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Posted 06 July 2012 - 05:27 PM

of people giving me their opinion on which cycle number I should stop at.

of people giving me their opinion on which cycle number I should stop at.


OMG Yes X 1000.


of people giving me their opinion on which cycle number I should stop at.


OMG Yes X 1000.
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#27 Cheddar

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Posted 07 July 2012 - 09:42 AM

I'm tired of waiting ... being disappointed ... then waiting again ... and being disappointed again.
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TTC since February 2010

IUI #1: October 2011
Puregon 50, Ovidrel
Cycle cancelled, only one egg

IUI#2: December 2011
Puregon 75, Ovidrel, producing three eggs
BFN

IVF#1: March 2012 Antagonist
Puregon 175, Orgalutran, HCG, beginning March 5
Trigger: March 12, seven follicles visible on U/S
ER March 14: nine eggs retrieved, five mature, three fertilized on first day, two remaining day two (4-4 and 3-4). Both transferred.
Started my period 11dp2dt. BFN

IVF #2 Agonist
May 24: Start BCP
June 7: Start Suprefact
July 1: ER - 17 eggs retrieved!
July 2: Fertilization report: 9 out of 17 mature. 8 fertilized. Scheduled for a 5-day transfer.
July 6: Stunned to learn we have only two of the poorest-quality morulas left. No one called to say they'd all arrested Day 3. Transferred both but WTF?
July 13: Started my period

#28 gibasgirl

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Posted 07 July 2012 - 12:42 PM

Tired of my DH dragging his feet over pretty much everything resulting in me struggling with both IF AND his reluctance.
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#29 Cheddar

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Posted 07 July 2012 - 04:57 PM

Oh yeah, hadn't even though of that one yet, Gibasgirl. That's going to be fun again ... playing Sperm Quality Dictator for another three months (no booze, just organic food and no fun for anyone allowed!)
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TTC since February 2010

IUI #1: October 2011
Puregon 50, Ovidrel
Cycle cancelled, only one egg

IUI#2: December 2011
Puregon 75, Ovidrel, producing three eggs
BFN

IVF#1: March 2012 Antagonist
Puregon 175, Orgalutran, HCG, beginning March 5
Trigger: March 12, seven follicles visible on U/S
ER March 14: nine eggs retrieved, five mature, three fertilized on first day, two remaining day two (4-4 and 3-4). Both transferred.
Started my period 11dp2dt. BFN

IVF #2 Agonist
May 24: Start BCP
June 7: Start Suprefact
July 1: ER - 17 eggs retrieved!
July 2: Fertilization report: 9 out of 17 mature. 8 fertilized. Scheduled for a 5-day transfer.
July 6: Stunned to learn we have only two of the poorest-quality morulas left. No one called to say they'd all arrested Day 3. Transferred both but WTF?
July 13: Started my period

#30 Nantol

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Posted 07 July 2012 - 05:33 PM

Sperm Quality Dictator!! LOL. That would have a nice ring to it on a business card. :0)

I'm tired of being unhappy all the time.

Hearing people talk about IVF like it's a crazy pseudo-science thing.

getting fat from all the meds.
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#31 Cheddar

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Posted 07 July 2012 - 06:12 PM

Yep. Also sick of being fat.
TTC since February 2010

IUI #1: October 2011
Puregon 50, Ovidrel
Cycle cancelled, only one egg

IUI#2: December 2011
Puregon 75, Ovidrel, producing three eggs
BFN

IVF#1: March 2012 Antagonist
Puregon 175, Orgalutran, HCG, beginning March 5
Trigger: March 12, seven follicles visible on U/S
ER March 14: nine eggs retrieved, five mature, three fertilized on first day, two remaining day two (4-4 and 3-4). Both transferred.
Started my period 11dp2dt. BFN

IVF #2 Agonist
May 24: Start BCP
June 7: Start Suprefact
July 1: ER - 17 eggs retrieved!
July 2: Fertilization report: 9 out of 17 mature. 8 fertilized. Scheduled for a 5-day transfer.
July 6: Stunned to learn we have only two of the poorest-quality morulas left. No one called to say they'd all arrested Day 3. Transferred both but WTF?
July 13: Started my period

#32 gibasgirl

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Posted 07 July 2012 - 06:28 PM

Tired of my BIL -- who is a new, first-time father -- treating me like a drooling idiot b/c I am childless. Hello! IF is not a reflection of intelligence, or lack thereof.
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#33 KennyandFooty

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Posted 08 July 2012 - 03:10 PM

Ugh...I'm tired of thinking I'm finally getting somewhere with treatments to just fail again and again in one form or another. Tired of feeling like it's ME that is failing. Tired of trying to be happy some days. Tired of living life in 2 week increments - did i ovulate? is AF going to arrive? 2ww...
Tired of the negative and ready for some positive.
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IVF#2 - March/April 2012 - Modified Microdose Flare Protocol - BFN - 3 frozen blasts
FET#1 - July 2012 - Cancelled; zero survive thaw
IVF#3 - October/November 2012 - Modified Microdose Flare Protocol - BFN - 3 frozen blasts
Hysteroscopy and Biopsy February 2013 - All results normal

FET#2 - BFP - March/April 2013 - EDD December 25, 2013

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January 1 - Our beautiful baby boy arrived after an emergency induction.  Completely in love! <3


#34 gibasgirl

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Posted 09 July 2012 - 05:49 PM

Tired of running out of time. Tired of paying for experiments. Ohhh let's try this and see how that works. Yeah, easy for you to say, doctor, it ain't costing you $10,000 to experiment.
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#35 Waitingstill

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Posted 10 July 2012 - 06:35 PM

- soooo sick of spending the money and being broke and still having nothing to show for it
- for having to make my pregnant friends feel comfortable around me even though i am dying inside
- the uncertainty, the waiting, the heartbreak
- the RE whose next suggestion costs 600
- everything infertility related today!!

love this post so much.
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#36 BCgirl

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Posted 10 July 2012 - 07:40 PM

Tired of feeling left out of conversations with groups of women who all have kids
Tired of not feeling like a sexy woman anymore because anyone and anything have looked up my you-know-what in the last year
Tired of how unfair the world feels sometimes....
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#37 KeepingTheFaith

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Posted 14 July 2012 - 05:40 PM

I'm tired of wondering...
will it work
when will this or that happen
how will I explain
what will I say
how long it will take
if it's my turn
WHY?????
am I preggo
why was it so "easy" last time
how many people are judging us
if we can afford this
if we are doing the right thing
when will I go a full day without crying or screaming
how much longer
why not????

I'm also tired of being tired and stressed all the time.
Everything costs money and yet we have to take all this time off of work to do our procedures, tests, etc. How will we manage?

I'm tired of thinking that our chances are like that of winning a lottery, I've never been lucky with lotteries...

I'm tired of bitching!!!

I'm tired of saying sorry, giving excuses, lying to others.

But, I am very thankful for this site! I am so lucky to have all of the wonderful women here. I feel as if I've finally found others who 'get it' and can actually understand what I am going through. We might not be the same age, or live in the same place, we may never meet, yet I feel somehow bonded with the women here. Thanks to all of you, for listening, for not judging, for sharing, for everything! :)
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Spring 2007 - Started TTC
Feb 2008 (Family Day) - BFP :) So excited!!!!

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Baby #2:
April 2010 - Started TTC
April 2011 - Started testing to find problem
Jan 2012 - Discovered MF - IVF w/ICSI only viable option
June 21, 2012 - IVF info meeting, etc at Foothills
June 29, 2012 - told it could be this month

July 24 - Got THE call & accepted treatment
Aug 4 - started sniffing suprefact - YAY! (5x/day)
Aug 17 - baseline...all great!
- start stimming - Puregon injections 125iu
- lower suprefact to 3x/day
Aug 20 - b/w (stim day 4) all looks good, told to keep doing what I'm doing
Aug 23 - b/w and u/s (stim day7) all looks great! Back in 2 days, think I'll trigger this weekend!
Aug 25 - b/w and u/s - left side slightly behind, one more day of stims and back tomorrow!
Aug 26 - b/w and u/s - left side caught up! Trigger tonight!
- slight risk of OHSS, so start Dostinex ASAP and lower trigger to 7500 instead of 10000! FX
Aug 28 - ER todqay - 17 retrieved, 13 look nice and mature
Aug 29 - fertilization report: ICSI'd 12, 11 are fertilized!!!
Aug 30 - all 11 are still going strong - 9 are perfect 4-cell and 2 are slightly ahead at 5-cell VERY HAPPY
Sept 2 - 5dt one perfect, hatching blast transferred
Sept 3 - Froze 3 fully expanded blasts yeterday and 3 more (one hatching) today! 6 total!
Now for the 2WW!!! AGH! When to do an HPT? Hoping and praying this works!

#38 l_belle

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Posted 14 July 2012 - 05:47 PM

-feeling like I cannot even physically or mentally answer the phone on pregnancy test day anymore.
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6 IUI's with Puregon all BFN
Began weekly acupuncture sessions May 2011
1st IVF - long protocol - Aug 2011 - BFN
2nd IVF - short protocol - Nov 2011 - BFN
3rd IVF with Donor Eggs - July 2012
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- Beta #1 Fri. July 27, 2012 - BFP - 499
- Beta #2 Sun July 29, 2012 - 1274
- 1st u/s Tues Aug 14 - a singleton! FHR = 118bpm, .89 cm
- 2nd u/s Wed Sept 5 - measuring right on track
- 3rd u/s Wed Sept 19 -

#39 lexi

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Posted 14 July 2012 - 11:07 PM

I am sick to death of hoping that this Christmas, this New Year, this Birthday, this Spring, this Summer etc I will be pregnant or have a baby to hold!

I am actually sick to death of the whole bloody thing. But can't stop either.

I am sick to death of hoping.

I am especially sick of miscarriages.

I LOVE this topic!
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Trying to conceive since 2007.

 

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IUI's completed - 14

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#40 frostedlemon

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 09:10 AM

Right now I am so sick of people asking me constantly if I'm pregnant. I comment that I'm tired, hungry, have to pee, couldn't sleep last night, I slept well, I'm irritable, I feel the need to breathe, anything, it automatically must mean that I'm pregnant. Because only pregnant people feel that way, apparently. I know it's usually said as a joke or they may feel that they're being supportive, but it just feels like pressure to me. I'm trying very hard to avoid the TTC madness this time and to just go with the flow and whenever it happens, it happens, but it just feels like I'm back there again when people keep harping on me.
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#41 fingerscrossed11

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 01:01 PM

- living my life "on hold" and one cycle at a time
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#42 Laura1976

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 02:21 PM

When you have opened up to someone and then their response to your trust is crass or rude comments. "So are you knocked up?", "I'll give you my eggs" - I never knew I had an egg issue, nor did my eggs??? It may be well meaning, but how be unless if the person is also facing IF they take a step back and realize that IF is a topic that should only be discussed when the person dealing with it wants to and that they will bring it up at that time.
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#43 gibasgirl

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 02:25 PM

When you have opened up to someone and then their response to your trust is crass or rude comments. "So are you knocked up?", "I'll give you my eggs"


You must have been talking to my sister.
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#44 Laura1976

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 02:33 PM

When you have opened up to someone and then their response to your trust is crass or rude comments. "So are you knocked up?", "I'll give you my eggs"


You must have been talking to my sister.


:( sorry your sister is an ass like my supposed BF. I don't know your whole situation with your sister, but I have lost my relationships, and all respect, with both of my sisters through this journey. Thankfully I have also made friends through this journey that I feel a more honest and respectful connection with who I hope to have in my life always <3.
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#45 ValleyGirl

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 02:40 PM

I've had a friend offer me her eggs "thanks honey but I've got my own". I actually got a text last week from a so called friend asking me if I'd "done that in vitro shit yet"... I deleted her from my phone and now consider her a complete and utter uneducated (and crass) class A moron! Infertility has taught be if anything to keep my mouth shut and mind my business! Never EVER will I ask a woman if and or when she plans on getting married, it have kids. If someone doesn't want to offer me the details I sure as hell won't pry! At least we have each other girls :)
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#46 Laura1976

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 02:48 PM

I've had a friend offer me her eggs "thanks honey but I've got my own". I actually got a text last week from a so called friend asking me if I'd "done that in vitro shit yet"... I deleted her from my phone and now consider her a complete and utter uneducated (and crass) class A moron! Infertility has taught be if anything to keep my mouth shut and mind my business! Never EVER will I ask a woman if and or when she plans on getting married, it have kids. If someone doesn't want to offer me the details I sure as hell won't pry! At least we have each other girls Posted Image


Good call on the delete! Last winter (2010) I got to the point of anxiety attacks when certain people's number would come up on my call display. I felt so much better when I got rid of their toxicity. We not only have to cleanse our bodies to be our best selves, we have to cleanse our minds and spirits too!

Keep us posted on if that friend didn't get the picture, do you think she's smart enough to know what your not answering her text meant?
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#47 ValleyGirl

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 02:53 PM

Doubtful - but I am excellent at ignoring idiots right out of my life! I feel this experience has really shown me who is "real" and who is a waste of my time! With a friend like that who needs enemies right? I don't like being treated as someone's personal soap opera or gossip fodder.
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Posted 15 July 2012 - 11:00 PM

I am so sick of going to friend's baby showers that got pregnant at the same time I did but then I miscarried those 3 pregnancies. The last one was today.

It was a male/female shower and wouldn't you just know it "MY" husband won the game where you guess how big her belly is with rope. Please.
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Me: 40 Husband: 39

 

IUI's completed - 14

IUI's cancelled after starting meds - 3

 

Miscarriages from IUI's - 5 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif8388.gif

Surgeries to remove Polyps - 4

 

You are my angels, my darlings, my stars...and my love will find you, wherever you are.


#49 lexi

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 11:01 PM

I am sick of hanging out with friends and all their little toddlers! It kills me!!
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Trying to conceive since 2007.

 

Me: 40 Husband: 39

 

IUI's completed - 14

IUI's cancelled after starting meds - 3

 

Miscarriages from IUI's - 5 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif8388.gif

Surgeries to remove Polyps - 4

 

You are my angels, my darlings, my stars...and my love will find you, wherever you are.


#50 lexi

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Posted 15 July 2012 - 11:04 PM

I am really sick of people telling me I should just adopt.

Like adopting is no big deal and I could just pick a baby up at Shoppers Drug Mart.

I didn't really want to get pregnant and enjoy my pergnancy nor try to have my own bio child first anyways........
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Trying to conceive since 2007.

 

Me: 40 Husband: 39

 

IUI's completed - 14

IUI's cancelled after starting meds - 3

 

Miscarriages from IUI's - 5 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif 8388.gif8388.gif

Surgeries to remove Polyps - 4

 

You are my angels, my darlings, my stars...and my love will find you, wherever you are.