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Perturbed

18 February 2010

Posted by jennykash

So I'm feeling a little knot in my belly right now, by some action on the boards and felt the need to get it out. What better way than to put my thoughts and feelings into my blog! And I'll start right out by saying this is not intended to hurt or attack ANYONE, but if you don't like my blog, don't read it and definitely...

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I just don't know, sometimes.

08 February 2010

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Posted by jennykash

Oh to contemplate life, over and over again, to seek answers where none seem to be, to try to find light when there only seems to be darkness, to ask the questions and face roadblocks at every turn. Yes, maybe I am being melodramatic but this is the life I seem to lead.

I hate the person I am in this instance, well maybe not who I am, but more...

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But all of the signs pointed to YES!

07 February 2010

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Posted by jennykash

Ah, another shot at ART and another BFN. You'd think I'd be used to getting a BFN, that it would get easier over time. I wish. After 3 IUI's, 2 Ivf's, and 2 Fets, the number of stark white hpts that I have done is absolutely countless.

But this cycle was SUPPOSED to work dammit. This was supposed to be THE ONE! Every single...

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OCTOMOM? Seriously?

31 January 2010

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Posted by jennykash

So, for any blog followers, it is a known fact that I am incredibly private about my TTC and IVF stuff. Well, I tried to step outside my shell a few weeks ago and let a friend of mine know that we were going ahead with ivf. It just kind of came out. We've both told eachother in the past that we are perfectly content to be childless (lies) and...

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ET Eve

24 January 2010

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Posted by jennykash

So, I sit here tonight and re-read my blog entries over the past year. I see some similarities and some difference of who I am and who I was. I look at the failed cycles, the struggles with DH's disability, and the death of my father. It's been quite a year! lol. I am coping as well as I can. I still have days where I break down and...

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The Cancellation of Christmas

27 December 2009

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Posted by jennykash

Hello all, yes it's been a few weeks since my last post. I'll try to update as best I can. I receieved the call from my mom on Dec 11 (I think) that my dad was dying. So me being the chicken shit that I am did my best to avoid dealing with this emotional crisis...until DH took off early from work and gave me the kick in the pants that I...

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Death

10 December 2009

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Posted by jennykash

Well, just found out today that my dad is dying. We have known for a long time that he is terminal, however he had an "episode" early this morning where he was rushed to the hospital via ambulance. Apparently the cancer has spread throughout his brain and the tumors have erupted, leading to bleeding and swelling in the brain. He may have...

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