Catching up to where I am now.
So, the procedure for IVF went smoothly for the most part. I had an onsite acupuncturist come in and do pre/post transfer treatment. I cried during the transfer. They gave me an ultrasound picture of our little embie (whom I later named "Charlie").
During the two week wait, I tried to eat healthy. What I didn't realize is that I was supposed to keep my feet warm and only eat and drink warm foods/liquids. I unfortunately drank a lot of cold drinks and ate a lot of cold meals.
I know they say you can't do anything that can effect whether you get a positive or negative result, but of course I blame myself for some of the reason we ended up with a chemical pregnancy.
I started to test eight days after transfer and got a positive. I'd like to say I was excited... but, I knew something wasn't right. It was very very light. Each day I would test again, and the same result would appear. Of course I then googled it, and I knew it was a chemical. On the day of my beta my number was 31. The nurse told me to prepare for a negative result.
Now, one thing that is really bothering me, is that I ended up getting a bladder infection right after transfer and then had to start antibiotics to get rid of it. This is why I mainly feel like it's my fault that this cycle didn't work out. I have NO idea how I could have gotten an infection. I am just really susceptible to them. I'm thinking it may have just been because my bladder was so full for the transfer that pushing down on it may have caused this? I just keep mulling things over and over trying to figure out what went wrong.
Needless to say, I had a hard time getting over this one. A lot harder of a time than I thought I would. It's been a month and I still feel emotional about it.
I spoke with my doc for the follow up and he says that he thinks it was just bad luck. He said that the one thing that does comes out of a chemical, is that at least we know you can get pregnant; and then he said that it also could mean there are other underlying issues.
He had me in for a couple tests again. I did another hysterosonogram. The doc that was doing the test said that everything looked beautiful... I also did more blood work and I go in for my follow up again with my doc this week on May 25th.
We are going to prepare for an FET now. I was told this last month, and I know I should be eating clean and taking care of myself, but it's like my mind is under-minding me and making me feel like, why should I? I really am having a hard time with all this right now. Plus, of course, absolutely EVERYONE I know is now pregnant or already has babies.
Starting May 30th I am going to be 100% in this again. I just have to mentally prepare myself. I also think it will help to talk to my doc again next week, to confirm the start of my mach cycle. I believe it should be a July transfer? If not, August for sure.