IVF.ca Forums: Perturbed - IVF.ca Forums

So I'm feeling a little knot in my belly right now, by some action on the boards and felt the need to get it out. What better way than to put my thoughts and feelings into my blog! And I'll start right out by saying this is not intended to hurt or attack ANYONE, but if you don't like my blog, don't read it and definitely don't give out flak for what and how I am doing/dealing with the stressors in my life. This is a very simple rule that I think people should follow when reading someone's deep and private thoughts. No, there's been no action on my blog, but I just feel that sometimes people need to withhold judgment, hold back some of the negativity that they may have, and if you get a certain negative vibe from someone on the boards, then avoid them. There is no need for additional conflict and stress in ANY of our lives! This is not a place to call anyone down, judge anyone for their actions (whether you agree with them or not), or tell them to take a deep look at themselves. When going through IF, we look at ourselves often enough in the mirror and to be honest, half the time I DON'T like what I see... IF has changed me, yes I snap more, I may not handle situations with the couth that I'd like, hence my trivial conversation with a nurse at the clinic about a stupid consent form! Irregardless, we need to be accepting of everyone and not judge others based on a simple blog entry.

Now if I were a talented, business saavy person, would I attempt to use my talents to help me in raising money for my IVF??? Abso-frikken-lutely! Would I assume that people would view me as tacky? I certainly hope not. If you don't want to buy something, you don't buy it... Does this make people who accept money from their family tacky? Does this make people who go bankrupt or who extend their credit to the max tacky? I will not EVER judge someone for the decisions they make in trying to conceive.

We ALL deserve that opportunity, whether we are good people, negative people, disabled people, etc etc etc. I DO NOT believe that the universe is selective in who "gets" to conceive. Mostly, I believe I am a good person, but yes, I have bad person days. I KNOW this is NOT why I am unable to have a baby.

By reading my blog, you get to walk for a minute in my shoes, my ups, my downs, my joy, and my sorrow, my success, and my utter frustration. I argued with my husband last night, raised my voice, maybe even bullied him a bit because I was feeling like crap. I shouldn't have done it, I love him to pieces, I am a good person. I still deserve a shot at sharing his baby.

Anyhow, this is a ramble, but my belly knot is feeling better. Again, please only comment on blogs where you think you'll be viewed as a support. People get crapped on enough in life and this is a place where I come to share my innermost thoughts within a snippet of time.