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When did you first see a heartbeat?

Posted by papoose76 , 08 October 2010 · 700 views

I just read a post that had this title and reading the responses brought me back to last May when I had unexpectedly got pregnant after so long. I was 6 weeks and 6 days when I went for my first ultrasound. I had read that I might be able to see a flicker at that stage. My doctor saw nothing in my uterus. No flicker, no sac, nothing. :tears: My little bean was in my right tube, an ectopic pregnancy. I had surgery the next day to aspirate (not sure if this is the right word) it from my tube. I was so devastated and depressed for a long time. It was the reason I went on anti-depressants. I'm not stranger to heartache, but that was by far, the worst emotional pain I have ever experienced in my whole life. :(

I really hope this IVF works, and that I will actually get to see a sac and a heartbeat. It is something that many many fertile couples take for granted. There's a scene on the movie "Knocked Up", where she sees the flicker of the heartbeat for the first time and bursts out crying. That part always makes me cry....for the opposite reason that she did.




I kinda know how you feel. I saw my baby's heartbeat in May and it was very strong at 6w and DH wasn't there so I knew he'd cry when we went back at 9weeks and had read that we'd see hands and feet too. So when they did the US and there it was perfect with hands and feet I didn't even realize that they were frantically looking for the heartbeat that was no longer there. Brought my DH to tears all right.
I am sorry for your loss. Praying that this will be your time!
I've had 3 ectopics, so I know just how you feel.
it is indeed heartbreaking & unlike a BFN....surgery generally follows with further heartache.
Sadly, i've also had 4 other m/c so I know what it's like to see a heartbeat flickering at 5wks, then again at 6wks & 8 weeks....only for it to not be there at 10wks.
:Emoticons01015:

But, i've never given up my dream.
I'm now due in less than 6wks after 14yrs of TTC.

I like to remind others of my 14yr struggle in the hope that it inspires them and gives them hope too.

I wish you all the best of luck xxx
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Thank you so much, ladies. :th_awhopedo:

My reproductive history (or lack thereof)

From age 13 to 18 I had one boyfriend who it turned out was unfaithful to me. We never used condoms because I trusted him and I was on birth control. He gave me an STD at age 17 (gonorrhea) and I had no symptoms, so I have no clue how long I had it before I had it treated.

From age 18 (yeah my relationships overlapped because I was "getting even" but fell in love with the guy I cheated with) to age 22 I was with a different guy. We lived together for 3 of those 4 years and ttc with no luck at all.

Age 23 to age 30 I was with my ex-husband. I started seeing my fertility specialist in 2004 (age 28). HSG showed clear tubes. Lap- 2 fibroids removed, some lysis of adhesions. 3 Clomid cycles all BFN. Another HSG showed clear tubes a year later, and another lap after that showed nothing major (exploratory). More clomid cycles, more bfn's. He never wanted to do ART, he called it "playing God". Then he cheated on me and I had to kick the bastard to the curb.

Age 32 (2008) to present, I have been with my second husband. We instantly fell in love and after a couple months of dating, moved in together and started ttc. We "just knew". We started seeing my same fertility specialist and had an HSG which showed one partially blocked tube (non-mechanical blockage). May 2009 I found out I was pregnant!! Very unexpected but very much wanted. Ultrasound at 6 weeks 6 days showed nothing in uterus, pregnancy was ectopic. It was removed at 7 weeks pregnant. Worst emotional pain ever sad.gif HSG 3 months later showed one fully blocked tube, one open. We registered in the IVF program in January 2010, and are just now in the process.

IVF #1
Suprefact: Sept 27-Oct 17
Puregon: Oct 8- Oct 17
ER: Oct 20
ET: 23: 3 eggs retrieved, all intact, 2 fertilized and made it to transfer!
Beta: November 4/10 moved up to Nov.2/10 because I started bleeding heavily and tested negative on a FRER. I am beyond devastated... Beta was less than 1.2 BFN

I am back on the waiting list at my clinic to do another IVF cycle. The wait is 8-9 months, so I won't be cycling until either July or August 2011. In the meantime, I will be trying naturally and giving "Benedryl therapy" a try in case I have implantation issues. Can't hurt.

HSG done March 15/11- Both tubes were clear. Appointment on April 6th, new b/w, pap, and Rx for Femara for May and June cycles.

IVF #2
July 25- first u/s and b/w. Cyst on right ovary & estrogen level high. Injections delayed.
July 28- second u/s and b/w; no change... cycle cancelled th_aggahhh.gif
July 31- October 1st I will be on BCP.
Oct 3- first u/s and E2 b/w- fingers crossed that the cyst will be gone...
Cyst is gone! Started microdose Suprefact (20 units) on October 4th twice a day, and Bravelle (150 iu) & Menopur (75 iu) on October 6th twice a day.
First monitoring appointment on October 12th!! Fingers still crossed!
ER, October 19th: 10 eggs retrieved, 9 fertilized!!
ET, October 22nd: 2 embryos transferred (one was 8 celled, the other a morula)
BFP on early pregnancy test (10miu) on 8dp3dt
Beta: November 3rd!!! Fingers crossed!!! 112!!!!! yahoo.gif
Beta #2: November 5th- 133 sad.png
Beta #3: November 9th- 31... cry.gif Another angel baby in Heaven...

HSG; December/2011- Right tube blocked (hydrosalpinx) at the end where the ovary is. Left tube clear.

FET #1- transferred 3 embryos on March 23rd
BFN on FRER (April 4th)
Beta: April 5th- negative

 

December, 2012- Husband left me for another woman. TTC has ended for me.cry.gif

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