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I hate vaccines!

Posted by tigerlady , 20 November 2009 · 646 views

I really was torn about vaccines before she was born. I hated the thought of giving them to a 2 month old. Now that she is here, my mind changed. I would do anything to keep her safe and healthy. We went today to get her first vaccines. I was not prepared. I figured I would be upset, but it was awful. It really broke my heart. They gave her a needle in each thigh, she screamed so hard she was gasping for air.. I started to bawl uncontrollably. I think I was due for a cry anyways LOL cuz I couldnt stop. The nurse was a little shocked,,, are you ok?? I tried really hard to get myself together... it wasnt easy. I can't believe how horrible I felt, she looked at me like I was so mean and hurting her. Maybe I am just a big baby ;-)

Its been a tough week all around for me. I had to go to the dentist because my front tooth broke, so I decided to leave her with a sitter while I went. This is the first time we have been apart. I felt so sick and so sad and empty, it was awful. I really need to get more breaks I think. Needless to say i am glad I didnt bring her as my car broke down while I was out :-( Just what I needed. I have been crying alot this week ;-)

Next week will be a better week! On a positive note ----> Shelby is perfectly healthy, perfect everything doc says! She is now 11.5 pounds and 23 inches long. Shes getting big! I have managed to wean her quite a bit off the formula, I am probably feeding more than 3/4 breastfeeding now! I am so proud of myself for sticking it out and trying to get it! Took us long enough but we got it! She really is such a good baby, she sleeps quite a bit at night. She has now entered a stage where there is nowhere she is happy except in my arms :-) I never put her down, is probably why. Oh well, she is cozy :-)

I had my post-partum appointment the other week and I guess my blood pressure is still high from the pregnancy. That sucks, I will have to see my doc aboiut that. I think if I lose some weight i will be ok. I need to lose another 25 pounds at least, I really gained too much weight. I cant stop eating LOL I had been trying to get to the gym, its not working so well, I think I will buy an elliptical trainer for home.

Anyways Have a great weekend ladies! Thanks for being here for me!

xx Anne

~*Megan*~

Nov 20 2009 05:00 PM

AWWW *hugs* I am sure you needed a good cry, and once it is over, you feel so much better, it is wierd. Way to go with the BF...that is great.

Give Shelby a kiss, poor little girl

Take care my friend...

PS - if you need a get away, you know were I am

Come visit your cousin in Milton and we can finally meet!

MamaHugs

Nov 21 2009 12:23 AM

I know how you feel. I felt the same about vaccines for DD and also about leaving her. It broke my heart to see her in pain or to be left with someone else.

It does get a bit easier as time goes on. I still hate to be without her and thought of me going back to work in 2 1/2 months is making me sick. I know she'll never remember any of this, but I will and that's what hurts the most!

Anotherhopeful

Nov 23 2009 03:00 PM

So sorry that it was such a tough week - what an emotional (and hormonal) rollercoaster.

Sometimes a good cry is exactly what is needed - and it is good that you had one (or 10!). Let it out; a good cry always helps to relieve the pressure.

Tough to be away from your beautiful girl; but do remember to take time for yourself. And please not too much pressure about the weight - it will come off in good time and what you really need is to take very good care of yourself.

Wishing you sunshine and rest.

Take good care.

IVF#1

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