I feel so uneasy, I don't know what's going on or why I'm feeling this way, it just seems like my life has been one stress after another, is that normal? Is this what being a "grown up" is all about, putting out one fire & going to the next? I'm starting to feel completely worn down, worn out and "unhappy", blah maybe? It would take forever to write out my past stress expierences so from IF on it has been 6yrs of ups and downs, 1st- 2yrs ttc then our ectopic, then going through all the hoops of IVF/testing etc, then finally something wonderful we got pg our first round!!! then we have high risk complicated twin pg, hospital stay not getting to experience a "normal" pg, being cooped up in a hospital 2 1/2hrs from home really did SUCK! then our beautiful babes came into the world, they are perfect :))))) Then we come home and it's just been stressful raising twins, me and dh are two different people, it's been rocky. I love him to bits and would do anything for him, but would he for me? I don't know maybe maybe not, I'm just feeling uneasy, trapped sometimes, I know I'm lucky, I'm lucky I have a dh who loves me, 3 kids, a roof over my head, what do I want? How can I get what I want? will this pass? Is it just the mundane life of raising kids? I'm exhausted I know I say that lot's but I am, dh works full time shift work & I feel like the brunt of everything is on my shoulders, I have to drive the boys to the other end of town to mil to babysit, drive back to work, drive back to get them, drive back to go home, I do 90% of the household stuff, I'm just feeling like "is this it????" is this my life????? I know it will get better once the boys are more independant and are in school but that's 7-8months away.....sigh........just a few more years and life will get easier I know that but sometimes a few years can feel like an eternity.........how am I going to survive? There are simple things I'm looking forward to like my kids getting off the school bus at 3:30 instead of me leaving at 1 to go get them at mil, I dread that part of my day, they usually don't want to leave mil(I know that is normal) but it's tiring trying to get them both dressed and out the door, driving home and then the fighting begins :th_acatfight: I just look forward to me getting off at noon going home and not having to pick them up anymore. ok I could go on and on and on but I won't, maybe I'm pmsing today? who knows.
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Luckypenny
16 February 2010 - 01:12 PM
It sounds like you are tired and worn out
Honestly, it does sound like you have a lot going on and I feel a little tired for you! Although it probably will get better in time, it may be worth talking to a naturopathic doctor about supplements that you could take to try and mitigate the effects of stress. Stress really does effect us in a physiological sense. This is a good article about it: http://www.womentowo...ghcortisol.aspx A naturopath is more likely to test for and treat adrenal fatigue than an MD. Now, where to find the time to visit an ND, right
Maybe just adding a B complex supplement (Natural Factors makes a good one). Your body uses up lots of B vitamin when under stress.
HugsALot
16 February 2010 - 04:04 PM
Honey, I feel the same way, except my twins don't get to go to school full time for another 18 1/2 months, I have a 17 month old and I am pregnant. I have everything I ever dreamed but I am tired! Tired of pulling the boys off each other, tired of yelling "GET OFF YOUR SISTER, leave her alone, blah blah blah!" I am counting down the days until I have some semblance of a life.
Chin up, soon it will be spring and we can lock them outside to annoy the neighbors instead, hahahhahhAHhaha!
xoxox
Chin up, soon it will be spring and we can lock them outside to annoy the neighbors instead, hahahhahhAHhaha!
xoxox
Anotherhopeful
18 February 2010 - 06:23 PM
I hope that you are able to find a little time for yourself in the face of all of the external demands - you do sound so tired and so busy and pulled in a million directions.
You are doing a great job juggling all of your demands; please remember to tell yourself that and to give yourself credit every single day for all that you do.
Hang in there and take good care of yourself.
AH
You are doing a great job juggling all of your demands; please remember to tell yourself that and to give yourself credit every single day for all that you do.
Hang in there and take good care of yourself.
AH
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