a new can to kick... Cheers to a New Year and Old dreams IVF#2 here we comeJanuary, 6, 2009 CD1... let the fun begin. Not feeling particularly optimisticJanuary, 7, 2009 CD2... It seems Hope has arrived. We're ready.January, 19, 2009 ER...retrieved 11, 7 mature, 7 fertilized via ICSIJanuary, 22, 2009 ET... transfered 2 Grade 4 8 Cell EmbryosJanuary, 31, 2009 9DP3DT.... firs ++HPTFebruary 2, 2009 11DPT BETA...110February 4, 2009 13DPT BETA...292February 17, 2009 First u/s Scheduled

IVF#2 Cycle Journal

CD1 - 01/06/09 - Called in CD1 mid afternoon after 1.5 days of spotting. Questioned if it was 'red' enough, but went with it.CD2 - 01/07/09 - Found Hope after feeling particularly lost and abandoned.CD3 - 01/08/09 - U/S and B/W, paid bill ($6500 IVF+ICSI, $1085.35 for first round of drugs). AFC: 12R, 15L. 2.7mm Cysts on Lefty, but opted to proceed as last IVF cycle had 4cm cyst on righty that was a non-issue. Next U/S scheduled for CD7, 01/12/09. Start 150units of Puregon tonight between 4:00 -10:00PM... Lesson learned, never inject down the middle of anything, belly or leg. It increases risk of bruising.CD4 - 01/09/09 - Overall feeling good. Accidentally injected blood thinners and puregon too close to each other so, although not visible, I have very uncomfortable bruised belly. Time to switch the blood thinner injections to the legs to avoid further pin cushion issues.CD5 - 01/10/09 - No side effects to report. Injection sites still particularly tender, bleeding a little longer then expected. Almost forgot meds AGAIN!!CD6 - 01/11/09 - Emotions seem to be floating up to the surface a little easier... maybe a result of the Puregon? Some twinges in the ovary regions on right and left sidesCD7 - 01/12/09 - u/s and b/w... Cyst appears to be down 10mm. Both left and right sides have 3 follicles aside all measuring 8mm or 9mm. This is good as they're maturing together. Continue with 150 Puregon every night. Now add Micro dose HCG and Orgalutron ($378) Report back in 2 days. By end of day emotions got the best of me. I was exhausted ALL day and didn't feel awake until 4pm. I then became quite irritable and grumpy and very impatient.CD8 - 01/13/09 - Yesterday moodiness was pretty rotten. Today. No physical discomfort so far. Took orgalutron and HCG this AM... damn forgot the prenatal AGAIN!!! My spirits are much better today and I'm feeling a little more alert and in a better mood.CD9 - 01/14/09 - u/s and b/w... Lefty - 5 Follicles (14x2, 13, 12x2) Righty 5 follicles (13x2, 12,11,10) CD7 estrogen was at 908... up from 519 on the equivalent day last IVF. Moods are still a little irrational. CD10 - 01/15/09 - Feeling significantly more stable and in better spirits. Far less bloating... heck I almost feel like me. I wonder if that's because I exercised just a little last night?CD11 - 01/16/09 - u/s and b/w... We now have 8 follicles on each side (18mmx2, 17mmx3, 15mmx5, 14mmx3, 13mmx2 and one 12mm) E2 levels are coming in at 2632 from Wednesday, so again right on track.CD12 - 01/17/09 - Clinic was a ZOO!!! u/s was surprisingly comfortable. Especially with 12 on the right at 11 on the left. Due to the insanity I didn't take the time to write all the numbers down. We just know there is plenty. Moods remained stable and good. ER scheduled for Monday. Trigger at 9:30PM. No more puregon.CD13 - 01/18/09 - feeling a little more full. Just waiting it out till tomorrow's ER.CD14 - 01/19/09 - ER scheduled for 9:30. ER completed, 14 eggs retrieved. ER was equally as painful as previous ER, just more drugs so it's easier to forget. Went home around 11:30... slept till 4:30, moved to couch for the evening and back to bed by 9:00. Slept through the night. No pain killers required.CD15 - 01/20/09 - Fertility Report: of 14, 7 were mature, of 7, 7 were ICSI'd with 100% fertilization. Back at work, feeling fine. Transfer scheduled for Thursday. Started progesterone today - twice daily. Using Crinone.So much for being diligent and colour coordinated!Transfer was on CD17-01/22/09. We transferred two 8 cell grade 4 embryos and now we're just waiting because that's what the rules dictate.Cracked and tested 9DP3DT... light second line on cheapy no name test... didn't believe it. A little more believable at 10DPT with First Response... even better at 11DPT beta back at 110.... 13DPT... beta 292!!! Holy Cow!!!! This is really happening!!!

IVF#2 Running Tally

IVF: $5000.00ICSI: $1500.00First Pharmacy Visit: $1085.35Second Pharmacy Visit: $648.00Third Pharmacy Visit: $502Progesterone: $522Freezing: $750Assisted Hatching: $400Dostinex: $130Total to Date: $10,537.35POST IVF PREGNANCY MED COSTSProgesterone: $1044Diclectin: $1000Fragmin - 10,000 units: $600/monthPrenatals: $100/2months

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