IVF.ca Forums: IVF.ca Forums -> Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Will it never end? I went out to visit with my parents on Saturday. My mother has my grandmother over there for a couple of weeks so I was feeling ok and decided to drive out for a visit. My mom and I were laying on the bed talking with my grandmother and my mother just bursts out and asks "when are you going to start the clomid again"? My eyes got really big and I said "Mother, I am not going to do fertility meds again"!! "Ive told you and DH that now a couple of times". She said "What if I get some and crush it up and put it in your food'? I tried to laugh it off and push it aside but that just really shows how little she actually knows. Clomid is what you do when you first start trying. I did 6 tries of that back in 98-99 when we first got serious about trying. Then she starts asking more personal questions that she has no business asking. I just tried to change the subject. I know she is disappointed with my personal decisions right now about certain things but jeeez I am damn near 40 years old!! I am grown!! I am going to do what I want to do!! My sister is also pissed at me right now too because I am "not spending time" with her and her sons. I called her yesterday and told her that I knew she was mad at me and that was ok, but that I was not mad at her. She started crying and told me that yes she was mad at me and that she felt guilty for being mad at me because she knew Baby G's due date was right around the corner. She also told me that she felt like I was missin out on her youngest songs "firsts". I just told her, those things are not that important to me right now. It is important to YOU and YOUR DH not me. Dont worry about me missin those things, it doesnt matter to me. I know it pisses you off to hear this but I dont care about those things. She is constantly callin me and tryin to force her kids on me. If I want to take your kids swimming, I will call and ask you can I come take them swimming. Dont try and guilt me into it. She has my 4 yo nephew call and leave me vm's about going swimming. I want to scream at her "TAKE YOUR OWN DAMN KIDS SWIMMING"!! "I DONT HAVE ANY KIDS, I HAVE THE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE WHAT I WANT TO DO AND WHAT I DONT WANT TO DO AND I DONT FREAKIN WANT TO TAKE YOUR KIDS SWIMMING". Damn!!! Is that wrong of me?

My dh seems to be doing a little better. Im not sure how he will be on August 18. I want him to remember but I dont want to remind him. I hope to God, he remembers. Its about 3 weeks away now.