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Posted by papoose76 , 15 September 2011 · 801 views

I am so thankful that the time is flying. I am so happy to be teaching a grade suited to me (grade 3). My days are hectic and super busy and I love it!! It is making the wait (for ivf #2) much more bearable. Honestly, I feel like there are not enough hours in the day lately. I really hope that this does NOT have a negative effect on my second IVF. I don't want to be sitting in my classroom being bombarded by my students and crying. LOL! :laugh:

I have the worry in the back of my mind that the cyst that delayed my cycle has not yet gone away. I will not find out until the day before I start my injections whether or not I can start. I have not shared with my work the details of ivf #2. I did with ivf #1. I wrote a letter to administration explaining why I may need time off work. I don't want to make a big deal of it this time. I hope that by not focusing on it too much will help with the stress level. I have generalized anxiety disorder as well as chronic depression. I have not been keeping up with my meds because I don't want to take them if I get pregnant. But what if I suffer without the meds? I ran out of my anti-depressants a couple days ago and have not made an appointment to see the doctor. I feel a little frantic today. God help me.

Hi Papoose,
I want to say that it is admirable that you want your body to be drug free for your upcoming pregnancy but I urge you to not go off your antidepressants cold turkey. Depending on which one you were on or the dosage the rebound effect can be disastrous or at the very least very uncomfortable. They need to be tapered down to reduce the withdrawal. Many women have been where you are now and do so successfully. Keep in mind though that many women also go through their entire pregnancies using AD meds. Whatever decision you make will be the right one for you. Good Luck with your second round.
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Thank you tj, I went to see my doctor (GP) and he basically said the same thing you did. I was feeling it too!! Bad bad withdrawals (?) or side effects mostly dealing with the anxiety. I'm back on the AD and will talk to my RE more in depth about it. Thanks again.

My reproductive history (or lack thereof)

From age 13 to 18 I had one boyfriend who it turned out was unfaithful to me. We never used condoms because I trusted him and I was on birth control. He gave me an STD at age 17 (gonorrhea) and I had no symptoms, so I have no clue how long I had it before I had it treated.

From age 18 (yeah my relationships overlapped because I was "getting even" but fell in love with the guy I cheated with) to age 22 I was with a different guy. We lived together for 3 of those 4 years and ttc with no luck at all.

Age 23 to age 30 I was with my ex-husband. I started seeing my fertility specialist in 2004 (age 28). HSG showed clear tubes. Lap- 2 fibroids removed, some lysis of adhesions. 3 Clomid cycles all BFN. Another HSG showed clear tubes a year later, and another lap after that showed nothing major (exploratory). More clomid cycles, more bfn's. He never wanted to do ART, he called it "playing God". Then he cheated on me and I had to kick the bastard to the curb.

Age 32 (2008) to present, I have been with my second husband. We instantly fell in love and after a couple months of dating, moved in together and started ttc. We "just knew". We started seeing my same fertility specialist and had an HSG which showed one partially blocked tube (non-mechanical blockage). May 2009 I found out I was pregnant!! Very unexpected but very much wanted. Ultrasound at 6 weeks 6 days showed nothing in uterus, pregnancy was ectopic. It was removed at 7 weeks pregnant. Worst emotional pain ever sad.gif HSG 3 months later showed one fully blocked tube, one open. We registered in the IVF program in January 2010, and are just now in the process.

IVF #1
Suprefact: Sept 27-Oct 17
Puregon: Oct 8- Oct 17
ER: Oct 20
ET: 23: 3 eggs retrieved, all intact, 2 fertilized and made it to transfer!
Beta: November 4/10 moved up to Nov.2/10 because I started bleeding heavily and tested negative on a FRER. I am beyond devastated... Beta was less than 1.2 BFN

I am back on the waiting list at my clinic to do another IVF cycle. The wait is 8-9 months, so I won't be cycling until either July or August 2011. In the meantime, I will be trying naturally and giving "Benedryl therapy" a try in case I have implantation issues. Can't hurt.

HSG done March 15/11- Both tubes were clear. Appointment on April 6th, new b/w, pap, and Rx for Femara for May and June cycles.

IVF #2
July 25- first u/s and b/w. Cyst on right ovary & estrogen level high. Injections delayed.
July 28- second u/s and b/w; no change... cycle cancelled th_aggahhh.gif
July 31- October 1st I will be on BCP.
Oct 3- first u/s and E2 b/w- fingers crossed that the cyst will be gone...
Cyst is gone! Started microdose Suprefact (20 units) on October 4th twice a day, and Bravelle (150 iu) & Menopur (75 iu) on October 6th twice a day.
First monitoring appointment on October 12th!! Fingers still crossed!
ER, October 19th: 10 eggs retrieved, 9 fertilized!!
ET, October 22nd: 2 embryos transferred (one was 8 celled, the other a morula)
BFP on early pregnancy test (10miu) on 8dp3dt
Beta: November 3rd!!! Fingers crossed!!! 112!!!!! yahoo.gif
Beta #2: November 5th- 133 sad.png
Beta #3: November 9th- 31... cry.gif Another angel baby in Heaven...

HSG; December/2011- Right tube blocked (hydrosalpinx) at the end where the ovary is. Left tube clear.

FET #1- transferred 3 embryos on March 23rd
BFN on FRER (April 4th)
Beta: April 5th- negative


December, 2012- Husband left me for another woman. TTC has ended for me.cry.gif


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