It's All Downhill
We rarely talk any more. I say what I have to say. He pretends that all is OK. I want him to know I hurt, that I cannot get over what he said. He wants me to accept his decision.
I know the marriage is over if he doesn't change his mind. He made a promise to me and I believed him and that was one reason we got married. He said he would "do it for me."
I know that if we separate, I'll lose him and I'll probably lose the opportunity to have another child. I don't have the funds to do surrogacy on my own or even go through another IVF cycle with donor eggs. There's no win, win. It's all lose, lose. But I'll rather be alone than be fooled.