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Addison Faith is here :)

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 31 December 2010 · 1249 views

A perfect end to one part of our journey, and the start of another...Addison Faith came into the world Christmas day at 12:34 weighing 7 lbs 5 ozs...Mommy and Daddy are totally in love and loving every moment...Pics on our blog...www.ourjourneytoparenthood-harrisfamily.blogspot.comAll the best to everyone for 2011

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Turning a new chapter

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 08 July 2010 · 1033 views

I loved mostly every moment while on IVF.ca but it is time to start the new chapter in my life.Yesterday I put in "notice" that I am stepping down as mod and going to be concentrating on my natural miracle that has blessed us. I think this is for the best...time wise and stress wise.Not that I have not loved certain parts and people on this site,...

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Our blog

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 06 July 2010 · 761 views

After taking a few weeks break from here after the last "storm" hit...I had so many people want to follow our journey, that have supported us, always, when we got our surprise miracle, I wanted to let you all know I am blogging on our personal site.www.ourjourneytoparenthood-harrisfamily.blogspot.comI will still be around here...and supporting eve...

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Our teddy bear

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 08 June 2010 · 1133 views

The U/S lady said in one of the pics our baby looks like a cuddly teddy bear...so that has stuck!! I still prefer miracle bean :)U/S was perfect! Our DR said "super" and that pregnancy suits me

Felt good after that. 2 arms, 2 legs...and the bean looks like a baby now!! I think that helped make it feel more real.I got in the...

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I never thought I would be here & Beatrix Potter

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 01 June 2010 · 790 views

So a few of you might know - Our theme for our natural miracle will be Beatrix Potter, I find Winnie the Pooh has been done, and Beatrix Potter was my theme when I was a baby, chosen by my wonderful parents.So today I was shopping in Winners, I have had my eye on this outfit for a while, I find it gender netural, since we will not be finding out the sex o...

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Been a while...U/S #2 :)

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 28 May 2010 · 268 views

Have not had the urge to blog or update…Really odd for me.A few things have happened in the last few weeks. Today I am 7 weeks 5 days along. We had our 2nd U/S on Wed, watching that heart flicker away was the most breath taking thing I have ever seen. The bean actually looks more and more like a bean as time goes on.We have one more U/S in two weeks, a...

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Beautiful bean and heartbeat :)

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 14 May 2010 · 1280 views

So today was a day I never thought I would get to experience...I never thought on any of my CD3's while cycling I would get to this point.We saw our miracle bean and there heartbeat

I did not think we would see one, so we were over joyed when we saw our miracles heart beating away :)It was the most amazing experience we have ever been through...te...

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Sigh - I have never been able to lie

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 11 May 2010 · 726 views

...my face gives it away.A few girls in the afternoon at work asked if I was gaining weight...I just shot them a look, I said no, I am just not feeling well the last few days...blamed it on my IBS...then they asked why I was rubbing my stomach...I shot another look...I wish I could lie...I did not want anyone to know for a while yet.

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In less then one week...

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 05 May 2010 · 839 views

I am so attached. I can not stop thinking of this little miracle growing inside me. I am terrified next week they will not see what they need to, and I will loose my miracle. Maybe I know too much...I think that is it. Anyone else that gets pregnant naturally, and has not had to go through what we all have on this site, would be over the moon and prob...

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Happy dance...

Posted by ~*Megan*~ , 04 May 2010 · 1499 views

I can breath a litter easier...Beta #2 is 300 - I was hoping for higher but the nurse said that is perfect, and they are not looking for the number to acutally double, but go up 60%?!?! I did not do the math because it would bother me too muchSCREW THAT I just broke out the calculator and if it rose 60% it would have been 291, and we are 300 baby...

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I will be a mother...

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss
and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics, or money or because I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited.
I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.
My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.
I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body.

I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort.
I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard.
I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.
~Unknown