I wanted 4 kids.
When I met my husband we agreed we wanted a big family.
Now after nearly 9 years of struggling we are starting to agree to maybe one more.
But is that bad?
We do have a wonderful son who will be 9 in less than 2 weeks.
Should all my attention be on him or is it okay for me to take all this time and money to TRY for another?
I know this is a very personal choice and everyone has their own opinion about it but I feel judged.
Judgement by family, friends, and others who have found out what it is we are doing.
I feel like I'm pulling and pushing myself away from everyone and becoming very antisocial. Mostly because it comes up and then things get awkward. They try to give advice, (just stop) or I try to explain some of the details and slowly watch their eyes glaze over.
Why did I ever tell anyone about this?
Then they want to tell me how to save, where to shop, what I should buy. Or just stop spending money. Yes, I know I am broke, but I still have to live. Everyone has their own priorities so stick it.
No one has the right to tell you how to live.
Grrr, sorry I get a little worked up about this.
If I should, so what. If I shouldn't, so what? They are my choices.
If you should, so what. If you shouldn't, so what. They are your choices.
All I'm saying is, I want you to know that, where ever you are in life, I'm not judging you.
Seek more by judging less!
- gibasgirl, Yearning, Red Wine and 1 other like this