Do I need Help?
Posted by wngu , 06 February 2012 · 558 views
How would you know if you are going trough depression or the way you feel is normal? 6 days have passed since I got the news that my beta was not doubling. After one M/C I really did not expect this to happen to me again. I have been feeling down for the past few days and nothing is helping to make me feel better. I can’t be positive or strong. I am not interested in seeing anyone or talking to anyone specially the ones that have kids. There is nothing in this world that can give me that push to help me get out of this cycle. I go through hours of deep sadness and even crying does not heal the pain inside me. This sadness is so heavy on my chest that makes breathing hard for me. I use to love having visitors and now I tell everyone we are not available. I use to love my job and now I hate it. I use to be optimistic about future and now I can’t foresee one. I hate my body and my disease. I am mad at my family for being quite after hearing the news and pretending nothing is wrong. I just want to be alone and that worries me. What if infertility pushes me over the cliff? Am I feeling normal? Do I need to seek help?