This is harder than I expected....
Posted by Jayna , 30 April 2010 · 913 views
Having gone through pregnancy loss multiple times, I didn't expect this chemical pregnancy to be so difficult to deal with. Why is it hitting me so hard to lose a pregnancy before it even started?? I think because I had so much invested in this pregnancy, knowing it would be my last shot unless we wanted to do another fresh cycle. I think it's also because it has put doubts in my mind. When we did the first IVF cycle I just KNEW it would work and we would get our baby....and we did. I thought the same thing with the FET...why wouldn't it work? Well, it didn't. Now we have to do another fresh cycle.....what if that doesn't work? I only got 4 embryos out of the first try, and that was two years ago. Obviously, I have aged and so have my eggs. Ugggg, I hate this roller coaster!! It's soooo draining!