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Im not sure what it is about Sunday, but I always tend to get really sad and weepy on Sundays. I dont know if its because there is not much activity except for church stuff and finishing up the laundry and my mind has more time to wander and think about losing our baby or what, but Sundays are really tough. I was dryin my hair today and all of a sudden I burst into tears!!! I was not even conciously thinking about the baby.

DH and I worked together this morning to get the housework caught up. It was nice to have him help. He always does such a great job. I told him too and I thanked him. We had a bit of a talk today too. He said he was starting to work towards accepting the possibility that we may not have children. I asked him if he was feeling better and he said yes a little bit.

Its still really hard. Tryin to move on from such a tragic and sad loss like this. Everyone else wants you to be "ok" and you are just not gonna be ok for a long time. Hell, I dont know if I will ever be ok. I feel like such a fake. Im glad when I can be at home so I can just be myself and not fake to anyone.

Everything else is moving right along. Jobs and such...my classes are doing fairly well-learning new routines keeps me very busy. I have somewhat of a regular schedule now. Sometimes I stray away from my schedule but not often. I am back on the zoloft as of this past Friday. Might be PMS but I have to have something to take the edge off that very strong urge to cry and not quit.

Much love to everyone out there