Everything happens for a reason!

I read a fellow blogger's (Dreaming) entry tonite and it really made me start to think! I am so grateful that I found this site too! It makes me feel like I belong! I know that when I first came here, it was out of desperation, fear, lonliness, anxiety and need for hope! Since I have made alot friends and gained alot of insight along the way! The biggest thing I have found here is that I belong. I have a home :-) I moved on to IVF, I was one of the lucky people who were successful on the first try, and I had a beautiful daughter! I questioned whether I belonged here or not? Would others accept me now that I have a child, would I just be hurting people? Truth is I belong here more than ever now! I see other Moms and I go to playgroups, but I never feel like I totally belong with them :-) Like in the beginning of my pregnancy, I tried to join a forum for regular preggo people, you know the ones that got accidentally pregnant or preg on the first try...I didn't belong. They didnt understand my courage, my fears and my strength and how long I waited for this child! You guys accept me!

Strange how things work out too. When I was first diagnosed -- unable to have children..it was like the world was crashing down. I wanted to armour myself with knowledge. I saw an ad on Kijiji to buy some books on IF. I went to her house to pick them up and she had piles of books, and pregnancy books. I was really saddened, she explained how they were ready to give up, 4 IVFs here in Canada, 1 in the US, and a huge debt, no child and overwhelming saddness. She wished me luck, and i was so fresh and certain that IVF would work for me, she never once discouraged me, she encouraged me and picked me up,,, why was she picking me up?? It was her at her end. Well ... a happy ending.. We kept in touch an email here and there, I felt a bond with her right away! I got pregnant, the same time she was picking up her beautiful son she adopted! 6 week old handsome little boy! Talk about Karma! We now both had this beautiful news to share with each other. All because of IF and the books, I made a freindship and I am going to a playdate this week with her! Those books and our connection brought me far, I wanted to pass that on,,, I passed them on to a fellow IVF.Ca friend in hopes that she can benefit from them like I did. Anyways, I am not really sure where I was going with this, I just wanted to say I am happy to be here and I am happy all of you are here! If you follow my blogs, you probably already know I am a scatterbrain, I think I have ADD or something LOL My mind is one place, am typing another!

I hope everyone has a beautiful weekend!