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10dp3dt and I'm out...

Posted by papoose76 , 02 November 2010 · 2000 views

Last night's spotting turned in to full on AF when I woke up. I tested with the FRER I had under my sink and of course it was a BFN. I kind of knew because of how less and less sore my breasts were becoming, I checked my CP in the shower a couple days ago and it was low and soft (not a good sign) and the leakiness had subsided. I called my clinic this morning and told them about the bleeding and the hpt and they moved up my beta. My sister drove me into the city for my blood draw and we went to watch Jackass 3D (it was a good distraction while it lasted). Unfortunately, I did my blood draw at 1pm and didn't hear back my beta results... I will most likely get the phone call in the morning. I already know that it's going to be zero. My body has failed me, once again. I am so angry and sad and hurt... Ten thousand dollars down the toilet... literally.

DH and I talked briefly, between tears, about our next step. We will do another cycle next year. My sister will also be cycling with me (same boat as me, one pregnancy ended in ectopic, one scarred tube left). I will now try to focus my energy on losing weight before our next ivf, and coming up with some money. In the meantime, I need to heal. :cry:




:( sorry girl... huge hugs.
I've been following your blog (ups and downs). I was so sad to see this update. I am so sorry! ((hugs)) Good luck over the next year.
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So so so sooooo sorry Papoose...hugs.
I'm so sorry about your BFN. ((Hugs))
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manitobamama
Nov 02 2010 08:21 PM
Papoose, I wish I has something profound to say right now but all I can think of is to send you a HUGE HUG!!!
I a very sorry, it cannot be easy. I hope you and your DH are able to work through all of this together and do your best to stay positive.
Wishing you all the best! :(
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I'm so sorry :Emoticons09780:
Sending hugs
So sorry for you
Sorry to hear that this wasn't your cycle. I know how disappointing it is. :Emoticons09780:
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Lilygirl2727
Nov 02 2010 11:39 PM
I am very sorry.
I'm so sorry. It just plain hurts, I know. :Emoticons09780:
I am so sorry (((hugs)))
So sorry for you.... :Emoticons09780:

My reproductive history (or lack thereof)

From age 13 to 18 I had one boyfriend who it turned out was unfaithful to me. We never used condoms because I trusted him and I was on birth control. He gave me an STD at age 17 (gonorrhea) and I had no symptoms, so I have no clue how long I had it before I had it treated.

From age 18 (yeah my relationships overlapped because I was "getting even" but fell in love with the guy I cheated with) to age 22 I was with a different guy. We lived together for 3 of those 4 years and ttc with no luck at all.

Age 23 to age 30 I was with my ex-husband. I started seeing my fertility specialist in 2004 (age 28). HSG showed clear tubes. Lap- 2 fibroids removed, some lysis of adhesions. 3 Clomid cycles all BFN. Another HSG showed clear tubes a year later, and another lap after that showed nothing major (exploratory). More clomid cycles, more bfn's. He never wanted to do ART, he called it "playing God". Then he cheated on me and I had to kick the bastard to the curb.

Age 32 (2008) to present, I have been with my second husband. We instantly fell in love and after a couple months of dating, moved in together and started ttc. We "just knew". We started seeing my same fertility specialist and had an HSG which showed one partially blocked tube (non-mechanical blockage). May 2009 I found out I was pregnant!! Very unexpected but very much wanted. Ultrasound at 6 weeks 6 days showed nothing in uterus, pregnancy was ectopic. It was removed at 7 weeks pregnant. Worst emotional pain ever sad.gif HSG 3 months later showed one fully blocked tube, one open. We registered in the IVF program in January 2010, and are just now in the process.

IVF #1
Suprefact: Sept 27-Oct 17
Puregon: Oct 8- Oct 17
ER: Oct 20
ET: 23: 3 eggs retrieved, all intact, 2 fertilized and made it to transfer!
Beta: November 4/10 moved up to Nov.2/10 because I started bleeding heavily and tested negative on a FRER. I am beyond devastated... Beta was less than 1.2 BFN

I am back on the waiting list at my clinic to do another IVF cycle. The wait is 8-9 months, so I won't be cycling until either July or August 2011. In the meantime, I will be trying naturally and giving "Benedryl therapy" a try in case I have implantation issues. Can't hurt.

HSG done March 15/11- Both tubes were clear. Appointment on April 6th, new b/w, pap, and Rx for Femara for May and June cycles.

IVF #2
July 25- first u/s and b/w. Cyst on right ovary & estrogen level high. Injections delayed.
July 28- second u/s and b/w; no change... cycle cancelled th_aggahhh.gif
July 31- October 1st I will be on BCP.
Oct 3- first u/s and E2 b/w- fingers crossed that the cyst will be gone...
Cyst is gone! Started microdose Suprefact (20 units) on October 4th twice a day, and Bravelle (150 iu) & Menopur (75 iu) on October 6th twice a day.
First monitoring appointment on October 12th!! Fingers still crossed!
ER, October 19th: 10 eggs retrieved, 9 fertilized!!
ET, October 22nd: 2 embryos transferred (one was 8 celled, the other a morula)
BFP on early pregnancy test (10miu) on 8dp3dt
Beta: November 3rd!!! Fingers crossed!!! 112!!!!! yahoo.gif
Beta #2: November 5th- 133 sad.png
Beta #3: November 9th- 31... cry.gif Another angel baby in Heaven...

HSG; December/2011- Right tube blocked (hydrosalpinx) at the end where the ovary is. Left tube clear.

FET #1- transferred 3 embryos on March 23rd
BFN on FRER (April 4th)
Beta: April 5th- negative

 

December, 2012- Husband left me for another woman. TTC has ended for me.cry.gif

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